Chapter 4: Old Habits Die Hard

He should have known she was right there, should have known that she was listening to his stupid words. What was he supposed to say though? That it physically hurt him to see her so upset that her rain came back full force, which is why he refused to believe it was her rain. Or that he shouldn't be the one to take it away again, because he doesn't deserve the love she gives him for doing nothing. That she was way too good for him. The rain fell harder down on the window, causing the outside to be barely visible.

"Way to go dumbass," He heard the flame brain say before running off to get some fire. He let out a large sigh looking around for some sort of answer, instead he was met with pissed off faces all pointed in his direction. Great how was he going to fix this mess.


She never thought she would feel like this again. She never thought that she would have accepted the rain into her life after getting rid of it, talking to it as her only friend and sworn enemy. But yet here she was walking down the muddy streets of Magnolia, on her way to Fairy Hills echoing the sound of her long friend. She spent the night under the tree in the forest just thinking to herself about the world around her. She thought about her time in Fairy Tail and how now that life is over. They wouldn't accept her into their circle anymore now that her rain has returned.

"Drip drip drop" she mumbled walking up the stairs to the home she use to have. Juvia moved slow and steady, feeling the weight of the rain fall on her shoulders with every step closer and closer to her room. She reached the light blue door and felt the rain increase just a little bit. The reappointed rain woman breathed heavily and opened the door for the last time for a while.

The room that usually brought her the joy of seeing her beloved, now just brought back the memories of cluelessness. How could she believe that one day he would love her the same way if he didn't see the significance of not having rain, or the crushing feeling of having it return? She grabbed a box and started packing all her Gray dolls, treating each one like it was a precious diamond. When she reached her bed, she noticed the teru teru bozu doll from before and a wave of helplessness overcame her. She remembered sitting as a child with her back hunched over, making these tiny dolls to keep her company. She remembered the other children laughing at her new friends, causing her to make more. Soon her room was filled with them the same way her Fairy Hills room was filled with Gray dolls.

"Juvia should start leaving soon, drip drip drop" She said to herself before grabbing her box of Gray dolls the teru teru doll clutched place neatly on her dress. She stared at herself in the mirror of her room. Years of her life flooded her mind in a single moment. She remembered her teenage years trying to find someone to love her. Then in Phantom Lord where she had to keep herself calm and collective, never able to show the pain she always felt. Life seemed so different since she joined fairy tail, she was always able to cry out her heart's content, and no one tried to take advantage of her hopelessness. Not only her sadness, but for the first time in forever she was able to show her joy. She was able to laugh and joke around with her nakama, no with her friends. Juvia was so sure that Gray knew how much it meant to her that all those years of being bottled up were gone and she was free to finally be someone other than 'The rain woman', she was able to be Juvia the water mage.

He didn't though. He didn't get why she loved him so much and why it meant the world that he took away her rain. Instead he acted like it was the worst thing in the world, bringing back her rain.

"Drip drip drop" She mumbled under her breath as she walked out of her room and into the rain. She didn't need an umbrella, she was water and water was her. It was a cycle she was cursed to live with forever. Now that her rain was back and Fairy Tail wouldn't want her around anymore, Juvia decided to do what she used to do. She'll stop by the guild for a moment or two, grab a mission that would make her leave the town for a couple of months and then come back and repeat the process.

The walk down the street was pleasantly calm. The rain steadily hit the concrete of the canal creating an easy pace for Juvia. Her face straight and emotionless, just like old times. The hollow feeling never leaving her broken heart. The large, beautiful building came into sight as a broken smile appeared on her face from habit. Just as fast as it appeared it disappeared as she walked into the hall. Everyone grew quiet as she walked into the room, a new common occurrence. Her straight face never broke as she walked to the bar, where Mira was wiping dishes with worried eyes.

"Juvia would like you to throw these out, drip drip drop" The rain woman said in her monotone voice, not finding the strength to add emotion, handing the white haired beauty the box over the counter. Mira opened the box sending a little gasp. Slowly she pushed the box back toward the bluenette

"Are you sure Juvia? These are your Gray dolls, they mean a lot to you," Mira said sweetly glancing down at the old doll tied to her dress. Juvia nodded and pushed the box further onto bar, not saying another word. From the bar, she didn't stop anywhere else and headed straight to the request bored. She felt the millions of eyes staring at her. There were the worried eyes, the pissed off eyes, the pity eyes. Outside the rain patter just a little faster as her emotions grew out of control. She took a deep breath and closed the gap between herself and the bored. Nab, the ever present request guardian gave her a look but said nothing.

"Drip drip drop, drip drip drop" She mumbled, flowing the conversation between herself and the rain. Finally a nice mission caught her attention, she had to get a dark guild to stop harassing a village and take out their master. It was in a far away location so hopefully she would be gone for a month or two. She gently took the piece of paper in her delicate hands, the hands that once held so many people's lives.

Turning back around she met his eyes. He was staring at her so intently so… desperately. As he studied her his eyes widened when he saw what was lying peacefully on her dress. Using all the willpower she had, Juvia turned away from her beloved and placed the paper in front of Mira.

"Juvia are you sure you want to take a mission, you don't have to leave the guild." Mira pleaded, hesitantly taking the paper from her hands. Juvia didn't say anything, just looked the barmaid with blank, clouded blue eyes. Mira seemed to give up as she let out a deep breath, taking out the stamp.

"Just promise to be safe," She said sadly. If she had the energy, Juvia would have scoffed at her fake pity , it was obvious no one wanted her within a ten foot radius of the guild. Instead she just nodded and simply added,

"Old habits die hard drip drip drop,"


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