Well, not one of my best chapters, but oh well.

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Kaoru's POV

"What are you talking about, Yuki-chan? They just said that that one is Kaoru!" The girl, probably named Shizuka, said looking surprised at the freshman, who was impaling us with her crystal blue eyes with a slight frown on her face. I and Hikaru exchange unsure glances as to how she was able to tell which one was which? Could it really be possible that someone beside Haruhi could recognize me from Hikaru?

"I just know it, there's no reason behind it," Yuki said, waiting for us to confirm her statement. Makita, you little minx, how can you possibly tell that the person next to me is Hikaru? Hikaru coughed and just said that Yuki was indeed correct in claiming that he was Hikaru. Did this mean that there are more people in the world, who can tell the difference between me and my twin? Or… Is it because Hika is drifting away from me and the little things which made us really identical are slowly disappearing?

The club was soon over and I led Yuki aside to question her, why she was here and most importantly why she can tell which one is Hikaru and which one is Kaoru. Hikaru was in the meantime saying goodbye to our clients and was starting alongside with Haruhi to clean the third music room. The sight alone made my blood boil in fury and my heart to clench in endless pain.

"How do you tell me and Hika apart?"

"Well, aren't you blunt, Kaoru-san. The only reason I was able to distinguish you two is the fact that your eyes are full of suffering and pain. You know, a bright smile won't always cover up a broken heart," She replied, waiting if her explanation was satisfactory enough for me.

"Oh…I see. So what did you want to talk to me about? No, wait, first tell me how you know Kyoya-senpai. I mean, you and his personalities don't really match up for you guys to be friends."

"We have been friends since forever. Kyoya-senpai didn't use to be like this the whole time you know. He has a kind and sweet side too, he just decides not to show it to everyone just like that. As the third son of the Otori family he really can't afford to be reckless and playful as me, who is an only child and the next inheritor of the Makita industry."

Wow, this puts Kyoya-senpai in a whole other light. I mean, for me he'll always be the Shadow Lord, but the fact that someone knows him this well, would make anyone wonder if there's some truth behind it. I wonder, if she knows other people at the Host Club like Honey-senpai or Mori-senpai, but I guess I have been bugging her with her questioning long enough.

"So now tell me why you came. I could see how bored you were during the whole act."

"I just wanted to give you my phone number. Actually after I stormed off without an explanation the other day, I couldn't stop but think about your tears and how you told me about the person you like. You can ring me anytime, I should be available most of the time, so just, you know. And while we are having this conversation, my father is probably at the edge of exploding from anger, since I have an important meeting to attend to, so I have to run off again. See ya, Kaoru!"

And with that she was gone.

I gazed at the piece of paper in my head and thought about that she seemed like a really understanding person. Perhaps I really could tell her about my problems with my twin, perhaps I could really say once in my life out loud that I love Hikaru, more than myself, more than anything in this world.

"Oh! So you got her phone number? I must admit, she's really cute, so why don't you go out with her?" Hikaru asked, clinging onto my left arm.

Why are you telling me such things? It tears me apart when you say that I should go out with her. I feel salty tears fill my eyes as I think how cruel you can be possibly towards me. My heart aches, it has been in pain for such a long time, but you never noticed, never asked me what was wrong or if I wasn't feeling well.

"No, she's not really my type. I just met her the other day that's all."

"That's a shame then, Kaoru. But whatever, guess what! Haruhi decided to come over to our place!" He chirped happily. So that's why he was so hyperactive and happy as he approached me. Honestly, I would rather eat dirt than let Haruhi into our home. Don't get me wrong, I totally adore and love her, but I'm scared.

Scared, that if she enters our house, everything will change.

"How did you convince her? Haruhi has never been really fond of visiting any of the host's prestige homes."

"That's the magic of Hitachiin Hikaru. You should know that best Kaoru," He said, grabbing my hand again and walking me out of the room to our limo, where Haruhi was already waiting for us. As much as I want to hate her, I can't, because she has done nothing wrong. She never tried to seduce my brother, she never even put in the effort to make Hikaru like her. And still, Hikaru fell head over heels in love with her, letting me behind day by day more and more.

"After you Haruhi," Hikaru said, gesturing her to go into the limo. I knew he was just teasing her, but I couldn't help but notice my twitching eye.

"Let's just get this over with," Haruhi sighed, getting into the vehicle alongside with me and Hikaru. She didn't seem really so happy to have to go home with us, but I guess Hikaru bribed her with fancy tuna or something of that sort. The whole way home was more or less just my twin talking to Haruhi, while I just sat on the side and looked at the sky, which should make my mood better, but with Hikaru's silly giggling it was almost impossible.

As we arrived at the Hitachiin mansion, we were greeted by numerous maids and servants, welcoming us home and straightly asking us if we were to wish something to drink or eat or anything they could possible do for us. We dismissed them, like most of the time, but I still overheard our teen twin maids, whispering something about Hikaru or Kaoru (they can't really tell us apart) having a new girlfriend aka Haruhi. I just rolled my eyes in pure annoyance as Hikaru lead Haruhi up the stairs probably his planned destination being our room.

This would be a first. I really couldn't care less, but Hikaru was always pretty tense about who got to enter our room and who didn't. I could roughly find a distant memory, when Tamaki-senpai was over for a surprise visit and how Hika almost exploded in rage when he just strode without permission into our room. However, that was back then, our world is expanding and we're getting closer to other people beside ourselves. We aren't the center of the world any longer, since Haruhi and the Host Club invaded and broke the barrier keeping us safe from harm and betrayal.

"Wow, you room looks actually more feminine than I thought," Was the first thing Haruhi said, as my brother opened the door.

"It's not my fault. Kaoru does the decorating!"

"Hikaru… so you don't like my decorating?" I said, a small fake tear rolling down my cheek. Hikaru caught my drift and immediately embraced me and pressed my head against his chest. We weren't at the Host Club, but we just got so used to it, that sometimes we just do it to annoy Haruhi. You would think Hikaru would want to put a stop to that, but I guess his silly and childish mind was secretly hoping that Haruhi would somehow in a twisted way get jealous? I have really no clue how Hika's mind works when it comes to complicated issues like love.

"Baka, I could never. I love it more than you can imagine."

"Hikaru…"

"So I might as well leave you two," Haruhi sweat dropped, looking away. Hikaru immediately snapped out of it and almost hysterically yelled out.

"No, you have been here for barely five minutes!"

So he reverted back. This was quicker than usual. Normally, Hikaru holds me for awhile after our act ends. But I guess I can't expect something as selfish as that from a man who's in love. I felt a light pain in my chest area and wondered if this is what lovesickness feels like. I sighed and just slipped out of the room, saying I needed to speak to the cook about that day's dinner.

I dashed quickly through the and into the library. I needed something to calm me down and the only thing which was able to do so was very well hidden under a bookshelf in the second floor of the library, where all the religious stuff was stored. Hikaru would rather kill himself than ever step into this area of the library. I put some books aside and pulled out a little chest from behind them.

I had to smile as soon as I saw the familiar engravings on the wooden box. I haven't looked at it in quite awhile, but I always kept it in mind. I unlocked in and slowly opened it, revealing a small glass figure of a phoenix. I felt my inside grow warmer as I looked at it, the afternoon soon reflecting in it, creating a harmonic spectrum of warm red and orange colors.

This was a present from Hika when were like 6 years old.

I still remember it clearly. I broke one of my favorite toys and cried. The maids did everything to cheer me up, but I just kept weeping. The toy was custom made, so until our parents would return and ordered me a new one, I was really unbearable to be with.

"Here, Kao, look what I found in the storage unit!"

"Huh, what's that, Hika?" I asked, as he showed me a shiny object colored in a deep shade of crimson. My eyes were like magically drawn to the thing my twin brother was holding. He smiled and pecked me lightly on the cheek.

"Take this Kao, just don't cry about the toy anymore, 'kay?"

"'Kay!"

I was more mature than him. Everyone knows that I'm the logical one, while Hikaru lets his temper often take control of his actions. But… Hikaru is still my older brother. He protects me and always did all things necessary to prevent me from being sad and unhappy. I really couldn't ask for a better older brother.

"Kaoru? What are you doing up there?"

Haruhi. Shit.

My hand kind of shot up in pure surprise and I dropped the glass bird on the floor directly in front of my brunette friend. I was at first relieved that it didn't break from such height. But my eyes widened as I ran, ran as fast as I could down to Haruhi to pick up my little treasure. Suddenly I felt the heavy feeling of anxiety in my body as my adrenalin shot up and the more when I saw her lean forward to pick it up.

I was afraid, that if she would touch it, it would get tainted.

That it wouldn't be only mine and Hika's anymore.

I don't want the spell on the carriage to disappear.

As she was only inches away from touching it, I almost aggressively pushed her aside and reclaimed my property. I heard a gasp and a hard hit on a side bookshelf. But I was so impulsive at that moment, I could only think about my little precious bird. My breathing was faster than usual and I felt my body shake.

What the hell is going on with me?!

And as on cue Hikaru came in, to witness the whole incident. He immediately went to check on Haruhi, who rubbed her head and looked at her scratched knee. I snapped out of my trance and walked slowly to Haruhi and Hikaru.

What have I done?!

"Haruhi is everything all right? Aren't you hurt? Should I call for a doctor?" Hikaru asked, helping her to sit up straight. She just shook her head and growled in pain.

"Haruhi, I'm so sorry, I don't know what came over me!" I said, kneeling beside her, the feeling of guilt spreading inside of me. Was I turning insane from my jealousy? How could I hurt someone so dear to me? Was I losing my mind?

"Don't touch her Kaoru! You have done enough!"

"But let me expla-"

And with that his hand collided with my face and I felt a sharp pain on my right cheek.


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A/N I don't know... this story is getting a little messy.