Hi everybody here another chapter :)


Santana POV

My training is going well, I don't like to be in her room while she is sleeping but it's the only way, in fact now, I can be near her without feeling the urge to take her energy, I don't know about the touch, but it's good.

"Hey San, Tina send me a text" Puck says.

"What she want?"

"She asked us if want to go to the beach with them, so get ready, tell Quinn too"

"What? You said yes?" I say.

"Yes, why not?"

"I'm not ready to see her in… a bikini"

"See in a bikini who?" Quinn arrives.

"Tina asked us to go to the beach with them" Puck asks.

"Oh, I think she's not ready too" she says.

"See? We can't go"

"I already told them yes, come on San, we are going to be there too" he says.

"If she passes out, you are going to fix all the mess"

"Ok, get ready"

We arrive at the beach and we see them on the sand, Brittany still has her sundress on, please don't take it off!

"You are here" Rachel says.

"Hi" we say.

"The weather is amazing, I can't wait to get in the water" Tina says.

"I don't really love water, I don't like when my hair get wet" Quinn says.

"See, Tina? I'm not the only one!" Rachel says.

"You are so boring, Britt are you coming?" Tina asks.

"Yes, are you two coming?" Brittany asks to Puck and me.

"I do.." Quinn stops me.

"Santana really love the sea, go and have fun!" She says and Brittany smile gets huge.

"What are we waiting for?" I say and Brittany takes off her dress.. Oh god, it's not going to be easy, she has a perfect body, really perfect and beautiful, I can't do it. She starts to run with Tina toward the sea and Puck comes to me.

"You are going to be ok" he says.

"Have you seen her? She can't touch me Puck, did you hear me? I want her, really really want her and I really really can't, you are going to help me!"

"Ok, now go, they are waiting us"

We join them on the water, we swim around and we play volleyball, and I'm at a safe distance from Brittany.

"Hey, what do you think about a little fight? Come on Puck, put me on your shoulders!" Tina says.

"Wh-wh-what?!" If Puck takes Tina, I should take Brittany.

"I'm not so heavy Santana, but if you want, I can take you" Brittany says.

"It's not that, it's absolutely not that" she looks at me "I mean, I'm not really good in that game"

"Ok, then you are taking me!" She says, fuck I'm an idiot!

"Puck" I whisper angrily to Puck "you should help me"

"Take control Santana, you can control yourself" he goes to Tina and I go to Brittany.

"If you don't wanna take me .." She starts.

"No no no, I'm ok with taking you.. It came out in a bad way, I'm going to take you, ok?" She slowly nods, I go under water and I take her on my shoulder, when I stand up, I take some second to relax myself, I can do it.

"Santana you have to hold my thighs or I'll fall" she says, ok now I can't do it "are you ok?"

"Yes I'm fine" I slowly put my hands on her thighs, don't take her energy, don't take her energy "don't take her energy"

"What?" She asks.

"Nothing I was only singing in my head"

"Oh, let me hear! I wanna hear you sing" she says.

"I'm not that good, anyway, do you feel ok?"

"Yes, why do you ask?" I know I'm controlling myself, but I know that I took some energy from her, just a bit but I took immediately the control!

"Just wanna know" she puts her hand on my head, what is she doing? She leans her face down to me.

"If you don't wanna play, we could do something else" I look up at her.

"No it's ok, you wanna play so"

"You don't have to only 'cause I want to" she says.

"I'm ok, how stupid do I seem right now?!"

"You don't" I look at her one last time and then, I start to walk toward Puck and Tina.

"Are you finally ready?!" Tina says. We start to play, I have to admit that's funny even if sometimes Brittany grips her thighs against my head to not fall, we are going to lose, I know. Some minutes later, we fall in the water!

"Santana, you make me fall!" Brittany says.

"Puck and Tina make us fall" I say.

"Look at you" I have all my hair in the face, she puts her hands on my face and she moves my hair behind my head "it's better now" she looks at me, she is still looking at me, I can feel dea.. What? I can't feel that way, oh god!

"Thank you" I say softly.

"Hey San, we are going to get towels" Puck and Tina join the others.

"Do you wanna go out?" She asks.

"No it's ok, I like the water"

"I can stay with you?" She asks.

"You don't have to ask, of course you can stay"

"Tell me something about yourself"

"What do you want to know?" I ask.

"I don't know, what's your favorite color?"

"I don't know, black? No red!... Both"

"I like the rainbow"

"The rainbow isn't a color"

"Not but it has all of them" she says.

"You are right, everyone should think your way"

"Ashley never told me something like that"

"I bet she tells you other sweet things" I say.

"Not so much" she mumbles.

"Are you.. Are you two ok?"

"I think, it's that.. We don't talk so much lately"

"And what do you do?"

"Well.. Most of the time we end up, you know"

"Oh yeah, sorry, I didn't get it immediately!" I say embarrassed.

"Don't worry, I think sex is important, but it shouldn't be the only thing, what do you think?"

"I like sex, but making love is something so much more. I really don't think it's the only thing, there's so much more. I had a girlfriend some year ago, we didn't have sex for like a year and our story was really good, it's all about us you know, we talked for hours, we spent time together like every day, we were happy, so no, I don't think sex is the only thing, I think that if you have sex only because you are together and you don't wanna talk or something like that, something isn't right. I think that if you have sex with your girlfriend, it's because you want to share something with her, you know, 'cause you wanna be with her in that way" she looks at me, she is really looking at me, oh god my heart, when she looks at me like that, she makes my heart beat, it's so weird, but so good at the same time, four beats, four amazing beats. When I return to reality, I feel something warm on my cheek, her hand is there, what's she doing? I look at her in the eyes, why her hand is on my cheek? Don't get me wrong I like it, I really like it, but I'm a little scared.

"That…that was really sweet" she says.

"It's what I.." I interrupt myself when I see her get close to me, like her face really close to mine, she's looking at my lips and I feel shivers on my body, her lips are almost on mine, I take a deep breath, I can feel on my lips her energy, fuck I'm taking it, I take control and I close my eyes, I know what to do "B-Britt y-you shouldn't do it" I open my eyes and I see her looking at me a little concerned, she pulls back rapidly.

"I'm so sorry, Santana I don't know why I did it, I'm sorry"

"Brittany, it's not that I don't want it, you have a girlfriend and it's not right, it's difficult to me to stop you, but I like you so I can't kiss you now" fuck I told her, I told her that I like her.

"Maybe w-we should join the others" I nod and we go to the towels. It was so fucking exciting, I have to turn off myself!

Brittany POV

How the hell could it happen? I almost kissed her, if she wouldn't have stopped me, I would have kissed her! I almost cheated on Ashley, well not really only 'cause I didn't really kiss her, it doesn't mean that I didn't want to do it. I'm a cheater, I know that we weren't so good lately but it doesn't mean I had the right to cheat.

"Britt..Britt?" Tina calls me.

"What?"

"Your phone is ringing"

"Oh ok" I look at my phone. Ashley is calling me now?

"Aren't you going to answer?" She asks.

"Yeah" I say softly, I stand up and I start to walk, I turn and I see Santana looks at me a little sadly "hi Ash.. I'm at the beach.. Because your phone was off.. I thought you were sleeping.. Are you mad?.. Do you wanna come now?.. Come please I'm here with the others.. I don't know what to say to you.. If I wake you, you get mad and if I don't, you are get mad anyway, what should I do?.. I don't wanna fight Ashley, I'm only saying.. Then stay at home.. Yes I'm fucking mad at you.. Not now, I don't want you here, I wanna enjoy this day at the beach.. Yeah bye" Good, now not only did I almost kiss Santana, I fought with Ashley too! Why did I get up from the bed this morning?! I lay on the towel and I pull my headphone on.

"Britt, are you ok?" Rachel asks.

"Mmh?" I pull off the headphones.

"Are you ok?"

"I fought with Ashley"

"Why?"

"She always get mad if you wake her or if you don't wake her, everything I do is going to get her mad, I'm a little tired"

"Ok, I'll leave you alone" she leaves me. I don't know what to think, should I think about the kiss or about the fight? You know what? I don't wanna think about anything right now.

"Hey Brittany you are here alone from awhile" Quinn says.

"Yeah, I was only thinking"

"Are you ok?"

"Yeah just a little fight with Ashley, my girlfriend so, nothing big" I say.

"If you wanna talk, I'm here"

"Thank you Quinn" I look around and I see Sam and Rachel talking with Puck and Tina but, where's Santana?

"She is going to walk a little, she is right there" Quinn says and she joins the others, was I thinking too loud?! I turn and I see Santana's back, she is walking, I look at the others no one is giving attention to me, I stand up and I run toward Santana, when I'm near her, I start to walk.

"Hey" She turns.

"Hey what are you doing here?"

"I'm walking with you" we start to walk in silence then she speaks.

"Was everything ok with Ashley? The call, I mean"

"I .. I don't know, sometimes I don't know how to act with her" I say.

"It shouldn't be so difficult you know" I look at her "I'm sorry, it's really not my place"

"No I think you are right… why aren't you still with your ex-girlfriend?" I ask.

"We.. Umh.. When was time for college… We took different ways, she stayed there and I wanted to come here, she could come here too, but she decided to stay there instead and I didn't want to have a relationship, you know, so far, things get complicated and I'm not the kind of girl who can resist to not going there every week, so we broke up, now she is there somewhere, we aren't in contact anymore, she starts a new life there and I'm not part of it"

"I'm sorry to hear that, but I think she lost something really special" did I really say that?

"Thanks, but I'm ok, I have my friends and I'm really happy, Quinn and Puck are really special to me" she says.

"Yeah they are very funny, well Quinn sometimes scares me but she's fine" she laughs

"I know what you mean, she scares a lot of people, but she is a lovable girl"

"You are really good together.. Did you.." She interrupts me.

"No we are only best friends, she is straight and she isn't really my type"

"What's your type?" Why do I have to ask her such idiots questions?!

"Umh..well.. Body wise, she could be, but she can be sweet but I like people really sweet and she seems rigid, not in a sexual way.. Oh god I don't know if she is, I mean what I meant is that .." She is rambling.

"Santana I get it" and I smile, I like when she is nervous.

"Ok, I want someone who could be more… not rigid!"

"I think I get it" I'm not rigid right?!

"Is Ashley your type? Completely I mean, she's your girlfriend so she's obviously your type"

"Well yeah, she has something, but she isn't really my type, you know, I like those girls who are sweet but a little bitchy sometimes, shorter than me but I don't know, it can happen where I like a girl and she isn't even my type so" I say.

"Is Ashley sweet with you?" I widen my eyes I didn't expect this question "fuck I don't know what's wrong with me, it's not my business and I think it's inappropriate for me, sorry"

"Why do you think it?"

"Well I told you that I like you and asking you about Ashley isn't really my place" she says.

"You can ask me, even if you… if you like me. She is sometimes, she was more when we started our relationship, but… I don't know, it's been a while and our relationship is confusing me. We see each other twice a week and when we see each other, she only wants to have sex while I want to talk with her or I don't know, doing something that isn't sex"

"Why don't you speak with her? Tell her how you feel, 'cause you don't seem so happy"

"What if she breaks up with me?" I ask.

"If she does, it means that she didn't love you, so it's better to know right? Why should you stay with someone who doesn't love you?"

"What make you think that she doesn't love me?"

"Well most of the times I saw you out your house, you were alone, I think that when you love someone you should share every moment you can with her, not stay at home 'cause you want to sleep and absolutely not fight with her 'cause she didn't wake you. I think that you should find someone who cares about you, who deserves you, I'm not saying that 'cause I like you, I know I don't deserve someone so sweet like you, but I think you should be with the right person" she says.

"I'll tell you something" I get close to her face, my mouth near her ear "you deserve the sweetest girl on the world" I hug her, I feel so weird and I feel like I'm going to fall on the ground, I pull back slowly, my lips inch away from hers "you make me feel weak" it came out as a whisper.

"Sorry" she says lowly, she was right, I can't kiss her but I really want, I have to talk with Ashley, I can't have a girlfriend and think about another girl, not in the way I think about Santana, did you hear her? She said that she doesn't deserve me, but I think she is too sweet and perfect to be deserved. We are still looking and she is so tense, I pull back completely.

"I think it's time to go home" I say.

"Yeah" we walk back but we can't see the others "where are they?"

"I don't know, we were here, right?" I ask.

"Yeah, our things are still here but not theirs"

"They left us here? I can't believe it!"

"I'm going to kill Quinn and Puck, do you have your phone?" She asks.

"It was in Tina's bag, yours?"

"I didn't have it, we should start walk"

"What? But it's far!" I say.

"When you get tired, I'll take you on my back"

"You can't take me, I'm taller than you, I'm going to push you on the ground!" I say.

"Just 'cause you are taller than me doesn't mean that I don't have the strength, you are not going to argue with me!"

We start to walk, we don't even have our bag with the money so we can't take a taxi. What the hell were they thinking leaving us alone here? After two hours, I'm a little tired 'cause we are under the sun without water, I hate when I can't drink, Santana is perfectly fine, is she some kind of robot?!

"Brittany, are you ok?" She asks.

"I'm thirsty"

"You are not going to pass out right?"

"Well, it wouldn't be the first time in front of you" I say.

"Jump on" she turns her back on me.

"I already told you San, you can't!"

"I like when you call me that" she says.

"Good 'cause Santana is really beautiful but it's a too long!" I smile.

"My name isn't beautiful, it's amazing" we laugh "Come on Brittany, I have a lot of muscle, I went to gym every day until last year and in high school, I played football"

"Really?"

"What?"

"You played football?" I ask.

"Yes, only 'cause I'm a girl it doesn't mean that I couldn't"

"I know but you are so small and female, I don't know"

"My strength was so strong that they couldn't take me away!"

"I don't have any other choice right?"

"Nope" she says, I go behind her and I jump on her back, my arms around her neck and hers around my thighs, she walks us all the way home, and she never stopped to take a breath or to say 'Hey Britt, I'm a little tired'. She is really strong.

"Here we are, I can't believe you took me here on your back" I say "You can put me down now"

"No, you are tired, I want to be sure that you won't pass out"

"Come on San, put me down!" I say.

"I told you no!" She rings at the door and Tina opens it.

"What are you doing?" She asks.

"You left us at the beach, what the hell did you think?"

"We thought you were already at home"

"I know when you are lying Tina and our things were there" I say.

"Anyway what are you doing on.. Santana?!"

"I don't want her to pass out!" Santana says.

"I won't pass out" I say.

"You don't know that, Tina, can you give her a bottle of water?"

"O-ok, you are really weird!" Tina goes in the kitchen to bring the water.

"Thank you,Tina" I drink a little.

"Can you put me down now?"

"Nope" she walks us toward my room, she opens the door and she throw us on the bed and we start to laugh "You are fine right? Did you get hurt? Are you going to pass out?!"

"You are crazy" we are lying in my bed, it's weird to have her on my bed.

"I wanted to be sure"

"I'm perfectly fine" How does she know which one was my room?

"Thank God, imagine if something had happen to you!"

"I was lucky, a strong girl saved me" I say.

"Yeah, you were really lucky. I really would have loved to meet her"

"You love yourself too much" I smile.

"Nope but I know that I'm a sexy girl, who doesn't want to meet me?!" We laugh.

"I have to admit that you are right, you are a sexy girl and you are irresistible" We look at each other "and I'm a liar!" I smile.

"Oh, you are so dead!" We start to fight, she's straddling and she's tickling me.

"Oh please San stop! Stop it!" I'm laughing so hard, she stops and we are breathing heavy, I roll her off me, we are on our side, facing each other.

"I should go, I have to take a shower and kill Quinn so" she says.

"Ok, I'll walk you out"

"Oh there's no need, anyway, today was a beautiful day, what do you think? Well, maybe the extra long walk wasn't but.." I interrupt her with a kiss, my lips gently take hers, she didn't expected 'cause I heard her let out a soft moan. Our kiss is gentle, our lips are massaging softly, no tongue, no rush, no urge to take our clothes off, a soft passionate kiss. I open my eyes to see her face and she seems to really be concentrating, I don't know, I close my eyes again, I take her lower lip and suck it while she takes my neck with her hands and she kisses my lips hard, my upper lip between hers. She is so gentle and she makes me feel, I don't even know how, fuck, I feel like I'm dying. Our lips part and I'm scared to open my eyes, I don't have the courage to open them "Brittany? Fuck Brittany are you ok? I did it again" She did it again? What is she talking about?

Oooook what do you think? They kissed finally:)

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