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Nick parted quickly from the blond and Jeff couldn't help but stare at Nick. His warm hazel eyes were widened in shock and fear and Jeff's heart broke at the sight.

Jeff didn't want to look anywhere but Nick. He was so terrified that he looked like he was about to cry and Jeff wanted nothing more but to hug him until he's safe, but in slip of a second Nick's eyes changed and Jeff was being shoved backwards.

"What-" Jeff finally looked around and saw not only Nick's football team, but a few other students, looking stunned, disgusted and another bunch of feelings Jeff didn't want to name.

But the worse was Nick. He had just shoved him against the locker behind him and was looking at him terrified and concerned at the same time. Jeff barely caught him mouthing an "I'm so sorry" before Nick spoke up.

"What the fuck were you doing Duval?" David, one of the defenses hissed, looking with disgust at Jeff "Why were you that close with the fag!" Jeff's body flinched at the venom filled word. No one knew, they just suspected that he was. Well, now the truth was out. He just hoped Nick could protect him now.

"He-"Nick took a deep breath, trying to calm down his shaky voice "He just came at me and kissed me! I was so shocked; I didn't know what to do!" Jeff's heart completely broke and his breath got caught in his throat. What was Nick saying?

"N-Nick?" he stuttered, tears stinging his eyes "What are you saying?" he asked, exasperated. Why was Nick acting like this? He was just so caring and comprehensive not 5 minutes ago, then why is he being a total jerk and a liar?

"Listen to us fag," a blond, tall, burly guy was right in front of Jeff, his finger burring in Jeff's chest "You try to spread your fairy dust over Duval again and we kick your ass so hard the gay will probably run away" he threatened lowly and Jeff looked to the ground. At least he wasn't punching him "Got it?"

Jeff just nodded "Now get the hell out of here!" some other jock yelled and Jeff walked a bit away, watching Nick bite his lip softly, playing with his hands and refusing to look at Jeff.

"Just-" Jeff cleaned the tears that came from his eyes down his cheeks. He didn't know why Nick was doing this. If he wanted to protect himself he could have done this in another way, but at least this way Jeff could see how Nick really was "Fuck you Duval!" He spat at Nick, before he ran down the hallway, away from everyone that thought he was some monster, but especially away from Nick.

"You okay dude?" James placed his hand on Nick's shoulder, but he shook it way.

"Just get off me!" Nick mumbled and walked away, feeling like he was about to break down at any moment. He went the opposite direction Jeff went, leaving the hallway full of people staring confused at his back. Some of them were giving him sympathetic looks, like Jeff kissing him was an awful thing they didn't want to happen to them, but "felt" what Nick was feeling. He hated them all.

Nick was disgusted with himself. How could have he done that? How could have he hurt Jeff like that?

For his own protection? Nick pulled on his hair. He should have taken it like a man! Admit he liked Jeff, maybe even say he was falling so hard for him. But no! He had to be an ass and ruin the only good thing in his life.

Nick got in his car and let the tears fall from his eyes. He was so stupid. Finally he found someone he cared for and he had to go and ruin it.

Nick knew Jeff would hate him now. Nick hates himself now too! How couldn't he? Jeff was amazing, he helped him through his discovery and was there for him even if the brunet pushed him slightly away.

He knew he had lost Jeff forever.

He cleaned his tears with the back of his hand and started the car. He couldn't stand to be there!


Jeff slammed his locker shut and picked up his bag, not even caring if he was looking like crap. He felt like crap. His eyes were red and puffy and he was breathing heavily.

He always thought he would be outed by some awful jock or by coming out with Nick by his side. He really wasn't expecting Nick to be the one doing that. Especially the way he did it.

He pushed his glasses a bit up his nose; they were falling because Jeff was looking at the floor as he walked.

He felt like crying, like yelling, like punching and throwing things to the floor.

He'd expected Nick to take a while to come in terms with himself but he wasn't expecting him to throw him to the wolves like that.

He felt so unprotected, so unloved. The stares the students gave him felt like bullets piercing his skin. They looked so disgusted.

There was a reason Jeff was lonely. He didn't want to trust people that might backstab him at any moment. He sure didn't want a boyfriend when he was still in high school, but he did, and look where it got him?

As much as he hated Nick, he hated himself more for letting Nick get so close. Random blowjobs in a bathroom was one thing. Falling for the brunet the way Jeff did was a completely different one.

But right now Jeff just wanted to go home, crawl into bed and just fall asleep, hoping Dreamland would make his problems all vanish.


A week passes by and both Nick and Jeff were acting like the day after the big outing.

Nick got a lot more quiet. He would still hang with his team, but the only words he would say were "Good Morning" and "Bye".

Guilt was consuming him and he didn't know what to do. His heart ached, his head hurt and he felt alone, even surrounded by people.

He'd look at Jeff during the classes they shared; Jeff was always in the front. Jeff looked fine. As much as a guy who is shoved and called "Fag!" every five minutes could be.

That's because Nick knew that it wasn't the words that he feared so much that were bothering Jeff. It was because he was being treated like that. Because Nick was an asshole and got scared.

Nick hated himself so much. For loosing Jeff and for making him go through that alone. He just wanted to apologize and make Jeff take him back. Because it was what he wanted. He wanted Jeff to take him back, because Nick loved him.

Yeah, it took a coward action for Nick to finally see that he was head over heels for the blond, quiet boy.

Nick raised his glance from the now empty plate. He immediately found Jeff. Always under the same try, always reading a thick book and looking so into it as usual.

But this time Jeff's gaze rose from the letter and locked with his.

Nick never saw so much hurt in someone's eyes and he just wanted to get up and make the hurt go away. But he just did what he had been doing, mouthing "I'm so sorry" every time Jeff was looking at him. And Jeff just ignored him as usual.

Why couldn't he just quit, why did he had to make Jeff suffer more? Jeff had to use all his strength not to just break own and cry every time he saw Nick and the brunet would just say he's sorry. If he really was, he'd act on it, not just say the words and expect them to fix Jeff's heart magically.

So he ignored him. He looked away when they eyes met and normally just avoid him in the hallways.

Even if he wanted to stare, because the boy was so beautiful, he wouldn't. He couldn't or he'd forgive Nick in a heartbeat, because he just wanted to boy to be his again.


Another week passed and Nick was even sick of his own silence.

He was walking down the hallway towards his English class when he saw him. Stunning as ever. Broken as ever.

Jeff was taking out his books from the locker and that's when Nick saw David coming from the cafeteria with a red slushie.

He couldn't just stare and let the boy being hurt without even trying to defend himself, so he just yelled and ran to his teammate "Don't do that!" he hissed, pushing the other back as he was about to throw the slushie at Jeff.

The said red liquid fell to the floor "What's your problem Duval?" David looked at him with a brow raised "And you ruined a slushie!" he whined, watching the red stained floor.

"You don't need to do that!" Nick pushed the guy backward, making him slam against the locker.

He looked back at Jeff, that was pressed against the locker, his books flat against his chest and his eyes widened at Nick.

Nick gave a sad smiled and walked away, leaving David stunned and Jeff relieved.

He sighed and he turned left on the hallway. He had to do something to make up for his attitude.

And he did. At lunch time.

Nick was playing with his food, not really hungry. His mind was running at a thousand miles, trying to scan his brain for an idea.

He lifted his gaze and found Jeff in his usual spot. The outside cafeteria was full of students in the tables or in the soft grass.

Nick sighed. He knew what he had to do. It would ruin his reputation and probably the rest of his high school experience.

He took a deep breath and got up, before climbing on top of the table. His teammates looked confused at them and it only gave Nick a bit more of strength.

"Can I have your attention please?" Nick half yelled and the courtyard got dead silence. It wasn't everyday that the captain of the football team, the most popular guy in school, would get up in a table and talk like that. Talk so confident.

Nick took another deep breath when everyone's attention was in him, but he only needed one really. He looked over where Jeff was and found him looking stunned at him. He could about tell Jeff knew what he was about to do. He smiled towards the blond and turned to the rest of the school.

"I have something to tell you all,"


Mwahaha another cliffhanfer.

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