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Promises and Heart break
Chapter 4
Her house had always been dreadfully quiet, but she was used to the silence.
Four years of living in solitude did that to a person.
"You idiot, Gakupo! Why did you have to break her window?" Kaito hissed at the purple haired man who was equally struggling. "It was not my intention to break Miss Rin's window…I felt it was improper to kick down her mahogany door." Gakupo answered in broken breaths. "Oh, so you think breaking a crystal window on the third floor is so much better?" The blue haired man muttered. Gakupo huffed indignantly. "You jumped out with her, with a large, maniacal grin. I believe Miss Rin suffers from a trauma because of it." He retorted.
"I would like the crystal window in my room now; the air is quite cold when night falls." A voice interrupted and they froze. They looked back and saw Rin smiling, eyes closed. "If you have time to bicker about which is worse, I'm sure you can bring that up faster."
Because of the combined fatigue and frustration over carrying the window, Kaito started to snap, forgetting the sole reason why they had so willingly agreed to this. "Well, if your friggin window wasn't in the-" Rin's eyes opened a fraction, smile dropping and looking at him directly. The icy crystalline gaze emitted an involuntary shiver from Kaito. It was looking positively murderous.
"You were saying…?" She asked lightly, another smile creeping up her lips as she raised her right hand lazily, a few white sheets dangling from her fingers.
Kaito gulped and stole a glance at Gakupo who was sweating uncontrollably, nearly dropping the window. "N-nothing! Ahaha, come on Gakupo, we'll get this baby up faster." He told the almost immobile man, who nodded eagerly in response. They started going up the stairs, leaving Rin on the hallway.
"I didn't actually think that you were that upset over your window."
She turned and saw Len smiling at her (a much less spine tingling version of hers).
"Hey, it's a crystal window, I actually liked that it could block off most of the sunlight."
He shook his head, chuckling. "I suppose, you sleep through the day anyway."
She smiled. "Yeah. I guess." They both watched the two trying to go up faster, albeit failing miserably. Len spoke up again.
"You're usually so passive, so I was quite surprised that you forced them to fix your broken window, well I'm even more surprised that they actually agreed to do this, what do you have over their heads?"
A hint of déjà vu passed over Rin's eyes at the conversation. "Just because I'm a bit passive doesn't mean I don't get pissed, I'm human, Len." He smiled sheepishly. "Oh, and just a bit of blackmailing, that's all."
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The moment the four (Meiko, Luka, Kaito and Gakupo) had found out about the pictures they begged Rin not to spread them to which she only replied with a small smile.
"Only if you pay and fix my window."
They had stared at her incredulously, surprised. Crystal windows were quite expensive, not to mention heavy, but they were even more surprised that their Rin was capable of blackmail.
"Why?" Gakupo asked.
"You broke it." Rin answered simply.
"I thought you wouldn't care! I mean, you usually don't let things bother you." Kaito protested. "Can't you just be impassive and forget about it ever happening?"
"And freeze during the night? No way, just because I'm a bit passive doesn't mean I let everything slide, I'm human, I get pissed too, you know." She answered in a flat voice.
Kaito crossed his arms over his chest defiantly. "No way, I am not spending my ice cream cash for your crystal window. Besides it was Gakupo who broke it! "
Rin shrugged. "You jumped out of the window with me, I lost half of my life, you know." She declared.
The blue haired man shook his head. "No, I will not help."
"Then I'll post the pictures." She stated easily.
Meiko, in a state of panic, kicked Kaito. "Do it you moron! If that gets out I will maim you alive!" She hissed at the half dead Kaito (Rin knew he was inwardly pleased with the attention, no matter how sadistic it seemed.) pointing at the embarrassing pictures.
He slowly nodded, afraid of Meiko's wrath (but he also loved that side of her). Rin turned to Gakupo. "What about you?"
"I would not want to dishonor Miss Luka with those pictures though I, myself honestly do not mind. I shall do it for Miss Luka's sake." He answered proudly, smiling at Luka. "And I suppose I do owe you because of my misdeed."
"Then it's settled, come to my house on Saturday, and when you fix it, I'll give you the pictures. Fair enough?" She told them.
"What about Len, I mean he was part of it!" Kaito had yet again protested. "He did no damage, as far as I can remember." Rin said easily. The blue haired man fumed and Meiko smacked him on the head.
"Be a man, BaKaito." She chided, turning to Rin. "I didn't think you had it in you to take revenge, Rin, let alone blackmail." Meiko said. "You usually don't give a damn about anything." The blonde sighed.
"Must everyone assume that I don't care about anything?"
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"I can't believe they actually agreed to do it because of the drunken pictures I took." She murmured thoughtfully to herself, leaning against the wall. "I suppose it helped that the Meiko and Luka convinced them…it's a good revenge tactic though."
Len chuckled. "Well, whatever you have over their heads, they sure are scared of you…but, don't you think it's a bit too much…? You could have asked the guys from the window shop to fix it up for you." Her eyes slid over to him, keeping her face devoid of any emotion.
"Oh, do you want to volunteer?" She asked him.
"Huh?" He looked puzzled. Rin hummed. "I guess it's only right that you help them too, I mean, you were an accomplice to my kidnapping. No, maybe I can make you clean up the entire house instead." She turned to him and smiled. "You up for it, Shota Len?" Len paled considerably, barely taking notice of the nickname.
"I'll pass…" He trailed off nervously, scratching the back of his head. "I mean, Gakupo and Kaito did most of the damage so…" She suppressed a laugh and patted his head. He looked up at her questioningly and she smiled again.
"I'm kidding, I'm not inconsiderate and besides, I wouldn't do that to you." Rin assured him before going downstairs. "If you need me, I'll be in the kitchen." He was left dumbfounded and he smiled fondly as he watched her figure disappear down the stairs.
"She got me there; really, she has quite the humor doesn't she?"
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"Bye, Rin."
"Farewell, Miss Rin."
Rin waved at the as they walked away happily, probably because of the butter pecan ice cream and the fried eggplants. Oh and the pictures. Definitely the pictures.
"You're cooking is impressive." Len complimented, licking his lips. He could still taste a bit of banana fondue. She gave a short bow. "I'm honored." She said grinning and headed back inside. Len lingered before following her. She raised a brow at him.
"You're not going home yet?"
"Nah, I'll hang-out for a bit."
She shrugged. "Do as you please."
They sat down on the couch and switched the television on, flipping about aimlessly. There were no words exchanged between them until Len broke the silence.
"You never told the guys?" He asked. Rin slowly placed down the remote control. "No." She answered. She could feel his gaze on her but she faced away from him. "That's why you stayed behind right? Because Gakupo asked a while ago." She stated. He was silent but then she felt him wrap his arms around her, burying his head on her shoulder. She flushed in spite of herself and mentally shook her head.
He's only comforting you, don't look much into it. She thought.
"…Yeah, that topic is a bit…sensitive for you." Len admitted softly.
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"Please come in." Rin opened the door wide as the three boys entered. Kaito stood behind the source of torture, making sure it wouldn't fall and break.
"What the hell is Len doing here?" He asked, pointing an accusing finger at the blonde who was already inside. "I plan to hang-out with Rin." He told the blue haired man.
"The house is large, Miss Rin. But if I may ask, where are your parents? I have yet to meet them and I would like to apologize personally for breaking the window." Gakupo asked. Rin paused at mid-step, missing the worried look Len shot her.
He glanced at Rin. "Um, Gakupo-"
"…They're away on a business trip, so you needn't worry about apologizing personally to them." She answered evenly, walking again.
"Oh, I see. May I apologize to Mister Rinta then? I must have caused quite a disturbance." He continued and she stopped again.
"I'm afraid Nii-sama is not here at the moment as well." She replied and turned to him. "Gakupo, I don't mean to be rude, but Kaito is having a hell of a hard time trying to bring the window in." She pointed a finger at the ice cream loving man who was struggling.
"F-forgive me! I shall help him immediately." He rushed towards Kaito. Len watched her anxiously, gauging her reaction.
Her face was blank, even her eyes lacked feeling.
They never did notice the air of emptiness in the house.
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"I was worried; I couldn't leave you, not when you were reminded by that…" He trailed off and she faced him, smiling softly. "Thank you, Len." She murmured. "But I'm alright; I got through it all these years haven't I?"
Disapproving eyes
Hushed whispers
She pushed those thoughts aside and looked at Len, who slowly ended the embrace. He seemed like he planned to say more but she beat him to it. She really didn't want to dwell on the subject any longer.
"You don't need to be worried over me; in fact, I should ask you about Miku, Shota Len." For the second time that day, the nickname barely registered in his head. She would have found this amusing if it wasn't for the fact that Miku was the reason, but it was worth it, it served as a distraction anyway.
"W-why would you ask about her?" He stuttered. Let's keep up the act, shall we Rin? She thought to herself as she let a smirk grace her lips. "Oh, I don't know…just curious as to why you're so nervous around her." She said lazily. "I don't know what you mean…" He looked down. She looked thoughtful for a brief moment.
"Okay...Let's play a game Len." The blonde suggested.
"Huh? Why so sudden?"
"Come on, I'm bored."
He agreed, wanting to lift up her mood. "What kind?"
"It's simple really, just a game of arm wrestling."
Len raised a brow. "You're a girl, Rin." She shrugged.
"Yes, I'm a girl."
"It wouldn't be fair."
She rolled her eyes. "Len don't be a chauvinist and just play, unless you're afraid of losing to me?" That did it.
"No!" A small grin found its way to her lips.
"So you'll play?" He nodded.
"Don't cry when you lose, Rin."
"I wouldn't be so confident. Loser gets a penalty by the way."
He paled a bit. "What kind?"
"Winner asks questions and the loser just has to answer the ten questions truthfully, no matter what it is about."
"Eh? Why? That sounds unfair."
"I'll make you another batch of banana fondue if you play."
"…Fine."
And so their game began. In a span of five minutes, Len managed to lose to Rin. He groaned and buried his face in his hands.
"Ate your words, Len~"
"Shut. Up."
"So let's start the punishment. Do you like bananas?"
"Yeah."
"Is Kaito an idiot?"
"Yeah."
"Is Gakupo a bigger idiot?"
"Yeah."
"Do you have a comfort toy?"
"No."
"Do you remember the time you cried over a love story?"
"…What? No!"
"Len, the banana fondue."
"…Damn you, yes I remember it." She laughed.
"S-shut up! You know I hated that Mark dumped Rosalie for a no good two faced woman!"
"Did you wet your pants when you watched Ring 2?"
"No!"
She looked at him pointedly. He groaned. "…Yes." She stifled a giggle. Aw, he was blushing already…her eyes softened as she asked the next.
"Do you remember the promise we made that summer eight years ago?" He looked at her, clearly confused.
"No, did we have a promise?" He asked. She forced a smile. "Next question. Is Miku beautiful?"
He paused. "…Yeah." One question down.
"Is she lovely?"
"…Yeah." Two down.
"…Do you love her?"
"…Yeah." Three and out.
Rin stopped and Len looked at her questioningly, distracted by the thought of the banana fondue. "What? The game is over already?" He asked. "Yes, I'll get you your fondue…but I want you to think about the last three questions and how you answered them. You're an awfully honest boy, aren't you Len?" She said slyly, smirking at him before leaving for the kitchen. Awfully honest, but really forgetful…She thought. But I'm naïve for holding onto a promise made by a bunch of children.
Her heart clenched painfully but her eyes remained dry.
Stay strong, Rin.
A few minutes later, Len's face was entirely red. "R-Rin!" The rest of the afternoon was spent with a flustered Len groaning and a smirking Rin.
He didn't see the empty look in her eyes.
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The house was dreadfully silent, all traces of the any activity were gone and the feeling of loneliness settled in once more. The impression of emptiness and loneliness agreed with her as she walked up the stairs, her heart sharing the same feeling.
It hurt. Those two words sum up everything. She knew he loved Miku already and she thought she was ready to hear it come from his own mouth.
Damn was she wrong.
When he said it, her heart twisted so dangerously that she was afraid it would stop…it didn't help that he couldn't remember the promise either.
She wanted to hate Miku, for attracting Len.
She wanted to hate Len for loving Miku; she wanted to hate him for not remembering their promise.
She wanted Len to love her, and just her. She wanted to be more than friends.
But…that was just her being selfish and stupid.
In reality, she couldn't hate Miku, not when the teal haired girl did nothing wrong, she was simply the lucky one who caught Len's eye. She couldn't hate Len for loving Miku either, Miku was a lady, soft-spoken and gentle. She was beautiful and her voice was as pleasant as the sea waves. Overall, she was more or less the perfect girl. She couldn't hate Len for not remembering the promise since it was made when they were children.
It probably never mattered much to him…
However, she could hate herself for wanting Len to love her; she could hate herself for being so bloody selfish wanting him to love only her; she could hate herself for not being grateful for what she has with Len.
He was my very first friend…
Most of all, she could hate herself for stupidly holding onto a promise…
It mattered so much to her; perhaps so little to him.
I should be contented with what I have with Len; I shouldn't ask for more… She thought.
She entered her room and shut the door. "He was the one who reached out to me; I vowed to return the kindness he gave me." She gave a bitter smile. "But it's so damn hard…"
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Later in the night, she sat on her desk, writing away when a small, white sheet fluttered. She picked it up and stared at it blankly.
"Oh, it's our family picture."
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Her house had always been dreadfully quiet, but she was used to the silence. Four years of living in solitude did that to a person.
Four years weren't enough to heal the wounds of the heart though.
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"Would you believe that she is their child?"
"Useless."
"Do you love me?"
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End of Chapter 4
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