AN- This chapter is a version of the previous chapter but from Merri's point of view.


Chapter 4.

As I watched you drive away last night a tear ran down my face, I couldn't stop it. This was our first night apart in the whole time we had been together and it was killing me already. I watched till you were out of site and came back in the house to see Laurel standing watching me.

Stepping up to me she opened her arms and I stepped forward in to them and she held me as I cried. I missed you so much and you had just left, how was I supposed to get through tonight without you. Laurel held me till the tears stopped and then passed me a hankie when she pulled back and smiled at me.

Taking my arm she lead me in to the kitchen and sat me at the table as she went to make coffee. She must have known how to get me to smile because when she brought over my coffee it was in your favourite mug. I took the mug and wrapped my hands round it picturing your hands holding like I had seen a million times before.

We sat drinking coffee and talking till the door went and in came Loretta carrying her bag and clothes for tomorrow. I was them informed by that impish daughter of yours we were spending a girly night pampering each other ready tomorrow. I couldn't help but smile when Laurel smiled at me as she smiles just like you do.

After finishing our coffee we all went upstairs and took up residence on our bed with enough products to start a beauty salon. Between pedicures and hair the night passed quite quickly with the girls to keep me entertained. Different things Laurel said or did remind me of you so in some ways, it was like I had a piece of you with me which helped a lot. After all the pampering was finished Loretta disappeared down stairs and reappeared a few minutes later with steaming mugs of hot chocolate and orders that when we were finished it was bedtime as we had an early start next day.

As we all sat on our bed drinking hot chocolate my mind wandered back to all the times we had sat here drinking hot chocolate. You make the best hot chocolate around ( don't tell Loretta that). When we were finished Loretta took are cups and wished Laurel and me good night as she disappeared out the bedroom. Laurel and I sat talking for a few minutes before she turned to me and gave me a bear crushing hug. I returned the hug wondering what I had done to deserve this.

When she pulled back she looked and me told me she was happy for us both. She told me she hadn't seen you this happy in long time and she was pleased that you had finally found someone to make you happy. She told me you had mentioned to her about us trying for a baby in the near future and that if we did ever fall pregnant then on pain of death she had to be the first to know. Promising her she would be she gave me another quick hug and wished me good night as she got off the bed and left the room.

Getting changed for bed I couldn't find my favourite pyjama top so I decided 2 could play your game. Going in to the bathroom I found the shirt you took off before you went out hanging on the back of the door where my pyjama top should have been. So taking it down I put it on and was instantly surrounded by your smell. Your cologne invaded my nostrils and I found myself climbing in to bed and hugging myself.

I have never missed anyone the way I missed you then. The bed was big and empty without you there. I moved over on to your side of the bed and using one pillow for my head I moved the other to cuddle up with just to have the constant smell of you round me. I lay there for ages just thinking of you and how we first came to be together in that very bed.

I would never have taken that step if you hadn't pushed me and made me confront what was right in front of me. I have never looked back since that day other than to reminisce on what a wonderful time we have had. I closed my eyes inhaling deeply letting your cologne invade my senses and the images of you danced through my head.

Sitting on the bed drinking coffee or the time you made breakfast wearing only an apron. Sitting at your bed side at the hospital when you got shot and I thought I had lost you then seeing you open your eyes. Seeing you sitting at your desk at work concentrating on whatever was in front of you, that determined look on your face when you know you're close but the final piece was missing to solve the crime.

I let the images over take my mind slowly feeling my eyes growing heavy and I let sleep take me knowing the sooner morning came the sooner I saw you again. The next thing I saw was Laurel standing over with coffee and toast telling me to wake up as we had a lot to do. As I sat Laurel let out a big awww seeing me wrapped up on your side of the bed hugging your pillow and wearing your shirt.

Climbing on the bed next to me we sat talking about you and the things we both loved about you until Loretta came in and told us to get our butts in gear or I would be late for my own wedding. Finishing my coffee Laurel and I got off the bed and marched to the bathroom ready to transform me it to an apparent princess. Finally after 2 and a half hours my hair was finally done and my make up had been applied. The only thing left was to get ready so we all left the bathroom and went in our respective rooms to get dressed.

As I stood getting ready I pictured you in your tux and my heart started to beat a little faster. You looked so damn sexy in that thing the last time I saw you wear one and the best part had to be the tight fitting trousers showing off your well toned ass. Returning to the task of getting ready I slipped my dress on and stood looking in the mirror making sure it looked okay. Hearing a knock at the door I turned to see 2 heads peering round the door both with big smiles on their faces.

After a series of aww's and wow's we finally made our way downstairs to wait for the car to pick us up to take us to the ceremony. When it arrived we left the house and it was then the nervous kicked in for me. Seeing the car and knowing I was going to get married scared the life out me. Sitting in the car Laurel sensed me getting more and more nervous the closer we got to the park so taking my hand she gave it a squeeze and held on till we arrived at the park.

Getting out the car we walked in line with Laurel still holding my hand till we reached the garden. Stopping just before we came into view we had a few minutes to check hair, make and the like before the ceremony started. Loretta gave me hug and disappeared to find her seat leaving Laurel and I standing there waiting. Just them the music started and my stomach dropped, if it wasn't for the fact I knew you were just out of site I would have bolted with nervous.

Laurel looked at me and nodded asking if I was ready. Taking a few deep breaths I nodded back and she turned the corner and went out of site. Slowly I followed Laurel round the corner and that was when I saw you at the front. I swear I stopped breathing for a second seeing you standing there. God I missed you so much and now you were there standing in front of me waiting. Locking eyes with you I made my way slowly towards you not noticing anyone or anything else.

As I got near you held out your hand which I took when all I wanted to do was take you in my arms and hold you. Coming to stand next to you I never let my eyes leave yours as I was sure you would disappear. I heard bits of the ceremony and the most important part when we were finally pronounced husband and wife. When you wrapped your arms round me and pulled me in to kiss you my world exploded in a flash of fireworks and lights.

I never wanted to let go but you did eventually and we stepped apart a little. Then I felt your hands on my face as your thumbs wiped away the tears falling down my cheek which I didn't know we're there. You said I would ruin my make up and I smiled before kissing you again.

Pulling apart again we turned and walked towards the waiting car that was taking us on our honeymoon. As we passed people they congratulate us and shook our hands until we reached the car. Climbing in I lay my head on your shoulder as we traveled to the airport. Even on the plane I stayed in some form of contact with you, just needing to touch you. Traveling in the car to the hotel I was holding your hand as I looked out the window until I saw that bath in here and I was away.

Lying in the bath I felt you watching me as you sat on the bed. When I got out the bath you had ordered room service which I was pleased about so I could have you all to myself. Eating dinner are legs and feet kept touching under the table and we held hands as we ate. Feeding each other chocolate cake was fun but not as much fun as when we finally made it to bed after watching a little Tv. As we cuddled up we got a little carried away and made love for the first time as a married couple.

Lying together afterwards we were tangled together all arms and legs and I feel asleep lying on you snuggled as close as I could get. Waking half way through the night I got up to get a drink and use the bathroom. Climbing back into bed I snuggled back against you resting my head on your chest and looked up to watch you sleep. You moved a little in your sleep and brought your hand up to hold me. It was then I caught site of your wedding ring, the one I placed on your finger earlier that day. After all this time I found myself not only lying in bed with the man I loved but my husband and hopefully the father to my future children. I couldn't help but smile at the thought of the fun we could have trying for a baby but now you were sleeping and I had to admit that watch you sleep was becoming one of my favourite hobbies.


AN- I didn't realize how different the same version of events can be from the perspective of a women to a man till I wrote this and realized a women can write a lot more.