-Shiver-
-Chapter 4: Finding-
"It isn't her scent Tamsin."
"Of course it isn't. How could the poor little succubus be the killer."
"You really want her to be don't you?"
"Do you even have to ask that?"
"I just think you need to talk to her."
"What could I simply accomplish by talking to her besides killing her."
"You just don't know how she really is, you could like her."
"I don't want to know who she really is, and I will never like her."
"You just don't want to take chances."
"Not with her."
'Why, why do you hate her Tamsin, if you can answer me a legitimate question I will leave you alone about her."
"I don't have to have a reason, it's just a feeling I get."
"Because you're a hateful person."
"Yes... I am."
Dyson shakes his head and walks out of the police station without saying another word to her. She couldn't care less or is she starting to care more.
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"Kenzi I'm gonna go for a walk."
"Alright be careful" Kenzi sends her out with a loving kiss on the forehead.
Once the door shuts behind Bo she feels a cold wind and it sticks to her as she makes her way down the stairs.
She doesn't know where she is going to find herself tonight. She just walks ahead, she actually feels like she can breathe now. It gets colder and colder, the wind gets bitter. Her hands clutch onto her jacket as she begins to shake, to shiver.
"Shit I am already too far from home."
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Tamsin drives under the dark clouds to her house, the streets are stripped bare. Even the sidewalks are quiet.
Coming to a stop, her headlights shine right on a familiar figure ahead of her.
"Dammit it would be her out of all people."
Tamsin tries to look away, to just drive right past her, but for some fucking reason she can't. Her foot can't manage to push itself on the gas. It's so easy to avoid her.
She tries to gather herself to take off, then it begins to pour.
"Fuck"
She ends up opening the door instead.
"Hey Bo get your ass over here!"
"Tamsin!"
"No its fucking santa clause, come here!"
Bo stands there like a poor dumb puppy just getting soaked.
"Just come here!"
Tamsin is starting to wonder why she even bothered.
Bo finally jogs to Tamsin.
"Get in"
Bo does just that finally without any questions.
"How nice of you."
"Just keep your mouth shut."
"Alright princess"
Tamsin slams her door and drives off.
"But why?"
"Why what?"
"Why would you help me?"
"You are starting to make my doubt even trying to."
"Well that is your thing... to make people doubt."
"But not myself idiot."
"Ok, just because you are giving me a ride home doesn't mean you can insult me."
"My car my rules."
"Then I don't need your car."
Before Bo can open the door, Tamsin grips onto her wrist tight.
The look on Bo's face, burns Tamsin in several different ways starting with her heart then her veins.
"Just stay in the damn car."
"What is it with you? One moment you hate me and another moment you are helping me."
"I still hate you."
"I don't hate you."
"I don't care."
"Yes you do."
Tamsin stops the car very sudden.
"Why can't you admit you care?"
"Because you cant admit something that you don't do."
"Or that you can't do."
"I do whatever I want and I don't want to care about you."
"But you do."
"Dammit Bo why does everyone have to care about you anyway. What is so damn special about you what makes you different?"
"I am different because I love, and I care. I don't just abandon people like other succubi. You know what else makes me different... I am broken Tamsin. I don't even know why I am telling you this and I am pretty sure you don't either. But I am just tore apart from the inside and there are so many pieces that I don't know how to put together I am sure they don't even fit anymore. Because there has been so many changes that I can't keep up with. I am grateful for the people that try to help me though they just can't, I am unfixable."
"No you're not, you're not unfixable."
"How am I not?"
"Because I can fix you."
"No you can't. You don't care enough to try."
"I don't have to care to try."
"You are the last person I want."
"But I am what you need."
"What makes you so sure Tamsin?"
"I just feel it."
"You feel something?"
"Yeah something I shouldn't feel."
"What is it?"
"Pity"
"I don't need your pity Tamsin."
"Then what do you need?"
"Why do you care?"
"Just answer the question."
"It doesn't matter it's something you can never give me."
"What?"
"Love."
"I don't know what else this is that I feel for you but it isn't just pity. I lied about that and maybe it's not love but it could be something just as well. I just want so bad to tell you to get out this fucking car, but I don't want you to leave. I don't know I don't want you to leave I don't want to see you walk away."
"Tamsin there is something about you that is way deeper than even you know. I guess that's why I feel for you too."
"I still hate you."
"No you don't, you don't have to keep this act."
"Get out the car."
"No."
"FUCK!"
Tamsin gets out and slams the door nearly breaking the glass. Bo follows right after her.
"Don't Bo, get back in the car."
"You wanted me out and now I am out. Now what do you want?"
"For you to get out of my fucking head! Get out of my heart, out of my life. But I don't mean it, dammit I am so fucked up!"
Bo reaches for her.
"Please please don't touch me" She pleads, breaking down to the ground. She lets the rain pour on her back and through her hair. Maybe it can wash away the thoughts.
"Tamsin come on let's get back in the car, it's pouring. let's just try to talk about it."
"Don't you get it that is what I was trying to avoid...talking to you. I knew deep down I would break down like this. I am so weak."
Bo struggles with her to pick her off the ground and throws her and the car, closing the door behind her.
"Bo this is kind of uncomfortable"
Tamsin's body is laid across both the drivers and passenger seat as Bo is slightly above her, breathing on her.
"Sorry"
Bo tries to pull herself a little back but Tamsin moves as she moves.
"I feel some sort of energy."
"Yeah me too" Bo breathes out nervously.
"Is it strong to you?"
"Yes but I am resisting."
"I don't think I can."
"Tamsin"
"Bo" Tamsin's voice is smooth, it glides across Bo's skin and makes her shake.
"Just...drive, me...home." Bo tries to catch herself staring into Tamsin's eyes. Tamsin's passion radiates in the cluttered air between them.
"I can't"
"Then I will"
Bo sits up in the driver seat but Tamsin doesn't move.
"Tamsin please sit up."
"Why is it now you are the one pushing this away?"
"Because this is just too soon. I don't understand what this is."
"We don't need to. We just need to let it happen and feel it."
The rain begins to clear up and when it finally does Tamsin finally sits up in the passenger seat.
Bo drives away this time.
"We're here"
"Yeah"
"Well Bye"
Bo leans over to kiss Tamsin but she turns her face away. Bo still kisses her on her cheek anyway.
"I'm sorry Tamsin, we we were just going to fast."
"I thought that is what succubi wanted."
"I want to do this right even if I don't understand."
"Bo we will never be right."
"I know"
Bo shuts the car door and walks away, Tamsin watches her walk up the steps before driving away.
