I went to bed early that night, Kol was alive. Alive. Well as alive as he could be at the moment but at least he was here, where I could see him soon. I remember the last time he and I saw each other. It hadn't ended well and I sort of regret it.
Flashback/Dream
We were both running through the woods chasing each other, I was faster the Kol, I ran dodging everything in my way. The sun was shining through the tree tops, the birds were chirping, and you could hear the river flow by as if you were right next to it. Kol had gotten ahead of me and then stopped looking to his right as something caught his attention.
I stopped as well looking at him from about ten feet away.
"What are you doing? I asked laughing lightly.
He motioned for me to be quiet and come closer so I did. He held back the bush that was blocking our view and pointed to a spot in the clearing. I looked down to see a fawn and its mother eating in the grass. I looked in amusement at Kol who was looking at them in awe. I smiled at his child like antics but it was disrupted when I heard the sound of a group of horses and then the sound of a bow tearing through flesh. I looked back to see the mother deer lying dead next to the fawn who was shaking and nudging its mother to get up. Then I thought about Kol and looked back to see his face pale at the sight and then turn into rage as he spotted the attackers walking towards the deer. Before I could do anything Kol let out a snarl before rushing at the men and killed one in an instant.
"KOL STOP!" I yelled getting up and heading down to the clearing.
Kol was about to attack the next man but another bow was released and went sailing in to Kol's shoulder. He fell to the ground in pain and then I was able to smell it. Vervain was laced around the arrow. The attackers were about to hit him with another before I ran in front of him protectively.
"No!" I shouted glaring at them.
"Well, Well, Well. What do we have here?" The one who seemed as if here were the leader spoke up.
"Leave. Him. Alone." I gritted. My wolf wanted out, but I was using everything I had to keep it in. Kol was already upset from what we had both just watched, I didn't need him being terrified added to the list.
"Well miss I would but it seems as if your little friend here killed one of my men. I can't just let him get away with that. You understand." He had a sickly smile that I wanted claw off at the moment.
"But maybe you can persuade me to change my mind?" He said stepping closer to me as I took one step back into Kol who was growling.
I reached for Kol's arm blindly behind me before restraining him back.
"I don't need to persuade anyone to do anything. Especially a grease hunter like you, but you understand." I said in a mocking tone causing Kol to let out a small laugh.
The man's face contorted into anger and he grabbed the bow and aimed it at Kol once again. I couldn't take it anymore, I snapped letting the wolf out before running at the man in one swift movement snapping his neck. I killed all six of them before draining their blood like a savage. I dropped the last body before turning to Kol who was standing there just staring at me. I calmed down before looking at the mess I had made. Blood. There was so much blood everywhere. I panicked, people were going to find their bodies and come looking for us again. I didn't want to have to move again, I didn't want to have to run again. I looked at Kol who approached me and took a hold of my face with shaking hands and made me look at him.
"Terra, it's okay, it's going to be okay calm down." He said in a whisper but I could tell he was terrified of me and that hurt more than anything.
Then I got angry. "Okay?" I snarled before shoving him away.
He looked at me with wide eyes before flinching away at the tone of my voice.
"How is this okay Kol?" I yelled pointing to the bodies.
He opened his mouth but I beat him to it.
"I just killed six men in less than five seconds all because of some stupid animal that wouldn't have mattered to you come tomorrow!"
"That's not fair Terra!" He shouted back just as angry.
"It would have died anyway Kol!"
"Tell that to him." Kol shouted pointing at the fawn.
I looked at the animal in rage at the moment, it should have just run off by now.
"You acted out of anger all because of him?" I asked even more pissed off.
"Does it matter?" He snapped back.
"Yes Kol it does! They're meant to be hunted!"
"By who monsters like you?" He shouted back before looking at me horrified with what he just said.
I don't know what came over me next but it was something I never wanted to feel again, hatred. I nodded blankly before looking at Kol.
"You're right Kol, what does it matter how we act?" I said in a monotone voice.
Before he could react I sped over to the fawn before ripping its throat. I savored in the taste and I stared at Kol who looked hurt. I dropped the lifeless form onto the ground and looked at him with no emotion.
"H-how could you just do that?" Kol asked staring at the body.
"Like you said Kol, I'm a monster, and I'd do it again."
"And that's what makes us different Kol, it's why we are the way we are. Killing animals is what keeps us from killing other humans, humans who are innocent."
Kol huffed before glaring at me.
"You call them innocent?" He said pointing to the bodies on the ground.
"Yes they were hunting for food!"
"They took a mother away from it's child!"
Then it clicked, this was about Esther.
"They would have killed you Terra the second they found out what you were and you know it!"
"You don't know that." I said not looking at him.
"Yes I do!"
I looked away in anger.
"Why do you want to protect them so much Terra?"
I looked at him feeling tears spring my eyes. "Because."
"That's not an answer."
"Because maybe one day when we're human again, they'll accept us."
He just looked at me blankly. "Terra we'll never be-"
"Don't... just don't Kol. You may want to be this for the rest of your life but I don't. I want a family, I want kids, I want..." I let tears fall from my eyes.
"You want what?"
"I want to grow old and die on my own terms Kol."
"Why would you want to be a pathetic human?"
"THEY'RE NOT PATHETIC!"
"Then you and I are coming from completely opposite views here."
"Because it's not what you want it makes me wrong?"
Kol said nothing in return.
"Haven't you ever thought about kids, family, when it was finally time for you grow old and die?"
He looked away from me.
"When you finally figure out what you do want Kol, let me know." I said before speeding off.
END OF FLASHBACK/DREAM
I awoke slowly in regret. I never should have said those things to him. I never should have left him alone in the woods.
Five hundred years without the person I loved more than anything, it killed me each and everyday to think he was gone and that those were the last words I said to him.
My cellphone rang and I got a call from Klaus.
"Hello?" I said into the phone.
"I need your help." He said in a panicked tone.
"Why what's wrong?" I asked sitting up in alert.
"Stefan's taken what belongs to me."
"Another petty quarrel between you two. Why must I be involved again?"
There was a few moments of silence before he responded. "He has Kol Terra."
My heart stopped and all I saw was red.
