Hello everyone! Sorry for not updating for a while, busy busy busy... Anyways here is the next chapter, and also the part I've decided to make my own and veer off the trailer slightly and probably the reality of how it will eventually play out on screen but that's the fun in fiction right? I actually have two alterative endings to this story which I couldn't decide between and so after this (more dramatic) ending is finished I will also post my alternative (less but still quite dramatic) ending too. I hope you enjoy, please let me know your thoughts, thanks, Kayxxx :)


That's what's in me – Chapter four

Zoe was now happy that Tobi was stable enough to go for her CT scan. Lofty placed sleeping Tobi on the table of the scanner and watched until she was inside, he then went to wait in the room outside where Ethan stood anxiously looking through the window.

"Is Cal coming up?" Lofty asked as he stood beside Ethan with his hands in his pockets.

"I doubt it" Ethan replied still with his eyes fixed on Tobi.

"What are you going to do about the baby?" Lofty asked awkwardly.

"I don't know, she needs a dad and I don't think he's up to it..." Ethan sighed sorrowfully.

"Social services?" Lofty asked knowingly.

"I suppose that will be the only option yes, but I don't want to put her through that whilst she's still ill, if needs be I'll act as a temporary father figure for now" Ethan replied responsibly.

"It'll be harder giving her up once you fall in love with her though" Lofty stated.

"I know that but it's a risk I'm willing to take" Ethan replied as he looked at Tobi's monitor.

"Maybe it will make Cal see that he wants to be a dad" Lofty shrugged.

"I doubt Cal will ever be ready to be a dad, he doesn't care about anyone else but himself" Ethan shook his head angrily.

"That's a bit harsh" Lofty spoke out surprised.

"You don't know Cal how I know Cal Lofty" Ethan replied as he looked up over his glasses at him.


Ethan was now stood beside Tobi's tiny bed in paediatrics reading through her notes. Her scan had come back clear and the fluid from the spinal tab did too; she was going to be fine. She lay on her back kicking her legs about and scanning every inch of the room warily with her eyes as she cooed away, it was like nothing had ever happened.

"Unbelievable" Ethan shook his head in amazement as he looked down at the baby, "You're so alert, a few hours ago we nearly lost you...It's like you haven't got a care in the word" he chuckled as he held her hand, "though, I suppose that's true- you are a baby after all" he smiled. Tobi continued to look around her as if she were searching for something, "He's not here, he's done the one thing he knows how to do perfectly – ran and hid and left me to pick up the pieces again as always" he sighed. The baby let out a squeal which snapped him out of his thoughts, "I don't mind though, we do okay together don't we little Tobi?" he grinned, the baby smiled up at him, "I never thought I'd be an uncle, I'm enjoying it so far, though I suppose I'll regret saying that once I'm left cleaning all the dirty nappies as part of my 'Uncle duties', famous last words" he chuckled. There was a knock at the door; both Ethan's and Tobi's head turned to see who it was.

It was Charlie, he walked over to get a look at the baby; she let out a giggle as she saw him. "Wow you've recovered quickly little one" he spoke out impressed. Ethan smiled proudly as he watched on.

"Has Cal come back?" Charlie asked.

Ethan's smile quickly dropped and he fixed his eyes on the ground, "No" he sighed.

Disappointment was so evidently present on the older man's face, "Do you think you'll be seeing him soon?" he asked.

"Yes he'll probably stagger in about 2 in the morning with some random girl who seems to have found herself surgically attached to his lips, as always" Ethan rolled his eyes.

"Right..." Charlie sighed, "Well can you give him these, they're his DNA results" He handed Ethan an envelope and left him alone to be with his niece once more.

Ethan looked down at the envelope, still quite shocked at the fact his brother would even think to do a DNA test on such a poorly baby in the first place. He looked at Tobi who watched his every move "I suppose these results mean nothing to him anyway, it looks as though he's not going to be a dad either way...it'll be okay for me to open it won't it?" he spoke to the baby and then opened up the envelope. He felt his heart completely shatter as he read the word 'Negative' at the top, "What?" he spat out as he fixed his glasses on his face hoping it would just be his eyes tricking him into seeing something different on the paper, "surely not..." he shook his head as he stared at the paper, he just couldn't take this in; Cal wasn't Tobi's father. Tobi let out a wail which seemed to startle Ethan, "Shh Tobi" he spat out in fright as he thought. He looked up at the door and spotted Charlie walking passed, "Charlie!" he called as he hurried after him down the hall.

"Everything okay?" Charlie asked as Ethan caught up to him.

"These results" Ethan spoke out breathlessly as he held them up, "do you think there could be some sort of mistake with them somehow? Maybe the fact she was ill when the test was carried out could have tempered with the results?" he suggested.

Charlie looked at him confused "It's very unlikely" he replied, "what's wrong with them?" he asked warily.

"Nothing" Ethan replied as he shoved them into the pocket of his scrubs, "it's nothing" he forced out a smile and rushed back to Tobi's room leaving Charlie stood in the hallway in complete confusion.

He walked in and slowly closed the door behind him, he took in a deep breath and turned to face Tobi but he found she wasn't alone.

"Cal, you're back!" He called in shock as he saw his older brother smiling down at the baby, "why did you come back?" He asked, still frozen by the door.

"Because she needs her daddy" Cal replied as he continued to smile down at the baby.

Ethan was speechless, "Where did you go?" He managed to ask.

"Shopping" Cal replied, his eyes completely captured by Tobi's wondrous gaze.

"Sorry?" Ethan asked confused, did he seriously just hear his brother correctly?

"Well, I figured this one will be moving in once she's discharged so she's going to need a few things, yes that's right Tobes I've been doing some shopping for you, yes I have" he grinned as he tickled her causing her to giggle uncontrollably.

"What did you get?" Ethan asked in dread.

"Well apparently everything I picked out proved I had no fashion sense whatsoever so a lady helped me pick out some new clothes, I got some nappies and milk formula and toys, I've also ordered a cot for her and a pram, the lady suggested a pink one but there's no way I'm walking around with a bright pink pram that's where I draw the line...oh and I got her one of those walker things but the lady said I'll regret teaching her how to walk early because she'll be all over the place" he explained to his younger brother who watched him warily.

"Oh right" Ethan replied awkwardly.

"But honestly Ethan, I'm excited" Cal admitted. Ethan's jaw dropped he couldn't find any words, all this time he thought his older brother had been the coward yet again and ran away when life got hard but instead he'd been responsible for what seems like the first time ever though now, it was hard to watch.

"I think I was mixing fear up for excitement" Cal added as he leaned over the baby once more and took hold of her hand, "she's going to be my little best friend...isn't that right Tobes? Oh you're definitely going to be a little daddy's girl aren't you?" He laughed.

Ethan had to look away in fear his brother would notice the glimmer of tears in his eyes, this was too hard to watch "Zoe needs to talk to you" he spat out.

"What? Now?" Cal asked.

"Yes" Ethan replied.

"I've only just came up to see Tobi surely it can wait a while, can't it Tobes?" He tickled the baby once more.

"It won't take long" Ethan urged.

"Ugh fine" Cal sighed and looked back down at the baby once more, "I'll be back before you know it okay?" He whispered as he leaned over and gently pressed his lips against Tobi's forehead, "once you've been discharged you'll be sick of me I swear, I'll never leave you again Tobi, even if it is just to go shopping for you, you'll be coming with me" he smiled and left.

Ethan slowly made his way back over to Tobi's bedside, he couldn't bring himself to look at her just yet, instead he looked down as if he were reading her notes but only he knew he was trying to hide the tears in his eyes.

"Who knew one tiny person would change him so drastically?" He whispered as he tried to hold back his tears, Tobi was being unusually quiet, "I've never seen him act so, so mature...you're the best thing to ever happen to him and yet you're not even his" He looked up toward the ceiling to attempt to stop his tears from falling. Tobi let out a squeal as she kicked her legs about, he finally looked down at her and she gave him a smile as their eyes met which he returned though his tears now escaped his eyes, "oh Tobi who's your real daddy eh? Your real Uncle?" He whimpered, he looked up at Cal through the window he was stood outside talking to Zoe "he doesn't have to know, right?" He whispered, "What's the harm in him not knowing? He probably loves you more than your real dad ever could, what type of person leaves a tiny little baby on a doorstep?" He lifted up his glasses and wiped the tears from his eyes "oh who am I kidding? It's wrong, we can't keep you..." Tears traced his cheeks once more, "but if he never did the DNA test he wouldn't have known anyway? I could just act like I don't know- if it comes to it we have the letter Taylor left, we could use that as evidence to the police" Tobi let out her cute little giggle as she looked at him wondrously. He was then suddenly hit by the image of his brother having to be pried away from whom he thinks is his daughter, who he is excited to start a life with, who he was decided to change his entire life for, for that moment to be the last time he hears her cute little giggle or sees her wondrous gaze and that image made him completely break down "oh Tobi" he sighed as he rested his head against her bed beside her and sobbed, she tugged at his hair with her tiny fingers as he cried, he just felt so lost and torn between the right and wrong...what was he to do?

"Nibbles?" He heard his brother's voice speak out. He looked up suddenly from where he previously sobbed to find Cal stood in the doorway, behind him Zoe and Charlie awkwardly looking at him from over Cal's shoulder.

"What's up?" Cal asked surprised as to why he had walked in on his younger brother sobbing so heart achingly.

"Nothing" Ethan whimpered as he tried to compose himself but he just couldn't, he let out a shaky sigh, pulled off his glasses and held his head in his hands as he continued to cry.

"Seriously Ethan what's gotten into you?" He asked in concern as he put his arm around him. He slowly raised his head from out of his hands and opened his mouth to speak, he didn't know what he was going to say but luckily he didn't have to as Zoe cut him off.

"It's been a long and tiring day" she stated sympathetically.

Ethan nodded as he was yet again reduced to tears.

Cal exchanged confused glances with Zoe and Charlie before he looked back down at his younger brother who was practically crumbling in his arms. "Hey Eth look, come and see Tobes, she'll make you smile that's her specialty" Cal suggested as he guided his brother to the baby's bedside once more, "Tobi come on, you can make your Uncle Ethan happy again" he held the baby's hand and smiled.

Ethan finally lifted his head out of his hands. He took one look at the baby and had to look away, "Excuse me I, I have to-" he stuttered and hurried out of the room as quickly as he could.

Charlie followed him out of the room and down the corridor, "Ethan!" Charlie called as he caught up to him, "wait" he ordered as he stood in his way, "those DNA results..." He began; Ethan looked at him in dread, "is Cal not Tobi's dad?" He asked.

Ethan crumbled into the elder man's arms "I don't know what to do Charlie, I just don't know what to do" he sobbed into his shoulder.

"God I've had both you boys crying to me today" he joked lightly, "here" he smiled and handed Ethan a tissue which he used to dry his eyes, "you have to do the right thing Ethan" Charlie spoke softly.

"And what's that? If I tell him the truth I break his heart and if I lie then he'll be bringing up a kid that's not even his..." Ethan argued, "I don't want to lose him Charlie" he whimpered.

"Okay" Charlie replied understandingly, "okay" he repeated once more as he patted Ethan's back, "we have to think what is the right thing to do right at this moment? That little girl hasn't got any parents, Cal's ex obviously didn't want her and Cal is willing to be there for her" Charlie stated.

"Honestly? I think Tobi needs Cal as much as Cal needs Tobi..." Ethan replied.

"Well then there's your answer...for now" Charlie smiled, "we'll keep it our secret until you're ready, until you all are okay?"