As Phaedrus Said

Summary: They were born twins, but never have they felt like twins. Rin; always looking out for Yukio with eyes of 'brotherly love'. Yukio; admiring his older brother more than should be socially acceptable. Neither acknowledge nor deny their feelings but they do keep them from each other. When high school comes and new people make their appearances, jealousy arises and so will trouble. High School AU

Warning: Cursing. Violence. Twincest. Male x male. (Don't worry. I'm not going to have anything to do with rape and/or forceful sexual situations. If you are looking for that, please turn away. This fic is going to be a very loving and feeling type story.) Slow!Build love. Future sex scenes. Slight OOC. High School AU. Um, there is some underage stuff but only when they are 16 through 18. As kids, they don't do , Tons of jealousy. Flaming!Rin (kinda).

A/N: Whelp. Chapter four is done and out. And I LOVE this chapter. Mmmmmmmm, so yummy. Just wait till I start writing part two, so many juicy and delicious scenes to be played out... Just hot damn, guys, hot damn. I have so many things planned for my babies. It's gonna blow my mind just writing them. I'm going to have to pace myself or I'm going to be having so many nose-bleeds it won't even be comical. Hnnnngg, I'M DYING FROM JUST WAITING MYSELF. FUCK. (I also have Internet since I posted the last chapter, heh.) Okay, here, sorry, continue on. Sorry.

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Part 1

Chapter 4: Video Games

"Yukio, you baka, get off my back would you?!" Rin exclaimed while he button mashed to the max on his controller. Rin knew he sucked at video games, but Yukio could at least be lenient enough to help him get through the damn level together. Either player could finish the level or they could do it together, but Yukio just HAD to show off. Mean-y butt.

"Nii-san, if only you wouldn't hang back so much and grab EVERY item, we could both not die so much AND get through the level faster," Yukio said back, nudging Rin's shoulder with his own. Yukio kept a level head about how they were positioned. Rin and Yukio were both with criss-crossed legs, but Rin's knee was draped over Yukio's leg by a lot. Their shoulders were also touching. Yukio was pleased with the nice body contact with his twin.

Rin huffed and lost another life. "You know I like completion scores! I like to get EVERY item for a reason. For the score and for points to get new characters-slash-gadgets." He tossed his controller down with a flick of his wrist as Yukio had to finish out the rest of the level by himself. Rin lay against the back of the couch and leaned into Yukio to groan as the jerk skipped almost every item in the game, except for the necessities.

Rin and Yukio were thirteen and Rin was old enough to make his own video game decisions. Rin couldn't help the whine as Yukio got the average score for the level. Yukio could be a pain in the ass sometimes. The guy was a genius and couldn't do this simple thing. Rin thought Yukio would be more of the person to get completion on a video game but maybe that was only with school. Weird.

Pissed, Rin grabbed Yukio's controller and tossed it gently to the ground and watched Yukio quirk a brow. Rin stuck out his tongue like he was five and turned away, only mildly upset but making it a much bigger deal than it really should be. Rin could play it off real well and would to get back at his insane twin. Rin listened to Yukio huff, his voice a bit deeper than it used to be. But then again, Yukio was bigger than him and more mature. Yukio was starting to go through puberty, but Rin hadn't even started to show signs. Rin was tall but not like his brother who was way taller already.

Yukio finally gave in to Rin's little temper-tantrum and set his chin on Rin's shoulder. Rin tensed but relaxed only immediately to turn his face into Yukio's hair and start blowing on it. Yukio enjoyed the feeling of his brother, letting Rin shower him with teasing love. Yukio turned and blew air right in Rin's face and Rin acted super offended at the counter attack with sharp intake of air. Yukio's grin soon turned into a surprised expression as Rin pushed him back a bit and faced Yukio to push him down fully on the couch. Yukio was beyond shocked and didn't know what to do as his brother towered over him, hands placed right by his head.

Yukio stared into the magnificent blue that was his brother's eyes. Rin had a smug look on his face that Yukio thought fit him so well. Rin's perfect face was dark, unblemished by the moles that Yukio carried on his own. The light behind Rin's head made him a silhouette to Yukio while the television screen lit a small portion of his face. Yukio couldn't stop staring at his brother. He needed to stop staring at his brother or his body would take on a mind of its own. He had gotten an erection only twice before and only because it was the start of puberty. He researched enough to know how to control himself afterwards but it didn't always work. Rin hadn't noticed the first couple of times it happened.

Making sure he was under control, Yukio made a body awareness check to see whose limbs were where. And apparently, Rin was straddling one of Yukio's upper legs awkwardly because of how they were seated before. As Yukio looked up after glancing down a bit, he saw Rin take on a blank face. It was actually one of confusion almost Yukio checked internally to make sure he had a vacant expression before watching as Rin took on a whole new facial feature.

One of innocent curiosity.

"Oi, Yukio." Rin said calmly.

"Mmm?" Was all Yukio could muster as a response. He was concentrating on too many things at once to form any kind of understandable verbal communication.

Yukio could feel Rin checking him out now, lacking the important "brotherly tone" of one's staring. Yukio could feel that this wasn't a 'brother teasing his brother'. This was 'a boy interested in another boy' kind of stare. Yukio's eyes widened at the realization but didn't point it out. He felt heavy even though no pressure was being applied to him by his older brother from above. Yukio was comfortable with this new feeling. He was already imagining phantom heat from where his brother's legs and arms were placed, the invisible heat of them warming him, giving him a light head, and instantly filling his skull with improbable 'what if's' and even crazier impossible situations. Yukio wondered if Rin was experiencing the same type of reaction as he was. Yukio's heart almost stopped when he told himself that Rin probably wasn't.

Rin wasn't sure what he had wanted to ask. He wasn't sure what he wanted of Yukio what with the way he was looking at him so caring and lovingly. He just wanted to be near Yukio. What messed with Rin's head was that he WAS near Yukio; right on top of him, in fact. Rin was only a breath away from his baby brother. So close, yet, he wanted to be closer. Rin couldn't figure this out. It was the hardest question in the world. He frowned just a smudge, thinking this through. He was so bad at problem solving that a child could laugh at him for his efforts.

Rin wasn't smart like Yukio. Not even close. His little brother probably already knew the answers to the universe in that intelligent head of his. Sometimes, Rin felt like the younger twin to Yukio. It was reasonable. Yukio was smarter, taller, and more mature than Rin would ever be. Yukio was the best and here he was: patiently waiting for Rin to do anything, whether it be smacking him into the next brick wall or hugging him so hard Rin would bruise all his ribs. And Rin just wanted to be CLOSE: near, around, with Yukio as much as he could but nothing made sense. There was nothing he could do. And he was stumped. His body was stirring for something. That something was nothing that Rin could figure out, and it was frustrating. So he looked to Yukio for answers.

Rin stared at Yukio. Really looked at his twin. Glanced between his green-blue eyes, wondering if Yukio would know his question and answer honestly. Rin looked at Yukio's jaw line and how it had grown broader than what he remembered when they were little, its firmness giving definition to his baby brother's face. His cheekbones were not showing yet but maybe they would later on. Yukio's mouth was wide, like Rin's. He could smile big with just a small twitch of his lips. And Yukio's lips. His lips were smooth looking. Rin wasn't sure if they were, but they certainly looked it. His small mole under his lip at the corner just defined him as did the other two on his opposite cheek. He wanted to touch Yukio's face.

Yukio almost couldn't control his breathing with the way Rin was looking at him. Yukio was pretty sure Rin wasn't even aware of what he was doing. He looked dazed, his eyelids dropping lower with every passing thought Yukio assumed his older brother was having. Rin was progressively getting hotter and hotter to Yukio. Burning him to an impossible degree. Yukio was sure that even an ice bath couldn't even cool down his rising fever. Yukio was almost gone when Rin licked his bottom lip. Rin most likely did it unconsciously but that didn't mean it didn't make Yukio feel as if his clothes were on fire. Yukio adored the face his brother was pulling. It was heart melting because it was a face of love. Whether it was brotherly love or not, Yukio didn't seem to care. He would die happy with either. Yukio knew it was love for Rin's gaze caressed his skin like water on glass. It was held with no ill intent, no deceiving purpose, and no conclusive meaning. It was pure and simple. Light and gentle. It would steal anyone's heart away. And Yukio knew Rin would never cause him harm of any sorts. Rin would always be there for him no matter what. Rin would be with Yukio through thick and thin, never leaving his side for any reason. That's what Rin's love was. And it showed every time he would look at Yukio. It was like a promise. Like the promise they had made when they were younger. Like all the promises they had made each other, and will continue to make in the future. And Yukio knew he loved Rin. In all senses and meaning of the word. Because Yukio would do and be anything for Rin. For any reason. Yukio knew this when they were young as well. It would always be there, present and future.

Yukio twitched his hand up, but he didn't move it to Rin.

All Yukio wanted to do was hold Rin close. To hold Rin and never let go. Keep him and only him in his heart. Yukio wanted to make sure that Rin filled his heart so no one else could even think to make a home in there because he wanted no one else. He wanted to completely have Rin in his head and heart. And he wanted to do the same for Rin: To be one of his only running thoughts as he was now. Yukio didn't think he could be possessive of anything, but he found he was of his twin brother. It scared him. But it also thrilled him. It made Yukio want to write it on every wall and make every singer preach it to the world in their music. To make every teacher understand and explain it to every child. He wanted to hold Rin close, yet show him off to everyone. Make sure they knew how great of a person he was, but let no one touch him.

Yukio wanted and wanted. But never would he do anything to spoil what they had right now. The way Rin's ocean blue eyes glided with feelings even Rin himself couldn't decipher.

Rin, Yukio's twin brother. Yukio didn't move his hand for this and only this.

Rin shifted his weight to one hand while he lifted the other. He wanted to touch Yukio's face, feel what his face was like and how it had grown and morphed into who he was right now. It had altered without Rin even noticing. He wanted to touch Yukio's face five years from this moment and see how his face will have changed. It was neat how people changed so rapidly that you don't even notice till you actually look back at previous points in time. And Rin reached to touch.

Rin's hand placed itself against Yukio's face. It was firm at first but the drifted to a small stroke, as it fell down Yukio's chin. Yukio had to close his eyes at the feeling. The contact of his brother on him anytime was blissful. He wanted his brother to feel him more but it didn't happen.

Footsteps at the bottom of their stairs alerted both of the twins. Rin took charge and sat up, pulling Yukoi up with him. Rin grabbed his controller and casually set it on his lap as he looked at the wall. Yukio was grateful for the help up and grabbed his controller by the cord, bringing it to himself and pressing pause on the game (which they should have done before). They both looked over at their father as Fujimoto walked in to tell them about his day at work and that he was going to start cooking in a bit (and for Rin to join him when he was ready). The old man finally went away after a bit, not noticing how grand his kids' situation from just before was.

Hearing his father become distant within the house, Yukio turned to his brother who was back to looking at the wall. Yukio wasn't sure what to think, much less say to his twin. He looked down and focused on his controller. Yukio would play it cool for his brother. As long as he and Rin were together and no one else, he would be fine. He would play a brother. Yukio would stop his thoughts and be the best brother there was.

Yukio smacked Rin on the arm carefully and un-paused their game. Yukio watched as Rin grinned and picked up his own controller, as ready as Yukio to keep playing.

Rin would just figure everything out later. Right now, Yukio needed him for their game.