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I ran out with embarrassment last night after I felt a change in Kain, a part of me was shocked, but my brain knew he was a man with needs. I made some stupid excuse about having other errands. Kain was always there for me, regardless of the situation and there I was walking alone back to my room I'm so lonely sometimes. I am as cruel as I could be; it embarrassed me knowing that I wouldn't have minded if Kain took advantage of me.
The night went without incidence.
Feeling a little stupid about the other night; I decided to avoid Kain for the time being. Part of me was still a bit confused as to why I seeked Kain out, but I removed myself from guessing. Several vampires were already stirring, despite the early hour, I wasn't alone. But I never felt more alone, I found myself wandering near Kaname's room and wondered if Yuuki was there.
Stupid little Ruka ... there was no point wondering. I felt a set of eyes on me and turned to see Takashi standing there gleefully smiling at me. My face turned sour as I turned back and ignored his existence.
"Ruka, even when you scowl, it's beautiful"
I stormed off in the opposite direction bumping into Kain. I stood there staring at Kain noticing the muscles which ran up his arms. Realising that my eyes were betraying my thoughts, I shook the thoughts out of my head and walked past Kain in a flurry. I felt his eyes watching me as I left.
My embarrassment with Ruka the other night made me feel weak and pathetic. It was one night and she wanted comfort and I had blown it by scaring her off. Thinking about Ruka constantly was beginning to me dull to everything else. Ruka's scent invaded my thoughts as she haphazardly walked into me. She looked into my eyes briefly and blushed. I enjoyed the way her lips curved when she was in thought, I wanted to reach out and touch her. Like a dream she disappeared.
The shadowy figure of Takashi stood in my sight and I bared my teeth in displeasure. Takashi snickered, and my blood boiled. I loathed his fascination with Ruka; I wanted Ruka all for myself.
Hanabusa was busy lying on a sofa draped in a blanket which somewhat resembled an infant's security blanket. He quickly tucked it underneath him as I raised an eyebrow questioning his idiocy. Hanabusa shot me a look and I shrugged it off, if there was ever a fight between us, I knew he was no match.
"You could do with a drink" Hanabusa got up and poured me a small glass of something resembling whiskey. He dropped two blood tablets in and handed me the concoction, I accepted the glass and leant against the wall nursing my drink.
"Akatsuki, you are bringing my mood down"
I shrugged and emptied the contents of my glass. Not in the mood to listen to Hanabusa's mindless chatter, I made my way to my room. As I strode past the library, I smelt Ruka's scent close by and followed it. She stood alone in the library looking out the window surrounded by a halo of moonlight. My breath caught as she turned around.
"You have been drinking Akatsuki"
I let myself enjoy the way my name rolled off her lips; I looked at her lips a moment too long and recovered with a slight shrug. I sat down next to her enjoying the proximity. As the alcohol coursed through my veins, I felt a sensation of giddiness flood through me. Hanabusa had slipped me another concoction and I willingly took it without question.
My focus sharpened on Ruka, her scent and presence was stronger than ever. I balled my hands into fists fighting the urge to say something I might regret, instead I blurted out about wanting to kill Takashi.
"Why are you kind to me Kain?"
"Is there something wrong with being kind?"
I cursed myself at sounding naive, watching Ruka twirl a strand of her hair around her fingers made me feel more sensual than usual. I clenched my jaw and moved my thoughts to the hundreds of books which lined the walls. An awkward silence passed between us as I stared at the shelves.
"Would you stay for a while with me?"
Surprised at Ruka's request, I merely nodded unable to produce any words. Our eyes met and I sensed her loneliness. Brazenly I placed an arm around her hoping that she wouldn't reject me. She responded and leant her head into my shoulder appreciatively. It was low and pathetic, but I breathed in her scent and closed my eyes and imagined that we were lovers. I imagined tracing my fingers over her body and tasting every inch of her. My cock was hard again.
He showed up out of nowhere, but I was glad. I still felt stupid about the other night, since when did I feel foolish over any other male? Kaname was always the one for me, and now there was ... Kain? He was always a constant, always reliable and always available. Shocked and irrevocably annoyed at my thoughts, I shut them down and asked him to stay. I hated being alone and Kain was simply there.
I wasn't sure if he was drunk, but he betrayed no signs of it. His strong arms made me feel at peace and reassured that I was still worth noticing. It was kind and it was the sort of kindness that Kain always gave to me.
Everything was so still and quiet, I could hear Kain's slow breath and feel his warmth. This was the first time in months where I stopped hurting. There was something so natural about being around Kain, I didn't have to care about what I said or done. He merely allowed me to be me. Kain moved slightly and whispered into the air.
"Your hair, it's ... soft" He ran his fingers languidly through my hair. I never let anyone do that, but with Kain it seemed fine. He is always gentle.
I chuckled and Kain shuffled awkwardly. I couldn't read him but I was almost certain that I offended him. I leant my head back into the crook of his shoulder.
"You must be drunk" I could feel my face heating up.
"You're blushing, it's beautiful"
I was surprised to hear those words; I sat up and looked at him unsure of what to say. I looked away momentarily, I was flattered and speechless.
"Ruka..."
I watched Kain, seeing him differently again. His fangs were extended and I realised that he was more than intoxicated, he was aroused. I could feel my eyes widen in fascination.
"I'm sorry Ruka; I don't mean to scare you. I'm nothing like Takashi" Kain turned away ashamed.
I was appalled, she was frightened of me. I stupidly forgotten about the way Takashi had forced himself onto her, and I was practically doing the same thing. I felt her hand on my arm and she spoke so clearly.
"You're nothing like that bastard"
It was stupid, but I kissed her and tasted her lips for the first time. Her body fitted beautifully to mine and her lips were soft and plump. I got up and left Ruka with her mouth gaped half open. I didn't even bother hiding my shamelessly erect cock.
I was a coward, but I didn't want to give her the chance to reject me. At least, she didn't push me away from the kiss. I was in the safety of my room and I couldn't sleep properly. I had to relieve myself twice through the night and my thoughts were directed to more unsavoury thoughts of Ruka taking me in her mouth.
The following night, I felt like shit, whatever it was that Hanabusa gave me wasn't normal. I made my way to Hanabusa's room and growled at him. Hanabusa laughed with delight and patted me on my back. My idiot of a cousin was trying to help, but somehow I think it made things worse.
"If you don't do anything Akatsuki, she won't notice you"
"So you turned me into a horny idiot"
"I may have added a little extra, but you don't regret it" Hanabusa was grinning idiotically.
I was pissed at his argument; it pissed me off knowing that I ran out like a coward too. Shiki walked in trailed by Rima and Ruka. I regarded them all coolly, focusing my stare on the spot behind them. Hanabusa looked back and forth between Ruka and me, he smiled knowingly. I was tempted to set his room ablaze when Rima looked at me curiously.
"That shirt" she wrinkled her nose, I shrugged.
"Leave the man alone, not everybody has exquisite tastes like me" Hanabusa proudly commented on his particulars. For a moment, I heard a collective groan.
Seiren appeared out of nowhere and stared at us intently "Kaname-sama wishes to see you all"
At least this stopped me from thinking about her being so near me.
