A/N: Oh my god! How long has it been since I last update? I am sooooo sorry that its' been awhile. See I was originally going to update three weeks ago (I think it was three weeks ago?) anyways I couldn't do that because I got grounded which meant I couldn't get on the computer at all. And then I was going to update last week but I had a huge test to work on and I need to study for it. Anyways I apologize for that and I hope you all enjoy this chapter. And thank you everyone who reviewed/favor/alerted this story.

Now enough with my babbling on with the show ^^

Chapter 3: Like a muffin perfect on the outside mushy on the inside

I hold my breath, as this life starts to take its toll
I hide behind a smile as this perfect plan unfolds
But oh, God, I feel I've been lied to
Lost all faith in the things I have achieved and I

I've woken now to find myself
In the shadows of all that I have created
I'm longing to be lost in you
(Away from this place I have made)
Won't you take me away from me

Crawling through this world as disease flows through my veins
I look into myself but my own heart has been changed
I can't go on like this, I loathe all I've become I've woken now to find myself
In the shadows of all that I have created
I'm longing to be lost in you

September 9th

first day of school

Brittany's point of view

Everyone knows I'm perfect (yeah right). My life is perfect (no it's not; if I don't have Alex with me my life is a living hell without him). My clothes are perfect (when I don't 'spill' anything on them). Even my family is perfect (yeah right. My mom is an alcoholic bitch who hates her own children because we didn't live up to her expectations. My sister is pregnant with her fiancé's baby (good for her and Enrique) and my father is never home) Yep I am so freaking perfect aren't I?

Music was blaring from my speakers I had a feeling that our next door neighbors could hear it. Ask me if I care. I looked in the mirror to see if I had anything wrong with my make-up. Nope nothing at all; starting senior year without my best friend, my brother, or the love of my life. Don't get me wrong, I still had 'friends' but they only cared about what I had. Well most of them, the only ones that love me for me were my cousin Kira who decided to move down here, Sierra, and her boyfriend. Other than that everyone else only cared about me being popular and the fact that I had money. I miss my crazy friends. I miss Paco's jokes and how he would always make everything better when someone was upset. I missed Isa and how she would give me the best advice when it came to Alex or family issues. But I missed Alex the most. After that horrible incident he never spoke to me. Once word got out that I was no longer hanging out with Paco and Alex everyone thought we were joking. I didn't blame them. We have been best friends since kindergarten and were inseparable you couldn't see us without the other. After a month of not hanging out with them (which was the hardest month of my life) everyone concluded that we were no longer friends. Everyone wanted to know what happen between us but neither, Paco, Alex, nor I would tell them. The only ones that knew were Kira, Isa, Shelly, and Alex's brothers. Other than that it was our little secret.

"Are you ready to go?" I turned around and saw Kira in her usual clothes. I smiled at her, a forced one but as always she didn't say anything. She loved me too much to try and force things out of me.

"Come on, I fixed the problem with your car so you can take it to school."

"Thanks Kir,"

"No prob Brittany," she knew not to call me Britt, anyone that loved and knew me knew not to call me the nickname that he gave me.

"Shall we go?"

We got down stairs and saw Shelly there eating some cupcakes.

"Hey girls, you want some cupcakes?"

Kira grabbed her chocolate chip I was about to get a blueberry one but I felt a hand on my shoulder. I turned around to see my mom giving me her inspection.

"Love the shirt, could've worn your demi jeans, hair is nice, but your make-up looks like one of those gothic girls did it."

I rolled my eyes, I really hated when she picked on me and my choice on how to do things.

"Good morning to you to mother," I went back to reaching for the muffin when she grabbed my hand and placed another muffin on it.

"I made your favorite muffin; you'll need your energy today."

"Why?" I couldn't help but ask. My mother was always up to something. When she found out about me and Alex breaking up she didn't comfort me, she celebrated! She was actually happy that I was no longer hanging out with him. She was still mad that I hung out with Paco (when Alex wasn't around) but after hanging out with those two for half of my life I was finally able to stand up to her and told her that if she didn't like it then I threaten her that I would leave the house and move in with Uncle Dick and his family. She didn't like it but she decided to put up with it. Ever since then she has been trying to get me to go out with Colin or as Alex and Paco like to call him burro (jackass) face.

"Because we are having dinner with Colin and his parents," someone must really hate me. I took a deep breath.

"Mom, it's the first day of school,"

"So?"

Of course she would forget. I took a deep calming breath. I didn't want to argue with her. Especially since Kira was here.

"Paco and I agreed to hang out at his house and watch a movie." It was our tradition that after the first day the three of us (two) would hang out and watch either a movie or just do whatever we felt like doing. We've been doing this since we were in kindergarten.

"I am pretty sure Paco *she said his name as if he was a disease* wouldn't mind if you didn't spent time with him for one day."

One day without Paco? Hell I can't even go two seconds without him by my side. I love him like a brother! He would always try to cheer me up whenever I needed someone to cheer me up, he would always inform me about Alex and how he is. I couldn't live without my south side family and I sure as hell wasn't about to give them up for stupid burro (jackass) face.

"I'll try to come."

"Good, since Shelly is going to go over to Enrique's house, I would need you here."

"Shelley isn't going to be here? Lucky her," I said.

"And make sure you take a shower before they come over, I don't want them to think that my daughter is slob."

If I brought Paco over they would see what kinda slob I can really be.

"Now off you go," she said shooing me away. I rolled my eyes at her. Shelley walked up to us and gave us both a hug.

"Bye you two, take care of each other." She said with her bright smile.

"We will, take care and I will see you soon my little nephew," I rubbed her stomach and gave it a kiss. Shelley was going to give birth to my baby nephew in a few days I couldn't wait for it to happen. Both Kira and I walked out the door. We get into my car and I take a bit out of the muffin. As soon as it enters my mouth I spit it out. It wasn't Shelley's muffins, I know because this muffin was banana nut, and the stupid bananas were overdone. I look at the muffin and couldn't help but compare myself to it. It was seemingly perfect on the outside, but the inside was all mush. I didn't have to look at Kira to know what she was thinking. I open the car door and toss the muffin outside. It wasn't that I hated the taste that made me throw it out (okay a little part of me wanted to throw it away because of that). It was the fact that a stupid piece of food reminded me so much of me and my so call perfect life. A life without Alex.

Alex's point of view

"Get up Alex,"

I scowl at my little brother and bury my head under my pillow. Since I shared a room with my eleven- and fifteen-year-old brothers, there's no escape except the little privacy a lone pillow can give.

"Leave me alone, Luis," I say roughly through the pillow. "No estes chingando." (don't fuck with me).

"I'm not fucking with you. Mama told me to wake you so you won't be late for school.

Senior year. I should be proud that I'll be the first family member in the Fuentes family household to graduate high school. Yeah and it's also the second year that I don't have Brittany by my side. I mentally shook my head. I couldn't think of her right now. I did what I did to protect her, otherwise she would be six feet under or worse…I did not want to think about the second option, just thinking about it made me sick to my stomach.

"I'm dress in my new clothes," Luis said interrupting my thoughts. "The nenas (girls) won't be able to resist this Latino stud."

"Good for you," I mumble.

"Mama said I should pour this pitcher of water on you if you don't get up."

Was privacy too much to ask for? I take my pillow and chunk it across the room. It's a direct hit. The water splashes all over him.

"Culero," (ass) he screams at me. "These are the only new clothes I got."

A fit of laughter is coming through the bedroom door. Carlos, my other brother, is laughing like a frickin' hyena. That is, until Luis jumps him. I watch the fight spiral out of control as my younger brothers punch and kick each other.

"They're good fighters," I think proudly as I watch them duke it out. But as the oldest male in the house, it's my duty to break it up. I grab the collar of Carlos's shirt but trip on Luis's leg and land on the floor with them. Before I can regain my balance, icy cold water is poured on my back. Turning quickly, I catch mi'ama dousing us all, a bucket of poised in her fist above us while she's wearing her work uniform. She works at the local store, it doesn't pay much but with me being in the LB we don't need much.

"Get up," she orders, her fiery attitude out in full force.

"Shit Ma," Carlos says standing up.

Mi'ama takes what's left in her bucket sticks her fingers in the icy water and flicks the liquid in Carlos's face. Luis laughs and before he knows it, he gets flicked with water as well. Will they ever learn?

"Any more attitude, Luis?" she asks.

"No ma'am," Luis says, standing like as straight as a soldier.

"You have any more filthy words to come out of that boca (mouth) of yours, Carlos?" she dips her hand in the water as a warning. Carlos looks like he wants to say something slick but knowing him he would back because it was mama.

"No ma'am," echoes soldier number two.

"And what about you Alejandro?" wait what about me? I didn't do anything which is exactly what I tell her.

"What? I was trying to break it up," when I realize I was going to get in trouble if I didn't stop it sooner or later. I decided to give her my best you-can't-resist-me-smile. She looks at me as if I honestly think she would fall for that trick which I'm hoping it will. She flicks water in my face. "That's for not breaking it sooner. Now get dressed, all of you, and come eat breakfast before school."

So much for my can't resist me smile. Man if Brittany was here she could probably get me out of this.

"Stop thinking about her!"

"You know you love us," I called after her. One to just mess with her. And two so I could forget about the past.

I took a quick shower trying to push down my perverted thoughts about a certain snow girl and the things we use to do in this shower.

Flashback two years ago

I walked inside my house and heard the water in our bathroom running. Who the hell was taking a shower? Mi'ama was working, Carlos was with Kiara, Luis was at soccer practice. So who the hell was here? I walked to the door and pressed my ear and heard…singing?

Well, I couldn't tell you
Why she felt that way
She felt it every day

And I couldn't help her
I just watched her make
The same mistakes again

What's wrong, what's wrong now?
Too many, too many problems
Don't know where she belongs
Where she belongs

She wants to go home
But nobody's home
That's where she lies
Broken inside

With no place to go
No place to go
To dry her eyes
Broken inside

Brittany was here. Oh shit mi novia (my girlfriend) was here! Of course this wasn't the first time she would come and stay at my place. She's been doing this since she was ten; I continue to listen to her singing. Mi amor (my love) was an amazing singer. I loved her beautiful voice. I slowly open the door as I continue to listen to her beautiful words.

Open your eyes
And look outside
Find the reasons why

You've been rejected
And now you can't find
What you've left behind

Be strong, be strong now
Too many, too many problems
Don't know where she belongs
Where she belongs

She wants to go home
But nobody's home
That's where she lies
Broken inside

With no place to go
No place to go
To dry her eyes
Broken inside

She kept singing and I kept listening, I was so into her song that I didn't even realize I was undressing myself and entered the shower until I wrapped my arms around her and pulled her closer to my body. I felt her body stiffen but relax when she realize it was me. She wrapped her arms around me and gave me a sweet kiss.

"Canta para cariño," (Sing for me love) I whispered in her ear. I could hear her swallowing and I couldn't help but laugh. I place my head in the crook of her neck and listen to the words of her song.

Her feelings she hides
Her dreams she can't find
She's losing her mind
She's falling behind

She can't find her place
She's losing her faith
She's falling from grace
She's all over the place, yeah

She wants to go home
But nobody's home
That's where she lies
Broken inside

With no place to go
No place to go
To dry her eyes
Broken inside

She's lost inside, lost inside
Oh oh
She's lost inside, lost inside
Oh oh, oh

I turned her around and kissed her luscious lips. I heard a small moaning sound and couldn't help but feel myself getting hard. My arms went to her sweet ass and gave it a good squeeze. I lifted her from the ground as she wrapped her long sexy legs around my waist.

"Bedroom," she whispered seductively.

"Anything for you princesa," (Princess)

I turned off the water and headed for my room. I placed her down and started to nip her neck. Marking her as mine.

I was about to enter her-

Flashback interrupted

"Yo Alex are done? I gotta take a piss." My eyes flashed wide open as Carlos pound on the door.

"Espérate idiota. Ya mero cabo." (Wait you dumbass I'm almost finish)

"Hurry up then." I waited until I knew for sure he was gone. I banged my head against the wall. Fuuuuuccckkkk. Something tells me that this is going to be a year that I won't forget.

Now that I think about it, I wish I could forget maybe then it wouldn't hurt so bad to remember the pain I caused her.

XxXxX

I pulled on my black leather jacket, giving mi'ama a quick peck on the cheek and head out. Surprisingly there were no problems today and Luis and Carlos actually behaved themselves. Thank God. I start walking to my bike when a familiar female voice shouts to me. Too bad it's not the one I want to here.

Carmen Sanchez, my neighbor and my ex-girlfriend. The one before and after Brittany.

"Hey Carmen," I mutter.

"How about giving me a ride?"

Her short black skirt shows off her killer legs and her tight ass shirt showing the world her perky chichis.

"Well are you?" as much as I didn't want to Carmen was my home girl whether we're a couple or not we have each other's back, it's the code we live by.

"Get on."

Carmen hops on my motorcycle and has the fucking nerves to place her hands on my thighs while pressing against my backside. If she thinks that this would make me forget what happen then she is dead wrong. I will never forgive her for what she did. Then again it was partly my fault but I still hated her for it.

One thing about me I never forget the past, I remember it well, cause even though my past is fucked up as my future the past is the only thing that keeps me going. My past is the only place I can go to see mi angel sonríe (my angel smiling)

Brittany's point of view

I sat at the steps of school waiting to see if either Paco or Isa would come to me and speak to me. If they didn't I wouldn't blame them. Alex still thinks that Paco and I haven't spoken to each other. Which is fine with me, the last thing I want is for Alex to hate Paco for no reason at all.

I decided to take out one of my books and started reading.

Yeah, yeah yeah. I know what you're thinking, Brittany Elise reading? The most 'popular' girl is a bookworm. The answer is yes. I love reading and I don't give a damn what people say. I heard a motorcycle approaching and knew that he was here.

"Thanks for the ride Alex," I look up and see Alex and Carmen? Both of them getting off of Julio. I could feel my heart shattering into a million pieces.

When Carmen got off she wrapped her arms around Alex's neck and peck his cheek. Guess they were back together. I slowly got up and headed to my locker not looking back. I felt like a robot. Every move I made was mechanical and sluggish. When I reached my locker I opened it and started to take out whatever I needed and putting everything that I didn't needed.

"Hey gorgeous want me to walk you to class?"

I didn't know if it was Colin or some other loser that would hit on me whenever Paco wasn't around but I didn't care. I closed my locker and headed for the library the one place I can truly be alone.

XxXxX

As soon as I got there I buried my face in my hands. I couldn't believe it. He was back with her. The girl that ruined everything? Okay maybe not everything but still. I whipped my eyes and picked up my books. Placing the picture of me and Alex back in my book I walked out and headed to class hoping that I don't see him today. I bumped into someone, dropping all of my books and papers. I look up to see the one person I wanted to avoid.

"Alejo/mamacita?" (A/N: I was planning on stopping here but I figure you guys deserve way more than this.)

Did he just call me my nickname?

Blue eyes met warm chocolate brown eyes that would always have warmth and love for me. Now they were just empty bottom less pits.

"You okay?"

"Uhh, yeah I'm fine," I said getting up and picking up my books.

"Next time watch were you're going bitch." I could feel my back stiffen and fear going up and down my spine. Something told me this wasn't going to be easy.

I turned to him and smiled.

"Sorry, how are you?" he looked at me as if I lost my mind. Even when he was a total ass whole to me I still continue to show him I was here for him.

"Been good," he said in shock and disbelief.

"That's good?" god could I sound lamer?

Great now there was an awkward silence that fell. I so wanted to break the tension. When were little talking to each other became second nature. There was never a second when we were quiet. Now we can't even go two seconds without arguing.

I was about to speak when the warning bell rang. I got up and ran without saying good bye. Something I really regret.

Alex's point of view

Did she seriously call me by my nickname? It didn't matter. She was gone she was no longer apart of my life and I plan to keep it that way. I got up and dusted myself. Damn it, her stupid perfume was lingering off my shirt. I was about to head to class when something caught my eye. I picked it up and was surprise to see what it was. I could feel a smile spreading across my face.

I guess no matter what I do she still cares about a pendejo like me.

Shoving the piece of paper into my back pocket I headed to class. Ignoring the aching pain in my chest.

With Brittany

Brittany's point of view

English honors classroom

9:20 a.m.

Where is it? Oh my god where the fuck is it? I spilled everything on top of my desk and started searching. I open all of my books to make sure if I misplace it or if by some messed up miracle it would be there. Luck was not on my side. I quadruple check my purse and pockets to see if it was there.

It wasn't it. Maybe I left it at home? No, no way. I never went anywhere without that picture. I was close to tears. If I didn't find it I have no clue what I would do!

The door open and Mrs. O'Kelly my favorite teacher enter the room. Great that meant that class was starting which also meant that I am going to have to wait until the end of the day before I could find my picture.

With Alex

Alex's point of view

Calculus classroom

9:25 a.m.

The teacher was talking about what she expected from us and what she was going to teach but I wasn't listening instead my mind was set on the picture in front of me. It was Brittany's favorite picture of us. It was of our first Halloween together I had my arms wrapped protectively around her waist while she was giving me a sweet kiss on the cheek. If I looked real closely I could see the two of us blushing.

I turned the picture and read what the two of wrote when Shelly gave us the picture.

"I will always love you,"

Hard to believe how innocent we were and how we thought our promise would last. Damn we were stupid.

"Mr. Fuentes?" I look up to see the teacher glaring at me.

"Yes?" I ask with a smile on my face.

"In the future I would hope you pay attention."

"No promises." I beamed at her. She shook her head in disgust and continued with the lecture. I continued to look at the picture and smile, knowing that if things were different both me and Brittany could've still been together.

With Brittany

Lunch time

12:15 p.m.

"Come Brittany, if we don't hurry Darlene is going to give our seats away," Morgan said with worry. As if Darlene is going to let anyone sit were I sit. According to the whole school I am Fairfield's Princess and everyone wants to sit with royalty. Whoppie.

"Hey Brittany!" Darlene practically shouted in my ear.

"Hi Darlene."

"So now that everyone is hear I want to talk about that I am having a party this weekend…"

She's talking but all I'm hearing is blah, blah, blah. I wonder what Paco and Alex are doing?

With Alex and Paco

Alex's point of view

12:15 p.m.

Paco and I were sitting with our gang just outside the school. Normally los gringos sat inside while we sat outside. It was better that way, we avoided less fights that way. As we ate our tacos that mi'ama made I can't help but feel that stupid picture in my pocket getting heavier and heavier by the second.

"Remember Alejandro, if you betray me she dies." He stroke her long silky hair and smiled at me. Chuy's grip tightens around me. Damn it! How could I be so stupid? How could I let them know my one weakness?

"Mmm…Alex…" mi ángel talked in her sleep. Hector bended his head and buried his nose in the crook of her neck. That alone made my blood boil! How dare he touch her! I tried to escape Chuy but his grip just got tighter on me.

Hector got up and walked up to us.

"So Alex, are you going to do what I said and forget what happened? Or is your ángel (angel) going to pay for your mistakes?"

I looked at him, than at the only girl who held my heart. He knew my answer, hell to this day there is no doubt in my mind that he knew before I did.

"Alex you okay?"

Paco said snapping me out of my thoughts. Brown eyes met brown eyes. I didn't have to tell Paco what was wrong and he didn't have to ask.

He clasped his hand on my shoulder and gave it a reassuring squeeze. That was all the reassurance I needed.

The two of us continue to eat our lunch in peaceful silence.

Brittany's point of view

The bell rang ending class. I halled ass and headed to my next class Mrs. Peterson. I hope she was better than the rest of my class. Right before I got to my class my phone range.

I pulled it out and answer.

"Hello?"

"Brittany, its' your father I need you to head to the front office right away,"

"Daddy, I'm in school. Is this important?"

"Yes Brittany it is."

"Well what's going on?"

Alex's point of view

I walked to Peterson's class with Isa and Paco. The only class I had with them. When we were half way there my damn phone decided to ring. I thought it would be mi'ama to remind me to pick up Luis from soccer but surprisingly it wasn't mi'ama. It was Enrique?

What the hell did he want?

"Contesta, (answer)" Isa and Paco answered at the same time. Sometimes I wonder why Britt and I hooked them up. I did what they said and answer my cousin. This better be good if I get caught and get in trouble Enrique is gonna pay, big time.

"Que paso? (what happened?)

"Alejo, get your ass to the hospital now!" he shouted into the damn thing.

"Why?" I asked a bit annoyed. Didn't he know I was in school?

Brittany/Alex's point of view

Enrique/Britt's father at the same time

"Because Shelley has gone into labor and is about to give birth."

Both Alex and Brittany

"Ah hell."

(Away from this place I have made)
Won't you take me away from me

Lost in a dying world I reach for something more
I have grown so weary of this lie I live

I've woken now to find myself
In the shadows of all that I have created
I'm longing to be lost in you
I, I've woken now to find myself

I've been lost in shadows of my own
I'm longing to be lost in you, away from me, from me
From me, from me, from me
From me, from me, from me

A/N: Love it hate tell me what you think okay? And don't worry it won't take me forever to update I promise

~Well till next time

~Goddess of Night out ^^