I don't want to talk about school... to sum it up lets just say that I went there I got bullied, and decided that lucas needed a visit. I have always liked him he was so just great, and he always kept his cool even when in trouble. I knocked on the door and flint answered, " ahh Ness it is you. LUCAS A VISITOR IS HERE". Lucas ran down and told me to come in.

He told me to sit down once we got to his room. " So umm... Ness you... I don't know how to ask this... I guess what happened... the suicide attempt, the hospital what happened? You seemed fine before it all happened." Lucas asked. I felt bad for him. I remember going to his house just a day or two before I tried. " Lucas I just had a bad moment one of those things that you can not explain." his face was starting to look at me in a strange way. " The point is that i will not do it again, I was weak. I am stronger than I was before"

Lucas came twords me and hugs me... I have always noticed that he holds me much longer than his other friends... I don't mind it asides he understands how I feel. I push him away and ask him. "Lucas what happened to your mom that one day". he sits down and starts telling me " It was 6/3/2009 and you were here. Remember dad had come in and asked you to leave. You asked why. He did not answer, after you left and said you would call later dad had sat us down and he told us that the train that was coming back... did not make it, and had been derailed, mom was up front where it had the most damage. She did not make it. I remember leaving the house to go to Kumatoras place. She was not there and I came back, and just laid down and feel asleep.

"Shit Lucas that was what happened? all I remember was that you talked about mom, all of the time and you were at the counclers office almost all the time."

He broke into tears and hugs me, " I hate myself, I hate Claus. He is the lucky one he got the girl in the end. I have not even had a girlfriend and he gets all of the girls. You are lucky you have paula."

I felt bad for him. he wants love so much he just needs some one who understands him and is his. it must be hard for him. I have Paula, Claus has Kumatora, and the only one who I don't think has a boyfriend/ girlfriend is that Raine girl... i don't know her so well so who knows... i'm starting to think that she may be good for Lucas. I don't know... cupid Ness to the rescue yay.