Chapter 4 – Octavia
A/N – Octavia is the hardest character to write, I had such a hard time getting into her head to write this chapter out. Her journey has been one of my fave on the show, but I didn't realize how difficult this would be. I know I probably didn't do it justice, so any contractive criticism is appreciated. Please R&R.
Octavia opened her eyes. She'd been sitting near a tree. She could see Niko walking away. So this was when this had taken her, right when she first lost Lincoln. There's someone she didn't think about much anymore. What would have he done if had ever seen bloodriana? If Lincoln was had been alive, she wouldn't have to had it all on her own shoulders. She quickly stopped that train of thought, that's not the past she was hung up on.
She's been in the room for a little while before the others got in. She had read the inscription, this room will make you relive the past, to examine the moments that lead to your greatest regret. It was the warning that gave her pause though. Any deviations could lead to death. She wondered if they all went to different times, or are they all together. Octavia figures that the only peson who would regret this time period would be Clarke, so this must be Clarke's memories that they are reliving.
Clarke's massive guilt over Mount Weather got them all here, of this, Octavia was almost certain. Then again, if it weren't for Murphy, none of them would be here. Murphy, damn Murphy and his curiosity. He pulled a lever he shouldn't have, and sent them all into whatever this was. Didn't he know pulling levers is Clarke's job?
Just because she knew what was happening, didn't mean that she was okay with it. In the original timeline she started to make her way back to the dropship. What's the point though? No one is there. How were they gonna get out of here? She didn't know. So she started to make her towards the dropship, to ensure that certain death wouldn't be the side effect. At the very least, she can kill Murphy, or at least get in touch with him, because her brother might hold it against her if someone from his "family" is killed, especially by her hand.
She looked at Lincoln's horn as she walked. Is she going to have to blow it? To save Bellamy and Murphy? Finn, he'll be there too, wow, there's another blast from the past. She had not really given Finn much thought in the last few years, should she see what would have happened if Finn found out that Clarke was safe in Arkadia? No, she right now it's called Camp Jaha. She shouldn't mess with that timeline, not unless she has to.
This was a long trek, but she was mostly going there to get Murphy. If he pulled the lever, then he'll might know how to get out of this nightmare.
Octavia really thought about what time she would like to relive. Would there be any time she would like to go back to? Any time that she was ever happy? Those few days with Illian were a possibility, but would she go to a time with Lincoln? When Indra first made her second? Definitely not the Ark. Had she ever truly known happiness, contentment? She got to the cliffs a lot faster than she did the first time. She picked a spot where she could see the action, and still be hidden. From this spot she could see when the grounders first arrive to attack, and she will be able to see Bellamy and his crew trying to save that girl.
She saw Bellamy, Murphy and the rest, and off they went to save the girl. Something wasn't right, the grounders weren't coming, they should be attacking by now. She was not prepared for what she saw. It was Clarke, with a couple of bows and a couple of quivers. Clarke was looking around, as if looking for someone. It wasn't until she saw Bellamy go down over the cliff that it dawns on her who Clarke would be looking for. She got out of her hiding place and said "How are you here? Shouldn't you be in Arkadia?" she asked the blonde.
"Looking for you." Clarke said as she handed her a bow. "We need to keep the timeline" she added quickly.
"Where are the grounders I was gonna scare with this" she held up the horn.
"Dead" Clarke said as she moved into position. "Are you going to help me or not?" she asked her as she started firing into the group.
Octavia moved away from Clarke, and also started firing arrows, careful to get close, but miss with every arrow." The group started firing back, with automatic weapons, and they were not trying to miss. "I swear if I get shot, I'm going to be pissed" Octavia said under her breath. Quickly abandoning Clarke's plan and blowing the horn early.
"What's the plan here Clarke?" Octavia asked her, as she needed to know what her end goal was at this point.
"The plan is for you to go in there, and get a message to Murphy, I will stay here, and wait for him, and then I will take him to the caves where we hid Raven and where you guys hid from Pike. Raven said you'd know where that is" she said all of this very quickly.
"What's the message?" she looked into the group, and Bellamy was back with the girl, she needed to make her appearance soon. "Too late, gotta go" and Octavia dropped her bow and arrows, left Clarke behind, and made her appearance.
"Bellamy?" she said. This hurt, Bellamy looked at her, so pleased to her here, still alive and well. "No we don't" he said as he got up from the floor and made his was to her "Octavia". Right before hugging her, he smiled. Octavia held on for life. Her own brother would not be very pleased to see her in the present, Octavia guesses that when you sentence your own bother to death by fighting pit, he holds a grudge.
She did what she did before, helped patch up the injured. This time she went to Murphy, and as quietly as possible said "don't go with Finn, Wanheda is waiting for you". However Finn just happened to be right behind her.
"What's a wanheda?" he asked, all eyes were on her. Now she was really glad she went with that nickname instead of her name.
"Alone?" Murphy asked.
"Hold on, what's going on? What's a who now?" Bellamy asked.
This was not going the way it should have, so she just nodded a Murphy.
"It's nothing, just don't think that Murphy should be here with us, that's all" Octavia said. The others don't trust Murphy very much at this point, so she poked the bear. "He crippled Raven for crying out loud" she added, thinking this would bolster her argument. Murphy just rolled his eyes, but then saw Octavia's hint to take offence to what she was saying, but before that could happen Monroe said "How do you know about Raven, we haven't said anything about her, how do you know she even lived?"
"That's right, and what's wanheda?" asked Finn, "and why did you say to Murphy not to go with me?" Finn finished asking.
"You know what, I am sick and tired of not being trusted. I could have killed all of you just now, but I didn't, I stayed, and I risked my life to save all of you, and if this is the thanks I get!? I'm better off alone, I'm banished anyways". Murphy said this and started to leave the group. But Bellamy got in his way. "No way, you're not leaving"
"Bellamy, look at these people, they need help, they need to go back to camp. The grounders will be back, so we need to go, now!"
"Yes we do" said Finn as he gathered his own supplies, Bellamy said "I have to get these people to camp, the arrows could be poisonous."
"I know" Finn said. "I'll meet you when I can" Bellamy finished as Finn gave him a map.
As this was happening, Murphy used it to leave the group.
"Damnit Murphy, I have half a mind to go after him" said Bellamy.
"I'll go after him, he can't have gotten far, and you need to get the people back to camp. I'll catch up". Octavia went up to Bellamy and hugged him for prosperity, hugged him one last time.
"Wait, O, I don't think-" Bellamy called out after her. But Octavia was in the trees before he could finish.
Octavia picked up the bow and arrow she dropped on her way to the group, and met up with Murphy and Clarke, then she asked "why the hell did you pull that damn lever?"
"I didn't pull any levers, not recently I don't think" Clarke said. She handed Murphy a handgun.
"She's talking to me, I pulled a lever. I pulled it 'cause I thought it would only take the two of us. I thought that you" Murphy pointed at Octavia "You could use this to try and get over yourself, so you messed up, and helped kill Earth, well so did everyone else. I thought maybe if you examined your choices, that you could begin to move on. I didn't realize Clarke had gotten in, and that we'd be taken to her worst nightmare, so thanks Clarke, now how the hell do we get out of here?"
"Wait, what? What is this place?" asked Clarke
"Your memories, being supplemented by all of our memories. The room said that this place will to you and let you examine your biggest regret. I guess Mount Weather is your biggest regret." Octavia answered. She started walking towards the caves. They had a really long walk ahead, and she didn't want to waste any time.
"My biggest regret? I have many regrets," Clarke said then she said softly "I guess genocide would stick out". Octavia replied "I guess so".
"But why are you asking me how to get out of here, I don't know how to get of here, if I did, I would have left already" Clarke asked Murphy.
"This is your nightmare, only you know how to get us out" Murphy answered.
"So we don't have any idea how to get out?" asked Octavia. "Great" she said to herself.
Murphy kept on walking but he said, "No we do, Clarke just has to be the one to figure it out."
"Great, you do always love to save the day" Octavia said as she followed Murphy. She grabbed him and as he was going in the wrong direction. "Do you even know where you are going?" she then pointed him in the right direction.
When Octavia looked back, Clarke was now about 20 feet behind them. "Common, we need to move, grounders could be anywhere, and right now we are all enemies" she called after Clarke.
Clarke stared walking. "I am trying to think what the exit plan is here."
"Why are we going all the way to these caves? What the purpose? To regroup, we can regroup right here" Murphy said.
"Cause we need to meet up with Echo and Raven, they were also in the room, wait was anyone else in there?" Clarke asked the other two.
"I didn't even know about Echo, or Raven, let's go" Octavia said, trying to move it along.
They kept on moving at a steady pace. A few hours into their trek, Octavia stopped walking, and bend down to tie her show, allowing for Clarke to catch up to her. Octavia whispered to Clarke "We have a tail, I'm guessing trikru"
"I know, they have been following us for five minutes" she answered.
"Why the hell didn't you say something?" asked Octavia as she stood up, and started walking again.
"Because they haven't attacked, not yet, so why stir the pot? Plus they seem to be converging on Murphy, so…" Clarke responded.
"As much I would like to get rid of Murphy this way, we should take them down before they take us out, I got the one on the left. You got right?" Octavia asked Clarke.
"What about the one in front us of?" Clarke asked.
Octavia replied "Murphy can take care of his own, can't he?"
