Chapter 4: A journey a waits.

I walked in my apartment putting down the backpack on table. I had feeling I already knew what was in the backpack. Though why he bought me a backpack I already have one. I decided to make some tea and warm up some Campbell's chunky soup. Potato and corn chowder was my favorite. When the soup was warm I made my tea then sat down at the table. I stared at the backpack.

I couldn't help it I had to open it. I got up from my chair and walked to the other side of the table. I examined the backpack. It was compact a place to put everything I need to travel. How convenient. I unzip one of the pockets on the side and found my blackberry. Shaking my I wondered what else was in here. Slowly opening the zipper to the large pocket. I saw it the mean machine. An iPad? Oh my god, are you kidding? I grabbed it out of the bag.

Sure enough it was. Pressing the button with the square it came to life. A picture of the model glider sitting on his desk was on the lock screen. As I slide the unlock slide I couldn't believe my eyes. The background he didn't. Looking through the apps on the iPad it was amazing there was an app for booking flights, an app for hotels and even an app for writing called pages. I set the iPad down on the table than looked in the bag again.

A book or what looked like book was sitting inside. I took it out. A journal it was a journal. The first page was already written on.

To my dearest Anastasia.

Happy journeys.

I thought you could use this on your travels to write your thoughts. I will miss you very much when you are out exploring the world. I hope when you publish your first Novel that I get a signed copy. So I can brag that I know the Author

.

If you need anything Ana let me know.

Christian.

Holy crap. Who knew Mr. Control Freak self-loathing could be so sensitive and sweet. Closing the journal I held it close to my chest. Now all I needed was pen to go with my new journal. AH! Here's one already conveniently packed in my nice new backpack. This man has thought of everything. Christian Grey what am I going to do with you? I asked myself. I could help but laugh. I had to thank him. I grabbed the mean machine out from the backpack and powered it up.

Opening the email app I started writing.


To: Christian Grey

Subject: Thank you

Date: June 11, 2011 2:52pm

From: Anastasia Steele

Dear Mr. Grey,

Thank you very much for your generosity. I diffidently use the journal for my travels. The only thing missing is a camera. I can take of that. Anyway, I will miss you too. Sometimes you surprise me by how sweet you are. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise.

Ana.

Anastasia Steele

Writer/Traveler


As I pressed the send button I waited for him reply. I opened my new journal to a blank page and started writing with the new pen. Just as I put the first words on the page my email pinged.


To: Anastasia Steele

Subject: Your Welcome

Date: June 11, 2011 2:58pm

From: Christian Grey

Ana,

You are most welcome. Being sweet is not my intention but thank you for saying so. If you need a place to post articles you write Mia suggested this one se uses for her fashion blog. I really hope after your done traveling you'll consider taking me back. Please.

Christian

Christian Grey

CEO, Grey Enterprises Holdings, Inc.


Oh God, here we go Mr. Desperate. OK I have to admit a part of me wants him back. To give him a second chance, but I need some space. Time away. Why can't he understand that? I shook my head. I held back tears. I know Christian wanted me back, thing was if I took him back now where would it lead us. I had to get away to find out who I really am. To explore the world and see what is out there, perhaps to discover myself. I hit the reply button.


To: Christian Grey

Subject: Maybe

Date: June 11, 2011 3:00pm

From: Anastasia Steele

Mr. Grey,

Again thank you. Tell Mia I will look into the website. You need to learn PATEINTS. Perhaps you should call Dr Flynn about it. I need to plan my expedition. I will see you when I return.

Miss. Steele

Anastasia Steele

Writer/Traveler


I pressed the send button. I decided not to wait for his reply, but go to the bookstore instead. If I was going to travel I needed to get some travel guides. Grabbing my purse and my blackberry from the backpack also grabbing the iPad I headed out the door.

I checked the Barnes and Noble app I downloaded from the App store. I found some travel guides available at the downtown store in Seattle. I took the commuter train to get there for it was the easiest way to get there. Once inside the store I located the travel section browsing through the guides when someone spoke behind me.

"Well, well, Anastasia Steele. Going somewhere?" The voice said. At first I thought it was Christian, but the voice sounded colder. I turned to find Jack Hyde leaning against a bookshelf.

"Jack. What are you doing here?" I asked swallowing hard.

"Oh I was in the neighborhood." He said with wolfish grin.

I don't know what it is that made this man creepy. I want to run but my subconscious told me to keep cool.

"You didn't answer my question, Ana." He continued.

"I am. I don't see why that's any of your business."

"It is my business when my PA quits on me. Perhaps you should check out the Moulin rouge in Paris, France. I hear its full of whores like you." He said then stalked off.

A Whore? I can't believe he just called me that. My heart sank. I sat down on floor in the travel isle. Then I heard a familiar voice.

"Mrs. Steele, are you all right?"

I looked up. It was Taylor. "Yeah. I think."

"I over what that asshole said." Taylor said holding his hand out. "For the record Mrs. Steele I don't think you are."

I took his hand. "Thanks, Taylor. Does Mr. Grey know you're here?"

He laughed. "Yes and no."

"Do come here often?" I asked him curiously.

"Sometimes. I always sit in the car waiting for Mr. Grey. I at least find something to do." He answered.

"Yeah I guess sitting in a car all day would be boring." I chuckled. "Hey I was wondering what did you mean when you said that Mr. Grey finally found the right one?"

"I meant that he was happy. I saw the way he looked at you. He never looked at any woman that way expect his sister Mia." He said.

I didn't know what to say. Christian always seemed so self-involved most of the time. I knew deep down Mr. Control Freak had a heart, but to think that I could be the one. There was no way that was possible. Though I had to admit there were a lot of things we did that he never did with any other woman. Why did it have to be me? I asked myself.

"How is Mr. Grey?" I asked Taylor.

"He's had better days." He said.

"Does he say anything about me?"

"Mr. Grey does indeed Miss. Steele." he grinned.

"Well tell him I said Hi." I smiled back.

"I will Miss. Steele. Have fun on your journey."

"Thank you I will." I turned away toward the cashier. I paid for my books and skipped like a school out of the store excited about my journey. I head for home to plan my trip.

As I sat looking over the travel guides I bought I was excited to about my journey. I thought about what Kate would say. I smiled at the thought. Knowing what she would say I mouthed it out loud.

"Who are you and what have you done with my friend?" I said mimicking Kate. I laughed to myself. This new me had my subconscious jumping for joy.

I needed to start planning but where to go first. I fired up the mean machine and started browsing destinations. As looked up places of interest my email pinged.


To: Anastasia Steele

Subject: Be Careful

Date: June 11, 2011 5:00pm

From: Christian Grey

Ana,

Taylor told me what Jack said to you. Please watch your back. I don't trust him. I need you to be safe.

Christian

Christian Grey

CEO, Grey Enterprises Holdings, Inc.


Holy crap its Mr. Safety Patrol.


To: Christian Grey

Subject: Re: Be Careful

Date: June 11, 2011 5:02pm

From: Anastasia Steele

Mr. Grey,

I can take care of myself thank you. I appreciate your concern, but I don't need you to tell me how to be safe. I am not stupid. Please stop worrying about my safety and me it is annoying.

Ana

Anastasia Steele

Writer/Traveler


I shook my head as I pressed the send button.


To: Anastasia Steele

Subject: Your safety matters

Date: June 11, 2011 5:04pm

From: Christian Grey

Miss. Steele,

I know you are not stupid, but your safety means everything to me. If anything happened to you I don't know what I will do. I'm sorry you find me annoying. I don't want to see you get hurt. This is why I want you back so I can protect you. It does worry me that you'll be out there alone. I can hire a bodyguard for you to keep you safe. Please Ana I need you safe.

Mr. Grey

Christian Grey

CEO, Grey Enterprises Holdings, Inc.


Oh God. He's joking right. A bodyguard? What am I a celebrity? This man is really starting to get on my nerves. He doesn't trust me to take of myself. How am I going to think about what we talked about if he keeps this up? Does he except me to just say yes and jump back in bed with him? Oh what to do.