Chapter Four
Meredith had called Finn this morning and asked him out for breakfast since their date was canceled the night before. She was a little nervous about going out with him but decided she could use another friend. After last night she wasn't sure if Derek would speak to her again or not. He was probably going to walk away just like he always has. She almost fell for his tricks again but luckily he made an ass out of himself to cancel out her feelings. Her and Finn ordered their breakfast and started eating in silence.
"Meredith is there something wrong. It seems like you are a million miles away. How was work last night?" he reached for her hand but she quickly pulled away.
"I'm sorry work was fine exhausting but fine. As for your question I'm fine just a little tired. So what do you have planned for the day?" she pushed her food around her plate.
"Not much I have to put a dog to sleep today he has cancer and there is not much hope." he looked out the window realizing that it may cause her to think of Derek and Doc.
"I'm sorry Meredith I shouldn't have told you about that."
"Thats okay I know we did the right thing for Doc. He would have been in a lot of pain." she finished eating her breakfast and Finn paid the bill.
They walked outside in silence and stood and looked at each other.
"You are not able to forget about him are you?" Finn asked.
"I have tried so hard. I am in love with him. He has hurt me time and time again but love isn't so easy to forget. I really like you Finn that is why I didn't want to go out with you. I don't want to hurt you the way he has hurt me. I hope you can forgive me."
"Meredith I knew going in that you only wanted friendship and I thought I could handle that but I guess I was wrong."
They hugged each other and went their separate ways. Meredith went home to get some rest. When she arrived home she found yellow roses on her kitchen table with a note attached.
-Meredith I will not walk away this time. You have my heart and I just hope that you will learn to trust me again. You asked me last night how can you be enough now and why you were not enough six months ago. Well I thought about that question last night and you have always been enough. I wasn't enough six months ago. I would have never been what you needed. I was so messed up and tore up that I couldn't think straight. Even though I left I never stopped loving you. And the reason I didn't call you was because I was afraid that I would have ran back home without taking the chance to heal. I love you and will not walk away. So if that means I have to keep canceling your dates well sorry honey I will do just that.
Love Derek.
Meredith went over to pick up the phone to call Derek. Only to change her mind before dialing the numbers. She believed every word he had written but wasn't quite sure if she could trust him. She screamed out in frustration. Then decided she needed to go and take a nap.
As Meredith lay in bed her thoughts kept going back to thoughts of Derek. She finally fell asleep only to have sweet dreams of them together and happy.
She woke up to the ring of the telephone.
"Hello"
"Meredith its Dr. Bailey I need you to come to the hospital your mom took a turn for the worse and she is in critical condition."
"I will be right there Dr. Bailey"
Meredith rushed to get dressed she hoped her mom would be alright. She ran out the door and drove to the hospital.
By the time that she had arrived Christina, Izzy, Alex, and George were all waiting outside for her.
"Meredith I am sorry your Mom has passed away." Izzy whispered.
"What I just talked to Dr. Bailey. I rushed as fast as I could"
"I know Meredith it happened really fast" George rubbed her arm.
"Meredith you are allowed to scream if you want." Alex added.
"Mer I am sorry about your mom. Would you like to go and get some tequila?" Christina laughed.
All of a sudden they were all laughing. She needed that the laughing helped keep the tears at bay.
She grabbed Christina and pulled her to the side. "Where is Derek?"
"He left a couple hours ago. Why?"
"I'll tell you later. I have to go." and with that Meredith walked away.
