January, 2013
Today I am so exhausted that I can hardly pick up this pencil. Earlier today, or maybe it was yesterday, it seems like it since so much happened, I moved to find myself a warehouse to stay in, and realized how unfortunate it is that I have lost track of the days. New Years. By some horrible luck, I left to the city on New Years.
Everyone was out on the streets, every single one of them making wishes, resolutions, thinking about everything that happened the previous year. Thousands and thousands of thoughts, from so, so many people. This is when I idiotically decided to leave my mostly silent sanctuary. All those thoughts banging around my head...so, so many, my own mind drowning in the overwhelming sea of other peoples' consciousness. I lost myself to the overwhelming mass, and I panicked and ran blind to try to get away. My mind had vanished, I can't even remember how or when I made it to this warehouse.
I will have to rest for a long while before I can have enough energy to even attempt to control my powers. It is obvious to me now that I must learn to control them soon, the thought of losing myself that way again terrifies me.
Later January 2013
After resting for a while, I took a better look around my new-found home. There are all sorts of pieces of scrap metal, and a few tools lying around. I think this may have been an old mechanic shop, or something like it at least. I've decided to go about making this place more homey. Currently, I don't even have a bed, last night I was so exhausted that I simply fell asleep on the floor.
And, as soon as I get this place settled, I can start on working at finding a cure. Last night was a reminder of just how bad my life has become, something that I slightly forgotten since escaping to the near quiet of the park. And, in case the former is impossible, finally get to work on controlling my powers. If I am to be stuck like this, I will not be caught in the same predicament as I was last night.
R&R, Until next chapter!
