It was the tenth time I had vomited that day and each time it got worse. Mom was starting to suspect that I was pregnant and even my sister had noticed that something was wrong. I felt like the bump was starting to show, when I wore my skin-tight top you could faintly see the outline, which made me feel insecure. I hoped Nanjo wouldn't think any less of me because I certainly didn't own the body of an idol anymore. I sat on the couch watching my sister play a game on the Playstation, which instantly reminded me of Nanjo, then out of nowhere where I started crying. My sister looked away from her game in concern.
Her: Aina, what's wrong?
Me: nothing...
Her: it's just the hormones acting up isn't it?
Me: I don't have any hormones and it wouldn't affect my mood.
Her: Aina, when you're pregnant you get extra hormones in your body. That's why you will cry for no reason.
How did she know I was pregnant? The revelation made me cry even more. I cried into her arms, before a wave of sickness hit me. After rushing away to vomit I returned to the couch, flopping lazily on it, all my energy having depleted.
Me: How did you know?
Her: You're acting different, you're getting sick and you're extra emotional. The question is how have mom and dad not noticed?
Me: I think they have but I should probably tell them...
During dinner I decided to tell them, at first they were shocked but then they got excited. They started asking me a lot of questions which made my hormones go out of control. I ran off to my bedroom and started bursting out crying. I wanted Nanjou to be here with me; to hug me and hold back my hair while I would vomit, it was even more difficult when she wasn't with me. That night I just cried myself to sleep while running my hand over the bump. It was nice to feel it, it was a magical feeling like no other. I couldn't believe it was real. It was a physical reminder of the love me and Nanjo shared together.
I woke up realising that I had a doctors appointment, I put on a tight-fitting little dress and my boots in preparation. I then walked outside my bedroom, when mum started rushing over, fussing over me and making me eat. I hadn't slept in a month and each day I was cranky and sore, making me not in the mood to listen. My back was killing me and I didn't feel like eating, why was mom forcing me to eat?
After vomiting and finishing getting ready, I left for the appointment. Upon reaching the doctors I took my seat and waited for the doctor to call me in. I desperately wanted Nanjo to be with me but she had practice for Fripside and I couldn't be selfish and stop her from doing that, after all she loved her job. I was finally got called in but just before I entered Emitsun arrived so we went in together and I sat on the table, patiently waiting for examination.
Feeling another wave of emotion, I leaned over Emitsun's shoulder and started crying while the doctor scanned my stomach. I didn't want to look, since I wanted to see it for the first time with Nanjou. Emitsun still looked while rubbing my back, she kept making aww sounds. I got the all clear, so after the doctor wrapped up Emitsun and I went for lunch. Before we went to the cafeteria I had to visit the bathroom, where I vomited again. I was getting so sick of vomiting. While having lunch I had a milkshake and some chips. Emitsun kept taking pictures, I was kinda not in the mood. She posted a couple of pictures and everyone commented straight away about how tired and unhappy I looked.
Nanjou P.O.V
During rehearsals today I kept hearing my phone buzz but couldn't check until later. Finally we got on break so I quickly went on my phone and saw that Emitsun posted 5 new pictures on Instagram and a couple of messages from Kussun. I checked the messages first
To Nan-chan
From KusKus
Good morning darling, good luck with practice ^~^
To Nan-chan
From KusKus
Ahhh I feel so sick, why can't you be hereeee?
I felt so bad for having to leave her so I quickly wrote back telling her how sorry I was and how practice went. After I sent the message I checked the pictures and saw a tired and cranky-looking Aina, who was looking at the camera like she didn't know what to do. She was so adorable with that expression. I felt so blessed to have her as my adorable, tired and cranky Aina. She and Emitsun were standing next to a cool fountain, she looked a little bit happier forcing that smile. She was wearing the cutest dress that suited her so well. I zoomed in to noticed a small little bump on Aina's stomach that had starting forming, I started crying at the beautiful sight. I just wanted to be there with her and to look after her like a good partner should. Aina deserves to be taken care of properly. I knew I had to make it up to her.
During the last bit of practice, all I could think about was doing something nice to for her. Every day I feel guilty about not belong there to support her. In the middle of sister noise I felt the tears come out and they wouldn't stop. I started bursting out crying and collapsed on the floor, everyone started crowding me and asking me what was wrong. I just wanted to be there for the one I love and to help her, what was I doing there? I could practice at anytime but spending time and showing my love for Aina night not always be possible.
With that in mind I ran out of the building and started to run home, on the way home I went passed a gift shop, which caught my eye. I went inside and started looking at the baby gift. I saw the cutest little gift box, that was designed for a mother and her baby. Inside the basket was cream for stretch marks, hand and foot cream, a candle, bubble bath and a bath bomb. There was also little white blankets, a little bunny, dummies and bottles. Along with the basket I got purple and blue flowers shaped to display the letter 'A'. Once I was done shopping I got it arrange to be delivered to her house tomorrow morning and went back to my apartment, where I went straight to sleep.
The next morning I woke up and watched tv for a little bit. I got a phone call from kussun;
Me: Good morning Kussun
Her: Yoshi..
Me: what's wrong?
Her: I got your gift…
Even though she got my gift she didn't seem happy and still seemed really tired, which raised alarms in my mind.
Me: is something wrong?
Her: i feel even more sick and the flowers have a strong scent to them. They smell so nice but it is making me sick. But thank you for going to so much trouble for me.
Me: no problem, I'd do anything for you but I'm sorry about the flowers.
Her: don't worry about it , it's okay.
Me: why did you call?
Her: I need a massage and something to help with the sickness
Me: I want to help you baby but I have practice now
I could hear her voice straining before faint crying could be detected through the phone before she hung up.
My emotions flared at the sound, my poor Aina wa upset and lonely and that made me mad, why couldn't I be with her instead of practice!? Aina would always be much more important to me than a silly song! I was so angry and made that I punched the wall, luckily it didn't damage the wall and just left a nasty bruise my hand. I started crying on the couch before I felt something on me, I looked up and saw my mom.
Me: Mom what are you doing here?
Mom: I came for a visit. What's wrong?
Me: Kussun is sick and in a lot of pain, I want to be there for her but I can't because of practice….I want to show her my support for her and the baby….
Mom: baby?
Me: oh I didn't tell you yet. Kussun is pregnant with our child…
Suddenly she started crying happily and hugged me, she was clearly very excited to be a grandmother.
Mom: you need to be with her right now.
Me: I know but I have to leave for practice now.
Sighing, I gathered my stuff and left for practice, the thoughts of Aina never once leaving me.
