Chapter 4:
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A/N: Growing up did you ever want a big sister or a little sister (depending on how old you are!) ? Well if you do, click onm my profile and find out how to contact me and I'll send you one for free. No shipping and handling charges will apply! No refunds will be given either. Given as is. Incase your wondering what the hell this is about, my older sister (one of them. Im the baby of the family!)pisses me off. Alot. So yeah. Anyway here is the story and thank you oh so much for all of the reviews! Im glad you like. I spent alot of hours into this story!
"I've gotta go Carly." Courtney said back into the phone. "You better tell him!" Carly said right before Courtney flipped her phone shut. Nikolas made his way down onto the docks as Courtney just bowed her head wishing this was all a dream because she couldnt do it. She heard him move down the steps and saw his shadow move in front of her.
"Courtney?" Nikolas said as Courtney looked up at him. She hated how his voice sounds when he was determined to find something out. It turned her on to tell you the truth but she couldnt think about that now. "What?" She said back to him. "Tell me what?" He said looking at her wanting to know what it was and examing her body in the short black dress that was spaghetti strap and wondering if she wore this to be a tease because if she did it was diffently working. It was slowly burning a hole in his heart because he wanted to know so bad. "You know what." Courtney said as she stood up. "Its nothing important." She said as she began walking away as he grabbed her arm before she got to far away.
She turned her head and looked at him. "You cant lie to me." Nikolas said calmy. "No, but I can try." Courtney said as she she twisted her body so it was facing him. "Why?" Nikolas asked her looking at her body again and then back up to her eyes. "Why what?" She wasnt sure what he meant but watched his eyes as they wondered. "Why are you going to lie?" He asked her. "The same reason why you did it." Courtney said back to him. "What?" He said. "Oh never mind. I see that we are right back where we were last night." Hefinished as he let go of her arm. "I thought I wanted to talk to you before I left townbut then I realized I was wrong. It was a mistake." She said back to him.
He just looked at her and shook his head and then said. "You know what?" "What?" She asked him back. "You cant play this game anymore Courtney. Im through." He said as he started walking away. She did the same thing he did to her except she grabbed his hand instead. He turned around and looked at her. He liked her touch."What game?" She asked him. "The game you are trying to play. Your messing with my mind Courtney and its driving me insane! I cant think straight anymore." He said back. She just looked at him. "Yeah now you know how it feels." She said.
"Why dont we stop beating around the bush because thats what we are doing and you tell me what you and Carly were talking about so I can go back to my life and you can go back to yours." Nikolas said very pissed off. She just looked into his brown eyes as her blue ones began to filled with tears because she couldnt do it and she knew it. "You know what go back to your life. Its not important." Courtney said holding back all the tears so he wouldnt see her cry but he knew her a lot better then she thought.
"Courtney." Nikolas said softly as he moved closer to her. "Just tell me what ever it is." He said as he was now just two inches away from her. He missed the way she smelled. He could smell the shampoo that she washed with her hair with earlier and her favorite perfume on her. He ran one of his hands through her hair as she just looked up at him. "Are you sure?" She asked. "Its not that important." She said looking back down at the ground.
He smiled and then replied. "Positive. Anything you have to say is always important to me." She smiled. She didnt know why he was doing this too her. He was now the one playing mind games and she didnt like not being able to control it either but thats something she never had to worry about with him. She never had to worry about being scared, or sad because he was always there.
"I dont know if I should." She began saying as she looked at him but not into his eyes. "I never called you when I left because I couldnt." "Why?" Nikolas asked her. "Because I knew that you would want me to come back to Port Charles and I just couldnt come back but I would have for you." She said as a tear ran down her right cheek.
"There were plenty of times that I picked up my phone to call yours and I just didnt have it in me to dial the last number. I wanted you to be there when I had Natalie and I wanted you to be with me the last three years but I just couldnt.I thought about you everyday and you were always in my dreams and I just wanted you there with me, holding me everynight."She said as his finger ran over her cheek to wipe the tear away. God did she miss his touch.
He didnt know what to say. He just looked at her. "Thats not it." She said as more tears came down. "I didnt want to come back to Port Charles yesturday either because I didnt want to face you, and to tell you the truth I thought you would always wait for me and when I found out that-" She said as he felt his heart braking."that you got engaged to Emily I knew that you didnt love me anymore and I cried because I still loved you." She finished as he just looked at her.
He thought to himself. She said loved as in past tense. Does that means she doesnt anymore? He wondered. "Courtney." Nikolas said as his eyes became the way hers were at the begining of their talk. "I loved you and I told you that those three years felt like forever to me. Hell if I would have know that you would have been coming back I would have waited baby but I was broken." He said. She just looked at him not knowing what to say.
"I wanted to be there when you had Natalie. I asked your dad all the time if he had talked to you and I still did until recently. I never gave up on us." He said. "Dont lie Nikolas." Courtney said looking at him. "What are you talking about?" He asked her. "You did. You said that if you would have known you would have waited but you didnt which means you gave up." she said. "Do you still feel the same way about me?" Nikolas asked her. "No." She responded.
"Now look who is lying." Nikolas said back. "Im not. All the love, all the feelings I had for you are gone. I never thought that was possible but hey it is. Its called life and when I snapped back into reality I figured it out." She said as she wasnt crying no more. He grabbed her and pulled her close and kissed her hard just to let her remember what they had. She kissed him back and wrapped her arms around his neck not realizing it but a moment later she did and pulled away.
"I have to go." She said. "You cant tell me you didnt feel anything for me." Nikolas said. "I didnt. Sorry." She said. "But if you'll excuse me. I have a plane to catch." She said as she began walking away. "Courtney you cant run forever." Nikolas said back as she was now out of sight. 'What the hell are you going to do know?' He wondered to himself. There was only one thing he could do.
"Hey." Carly said as Courtney walked into Sonny's house. "Hey." Courtney said back to her. "I take it you told him then?" Carly asked. "Most of it yes." She said back. "Why didnt you tell him everything Court?" Carly said knowing what part she didnt tell him. "Because I have a life and it doesnt invovle him." Courtney said as she walked away to find her daughter so they could leave and get the hell out of this town before it poisoned Natalie's life forever because thats all it did to people was poison them or thats what Courtney thought.
Courtney and Natalie said their goodbyes and left. She got onto the plane with her daughter. "Mommy?" Natalie asked sitting beside her. "Yes baby?" Courtney said back. "Why are you sad?" The little girl asked. Courtney knew that Natalie was a whole lot smarter for her age then she should be and she could feel what her mother was feeling. "Its nothing." Courtney said. "Are you sure because we can talk you know?" Natalie said back as Courtney just laughed. "Positive. Now its going to be a long flight home so why dont you take a nap." Courtney said giving the little girl a hug. "Okay." Natalie said back to her as she placed her head on her mothers chest and drifted off into sleep.
Nikolas stayed on the pier just thinking a little bit longer and then left for home. "Emily?" He yelled once he got in there. "Yeah?" She said as she came around the cornor. "We need to talk." He said. "Yeah I was thinking the same thing." Emily said. "You were?" Nikolas asked her as he made his way into the living room completely and took his jacket off. "Yeah. You've been acting weird lately and I think I know why." She said as she moved closer to him but not too close.
"Why do you think I've been acting weird?" Nikolas said. "No you can speak first because you said it first." Emily said not knowing what he was going to say. "Are you sure because it doesnt matter to me." He said as he looked at her. "I insist on you going first." She said as she made a hand gesture to him. "Okay where do I began. Where do I began." He stated over to himself but aloud as Emily just stood there wondering what he was about to say.
"I want to be up front with you about everything." He said. "And so do I." Emily said back. "Okay good. Then we agree." He said as he made his way over to his desk and placed his hands on it. "I dont want to get married no more and before you say anything let me just finish." He said knowing that she would cut him off as she just looked at him.
"I was using you to get over my feelings for somebody else and I do love you just not the way I should. I love you more as a friend then anything and we could never be more than that again." He said as he began up again. "Im sorry if I caused any hurt to you for doing this but I just needed to get this over with before you got into this relationship with me and then I tell you." he finished.
"Well atleast we agree on something." Emily said. "What?" Nikolas said back. "Yeah I was getting ready to tell you the same thing. I know that you went and met Courtney on the pier and that you were still in love with her but I didnt care. I wanted to be felt needed again and loved but it was all a joke from the begining." She finished. "How did you know where I was going?" He asked her curious on how she knew.
"I saw the way you looked at her today and how you thought nobody was looking at you and how you left right after she did." Emily said. "But its okay and in fact I think you should go find her." Emily said. "No hard feelings then?" Nikolas asked her. "Nope. None I promise I was doing the same thing to you its just that you have another chance and dont ruin it by staying with me." Emily said as she walked out the door. "Have a good life Nikolas. I wish you happiness." She said before she shuted the door.
It was later that night when her phone rang. "Hello?" Courtney said into the phone. "Oh hey James." she said. "Yeah I just got back today." "Of course I missed you when are you coming to see me?" She asked the person on the other line as there was a knock on the door. "Here talk to Nattie." Courtney said as she passed the phone to the little girl on the floor who was watching 'Lilo and Stich.'
Courtney walked over to the door and opened it. "Oh my god. What are you doing here?" She asked. It was raining where she lived."You're wet. Come inside." She said as she opened the door and let him in. "I have to talk to you." He said. "Nikolas. You came all this way just to talk when you could have picked up the phone and call?" She asked. "Yes. I had to do it in person. I had to see you atleast one last time." He said. "Okay. Well you have to wait until she goes to bed." Courtney said. "Take off your jacket and I'll be right back." She said as shewentup the steps.
She came back down two minutes later and handed him sweatpants and a shirt. He looked at them and laughed. "You stole my clothes." He said as he shook his head. "Possesion. 9/10 of the law. They were at my house they are mine." She said. "Bathroon?" He asked. "One is right down there." She said pointing down the hallway. She made her way over to the couch and sat down watching the last of the movie.
"Really?" Natalie said into the phone as Nikolas came back out and sat beside Courtney. "Here mommy. James wants to talk to you now." She said as she handed Courtney the phone. "Yeah no problem but listen I have to go I'll talk to you later." She said into the phone. "Love you too." She said as she hung it up. "Who's James?" Nikolas asked. "Mommy's friend." Natalie responded. "You need to go to bed. You have school tomorrow." Courtney said.
"Shes only three. How old do they start school nowadays anyway?" Nikolas asked. "Shes in pre-k. They dont do a lot but they still learn something like their colors, numbers and letters." Courtney said back to him. "Can I finish the movie first?" She asked. "Yes but then off to bed." Courtney said. "Okay." Natalie said. They sat and watched the movie in silence until it was over and Natalie said goodnight to Nikolas and Courtney took her to her room and tucked her in.
Courtney came back down the steps not really wanting to do this again because all the times before its ended badly. What could he possibly want to talk about now? Probably the same stuff they been talking about and all thats gotten them is saying things that neither one of them meant but said them anyway. She wonder if this talk would be different though.
A/N: You like? We will meet James in the chapter after next.And no he isnt related to her. Im not going to rip off the 'What if' Story by saying he is her brother. He's not who you think he is either.He is porbably the last thing you would have guessed!Anyway read and review please and thanks to anyone who does review. I love you's so much!
