Alright! Sorry it took so long. I was on Holiday! Thanksgiving is the best and since I deprived ya'll of this here great story for so long, I made it extra long!
I don't own twilight… but I do own a Medieval Times crown!
And we're on!
Alice POV.
Peaceful. I feel peaceful.
Loud noises were in the distance. It was nighttime; I could tell even without my eyes open and being indoors; it was the old, dark abandoned building Bella snuck us in last night. But the smell, it was something I've never smelt before. What's the word Bella would use? Sterile. Yes that's it, sterile. Well it stunk. My lips turned into a small grin, cracking as I did. I winced. Water. I thought.
I slowly opened my eyes. My throat was so incredibly parched that it felt as if someone had shoved cotton balls down it. I need water. I looked around me not taking in anything; focusing on one thing, and there, to my right was a glass of water. My heart beat faster as I scooted closer to the water; excited about quenching my thirst. As I reached for the glass my arm stopped, something restricted it. I froze. My breathing peaked; close to hyperventilating. I could hear a loud beeping noise getting faster and faster. Knocking my self out of my thirst induced haze; I could think properly, I could take in the things around me. I wasn't in the old abandoned building I was in last with Bella. I started shaking. I slowly looked at my arm. There in my arm was some kind of tube sticking out. I quickly grabbed it and ripped it off me; wincing at the pain it caused in my arm, I fell off of the bed in the process.
Momentarily stunned, I stared at the tile floor; my hands stung from impact and my breathing became out of control. Where am I? Tears started to roll down my face. An extremely loud beeping noise came from the machine thing that was over on the other side of the bed. It terrified me so I got to my feet, legs shaky, and ran to the opposite corner of the room. I curled into a ball. Bella save me! Where are you Bella!?
In the opposite corner of where I was hiding a man stood up and slowly walked towards me. I opened my mouth to scream but couldn't because of my extremely parched mouth and swollen tongue. I shoved myself backwards trying to escape this man, forgetting that the wall was right behind me, I slammed my head into the wall terribly hard. I had made an "oof-ing" sound when I hit as my head began to spin. Then all of a sudden the lights were turned on and lots of people came rushing into the room. I hid my face from them and just rocked back and forth wishing Bella could be here to save me, she always has, so where is she now?
Everyone was speaking at once and I couldn't understand what they were saying; they were using large words I didn't know. I felt like an alien being here. This was a different world. Not mine. Not my dark alleyways or abandoned buildings. Hell, I could handle that no problem. Bella always called me her tiny shadow because when I didn't want to be found, I wasn't. But here in this bright room with all of these people, I was terrified. My life is going to end now.
I peeked out of my arms as all of the people talked at me. The man who was in my room when they lights were off was standing slightly away from everyone just staring at me. He was dressed differently, so I was guessing he wasn't part of the people in the baggy suits. He was the most beautiful man I had ever seen. He was enormously tall with long blonde wavy hair, piercing blue eyes, and dark circles under his eyes; as if he hadn't slept in days.
"Maybe we should let her calm down before ya'll do anymore to her. Look at her she's scared shitless." He said in a strange accent. He didn't take his eyes off of me as he spoke to the other people. "Why don't ya'll leave and I'll stay with her and come get you if she calms down." He finally broke eye contact with me and looked over at the funny looking people. I quickly looked at them too. They all murmured, shook their heads and slowly exited the room.
The man followed them towards the door and closed it after them. Then shut off the lights. I instantly felt more comfortable. He turned around slowly and picked up the glass of water that was sitting up on the stand, next to the bed. Seeing the water, my thirst came back with a vengeance. I licked my lips as he came slowly closer to me. I watched him very closely waiting for any sudden movement from him that would cause me any harm.
"Are ya thirsty?" he asked as he sat crisscrossed on the floor about five feet away from me. I just stared at him. I was dying for that glass of water in his hands. He slowly put the water on the ground between us. I stared at it. Is this a trick? I slowly looked at him, he wasn't smiling but he didn't look tense or angry either. So I decided it was worth a shot. Slowly reaching out, I grabbed the cup. The glass was cool to the touch and I knew the water was going to be heavenly. I took a sip, then another and another, finally gulping the whole cup down. My stomach was fully, almost uncomfortable. Thank you. I thought gratefully. I know I didn't say it out loud but somehow I knew he knew what I felt.
I sat the cup down slowly between us again. It seemed like the barrier. I can only go that far and he could only come this far with the cup evenly between us; an invisible wall, somehow as ridiculous as that sounded it made me relax even more. I let loose of the death grip I had on my legs and slowly let my head fall on my knees, resting on my cheek, as my hands played with the hem of my weird gown I was in.
I couldn't decide if I liked him or not. He didn't seem to be mean or angry and he told all of the strange looking people to leave me alone. So I decided he was ok. I cracked a smile.
"What's yer name?" he whispered.
"Alice" I whispered back. Did I just say that!? What the hell? I have never talked to anyone but Bella and even then I didn't feel the need to say much. The man in front of me smiled beautifully.
"Well, my name is Jasper, Alice." He said. "It's nice to finally meet you." He smiled again. He made no move to get closer as if sensing I needed lots of space. Jasper? His name is Jasper? Strange. Old fashioned, but I like it. I smiled again and nodded. I could nod. He deserved at least a nod.
"I guess I'll talk while you listen." He chuckled. "I bet you're wonderin' why you're in here, aren't ya?" I nodded again.
"Well I brought ya to this hospital because I found you." He slowly said. My eyebrows raised in surprise. I lifted my head from my knees and looked at him more seriously, expecting him to go on.
"Um, you were in a box, down by the river. Don't you remember a thing do ya?" He asked. In a box!? I was in a box? By the river? What. The. Hell. Where was Bella? I didn't know how to get it across to get him to tell me where Bella was. So I just starred intently at him. I could tell this made him somewhat nervous but I didn't care, I needed him to tell me more. Not getting the point, I used my hand to motion him to continue.
"Oh, well, you were covered in blood and ya held a note; this note." He reached into his jeans and pulled out a very ragged piece of paper that had lots of creases in it where it had been folded multiple times and handed it to me. I looked at it and recognized Bella's handwriting. I stared at the letters trying to figure out what was written so I could find out where Bella might be. But the more I stared at it the more I became frustrated by not being able to read. Bella had taught me a few words, but because I wasn't willing to talk, it was nearly impossible to learn. Why the hell didn't I learn to read? I threw the paper down in anger as tears slowly flowed down my face. I will never find Bella now and I'll be alone forever. Jasper gently picked up the paper and started to read,
"Sister,
"How can I express the love and peace you have brought to my life since you have entered it? Finding you has been the best luck I have ever had. You alone have brought the greatest joy into my life. You have been my stepping stone; keeping me steady in my walk in life. Now that you are no longer at my side, I fear that I might fall but knowing that you are safe will keep me strong.
"I'm sure that you are very afraid right now. I don't know where you are or what you're doing but I pray you will find happiness. I'm so sorry that you have to read this; my intention was never to hurt you. I love you so much and I know that I have hurt you beyond your limitations if you have to read my goodbye letter to you. I write this letter because I have a feeling that one day I will have to leave you without an explanation. I didn't want to go without you knowing how much I love you and how much you mean to me. I write this letter because I know that one day you will be safer without me than with me. I love you more than life itself Alice; you're my little sister.
"Alice, I know you feel so alone and sad, but I need you to do something for me; stay strong, keep holding on, never give-up and always be yourself. I know you are a strong woman, much stronger than I. Find your place in this world and live for the both of us. Always remember that I love you so much, you are and always will be my everlasting friend. Goodbye, Ally.
"Your sister and best friend,
"- Bella"
My heart felt like someone ripped it from my chest; a hole had been formed from Bella's absence. I was crying at the beginning of her letter but now I was weeping uncontrollably as Bella said her last goodbye. My body felt as if I had been hit by a car; I lost all strength. My body slumped over and I wept. I felt like I had lost the most important person in my life, like they had died. Bella, Bella's gone forever. No! I cried out; my scream, the only noise I could hear. My heart was broken; I had lost my sister.
When my tears had run dry, a foggy numb feeling had passed over me. A few years ago a boy named Tony had described to me how doing drugs felt like. If this is what he felt I will never again hate drugs if it keeps people from pain like that. My body felt nothing; I felt nothing. I opened my eyes and starred at the floor, tears still seeping every now and then. What do I do now? I slowly looked over at Jasper who hadn't moved from where he had been sitting. The look on his face was so contorted with hurt that it made me feel that he knew my pain and that my pain was his pain.
"Would ya like to lie on your bed? I promise I won't let any of them bother ya." He said.
My body felt too weak to even move. The ground was hard and my body ached from being on one position for far too long. I slowly sat up and walked over to the bed. My eyes were getting heavy from all of the crying I had just done. As I lay on the bed my eyes began to close. I slowly looked over at Jasper who looked relieved, awkward and extremely tired. He should get some sleep; he looks like he hasn't slept in a real bed in a week.
As he started to leave the room I panicked. Was he going home? If he left I would have no one. He can't leave me too! As weak as my body was I quickly sat up and grabbed the sleeve of his coat. I didn't really know what I was doing but I knew I couldn't let him go. Extremely embarrassed, I didn't look up when he stopped mid-walk and looked back at me, I'm sure his mouth was agape; all I could do is angrily cry and shake my head 'no'. I was angry at myself for not being strong enough to let this man go home, I was angry at Bella leaving me and I was the most angry at myself for not being strong enough to tough it out on my own like Bella was apparently doing at the moment.
"Ok Alice. I won't leave ya hun." He whispered. "As long as ya want me I will always be here." He turned around and sat on the edge of my bed. I didn't let go of his jacket; holding it tightly with both hands. It wasn't that I didn't trust him to keep his word, oddly I trusted him immensely already; it was that I couldn't let him go, he was everything I had left, even though he didn't belong to me. Comforted by the thought that he wasn't going anywhere I feel quickly asleep.
When I woke up the next morning, I felt refreshed. I was confused about where I was again until I opened my eyes. Jasper was sitting in a chair with his upper body lying on the bed. I was clutching one of his hands in both of mine and had my body wrapped in a moon shape around his head as I lay on the bed. He had one arm draped around my torso while the other rested under his head as we faced inches apart; it was awkward but comfortable. I was terrified of being this close to men. I myself hadn't even touched one before, but here I was clutching to Jasper and I wasn't even remotely scared. He's so beautiful. I thought as I gazed at his face. I unwrapped one of my hands from his and moved a lock of curly blonde hair from his face so I could see it properly. He looked happy and peaceful. His face was erased of all of the worry lines. His lips were curved into a small smile while he slept.
I scooted silently closer, praying not to wake him. Being less than an inch from his face was breaking all of my boundaries but at this exact moment I didn't care one bit. I wanted to feel his face touch mine. Why am I acting this way? I automatically started to panic until I forced those feelings back. No Alice, quit being a chicken! I scolded myself. I gently pressed my cheek to his feeling his scuff against my tiny thin cheek. As I laid there I felt and heard him exhale a sigh, which made me smile. I slowly and softly traced his face with my finger; softly as a feather caresses the air. I've never ever traced someone's face and especially not a grown mans face. It was a strange sensation, being able to touch someone with them not knowing. Touching Jasper was like flying without anyone seeing you; it felt amazing yet you never get the satisfaction of praise from your great deed. And his praise is all that mattered from now on.
From then on I put every once of everything I had emotionally and physically into this man's hands; this man, who I trusted with everything in me; this man, who was a stranger to me. Though, this thought scared the living daylights out of me, it made me smile. I loved this man, I realized. I didn't even know who he was, but I loved him all the same. The feelings that that realization left me was unpredictable yet filled me with elated feelings. I felt giddy, as if I could tell the world, but I would not. I could not tell anyone, not even this beautiful man.
I ran my fingers over his lips. Oh how soft they were. I wanted so badly to kiss him. I have many times seen people kiss before but never experienced it for myself. I've never wanted to, until now. Well I know that if I didn't do it now without him knowing I'll probably never get to kiss a person for the rest of my life. Just do it Alice! I wasn't a bold person. But I wanted to be bold; I just didn't want people to know that I was trying to be bold. I smiled at my own stupidity. I put on my brave face as I leaned over and rested my lips softly upon his cheek near his lips to see if he would wake up. I looked down at him. Nope. Not waking up. Well it's either now or never. I leaned in again and rested my lips against his. They were so soft and warm. It was strange being upside down and kissing him for the first time but I only wished he wanted to kiss me back and felt the same for me that I felt for him this moment. I shivered as he sighed into my mouth. I slowly detached my lips from his and looked down at him.
I heard a loud clicking noise. I slowly I look up and there stood a two men. I screamed, shoving myself away from Jasper and onto the floor, landing on my lower back and slamming my head into the concrete. I laid there staring at the ceiling as I waited for my head to stop spinning.
"… don't touch her!" I heard Jasper hiss. He came and hovered over me. The two men stepped away.
"Jasper, I need to see if she has a concussion." The one in the baggy clothing said. Jasper looked down at me. My head throbbed but it was comforting that he was protecting me.
"Ok, but if she starts gettin' scared you have to go." Jasper whispered.
"I wont hurt her and you know that Jasper." The extremely large, very tall man with the baggy clothing on said. I looked up at him with horror as he sauntered towards me and Jasper started to get up.
"No!" I yelled out. I wrapped my arms around his neck and held him to me. "Don't leave me." I cried. "Please don't leave me too." I held on to him for dear life as he knelt back down and wrapped his arms around my body, holding me to him.
"I won't leave you Alice. I promised that and I intend to keep that promise." He whispered. My eyes saw double vision from hitting it on the hard floor but I closed them to keep from getting sick. Jasper, he was holding me. I talked to him, my Jasper and he promised to stay. I wept into his shoulder.
The only noise in the room was my quiet whimpers and Jasper's steady breathing. He didn't even move but held on to me for dear life. He was my safety netting; my invisible wall to the world; he protected me when no one else would. As my body started to settle down I became very sleepy; crying had always taken a lot out of me. I nuzzled my nose into his neck and let myself pass out.
I woke up with Jasper and another man talking silently beside me while Jasper held my hand. I laid there acting like I was still asleep so I wouldn't disturb them.
"… and how are you going to do this Jasper? She has no one. What we need to do is send her to a home. Call someone, anyone!" The stranger said.
"No! I won't do that to her Edward. Even the bottom of her letter told, no begged to anyone who found her with the letter, for them to not put her into a home."
"So what are you going to do with her then? You can't just put her out on the streets. Oh no, do not give me that look. She is not a dog or something Jasper! She is a human girl! We can't just take her in like a stray!"
"Edward, I'm going to take care of her no matter what you say. If that takes moving out, then I will."
"No I can't make you do that."
"Then help me Edward! I know you can!"
"I'll see what I can do. I'll talk to Emmett and a couple of my layers to see what they can come up with. I'm not going to promise you anything but I'll do my best."
"Thank you, man. This might be the best thing you have ever done for me. I owe you for eternity plus one."
"No, more like eternity plus two." He laughed. "Well I have to go. I have a meeting with my father at two. When she wakes up can you tell her hi for me? And that I'm sorry that I scared her so badly earlier. I still feel so bad for that."
"I will. And thank you again, for everything."
"No problem Jasper. Oh ya I forgot to tell you…"
"Ya?"
"Take a shower, you stink man."
"Oh just leave already." Jasper laughed.
As I heard the door click shut I let my eyes flutter open. As I looked over at Jasper he was simply glowing. Well it could have been the light filtering on him from the window, but that wasn't the point.
"You're awake." He sighed. I nodded. "I'm so happy." He immediately looked down, embarrassed at his confession. Slowly I moved my other hand and wrapped it around his thumb on his other hand and smiled up at him.
"I think we need to talk about why you're here." He whispered. I looked up at him curiously. We had already discussed this. Hadn't he found me in a box with... Bella's letter? My mind stuttered saying her name. Her absence still hurt me badly. I guess he saw the pain thinking about this inflicted on me.
"No I mean why you're in the hospital; why you were sick." He said quickly, tightening his grip on my hands. "You had TB or tuberculosis. That explains the blood and the coughing." I nodded my head in understanding. "I almost lost you." He said sadly looking down. I took my left hand out of his and placed it softly against his cheek and made him look at me. I shook my head no and smiled at him.
"Never." I whispered. He smiled beautifully.
"I was thinking that after this is over and you're able to go home that if you want to maybe… you could come home and live with Edward and I? That's only if you want to though because I was thinking its better than living out on the streets and stuff and you'd have a nice house to live in and nice clothes and stuff, plus you…" I put my hands over his mouth to stop his rambling.
"I would love to Jasper." I whispered. His eyes widened in surprise then crinkled in a heart stopping smile as I removed my hands from his mouth.
"Yes ma'm." he whispered.
There came a soft knock at the door and it opened just a crack as a man's head was stuck through. It was the extremely large man from before. I panicked and hid myself in Jasper's chest. My whole body started to tremble from fear.
"shh" Jaspers said as he patted and rubbed smooth circles into my back. "He won't hurt you at all, I promise. He's my friend." I peeked out at the large man from underneath Jaspers arm.
"I'm Emmett!" he laughed. "There is no reason to be afraid of me. I know I'm a large guy but I'm as gentle as a teddy bear. That's why they call me the bear!" he roared. I flinched and hid my face in Jaspers chest again.
"Emmett! Shut the hell up man! Can't you see she's afraid of you?" he growled.
"Oh," was all the Emmett could come up with. "Sorry little one." He whispered. Some of my fear vanished as Emmett tried to act small. But who were we kidding? Emmett was the largest man I have ever seen. I chuckled into Jaspers chest. Emmett was a show. He went from one extreme to another. Yes, I was terribly afraid of him but being with Jasper I knew I could relax some. I peeked out from Jasper and looked over at Emmett again. He had the goofiest face on. I think he was trying to read Jasper's lips and failing miserably.
"Dude, Jasper. You know I can't read that lip shit. Talk to me man, just talk to me." He said while shaking his head in a disappointment like matter. I laughed again.
"She said yeah stupid. Jeez, sometimes I think you're as dumb as ya look."
"Oh ya? Stupid huh? Well who's the one with the M.D. Jasper? Huh? Huh? Beat that!"
"I choose the life I have Emmett. If I wanted to I could be a 'doctor'," He air quoted doctor, "and I could still have time to paint!"
"Hey I could paint if I wanted to Mr. All High and Mighty! I just choose not to either!"
"Right! Ha! Don't make me laugh Emmett! Your best piece of art work is being used as my coaster in my room!"
"Why you son of a bitch! I aughta…" Emmett was cut off by my fit of very loud tinkling laughter. I was laughing so hard that I couldn't breathe; I was shaking Jasper. I saw Emmett wink at Jasper and Jasper wink back then they both joined me in my laughing fit. I have never laughed like that in my life. It was a strange sensation that I could easily get use to. As soon as we calmed down I nodded at Emmett and smiled and winked at him too.
I hated it, but I let Emmett take my temperature and blood pressure while sitting in Jasper's lap. I cried once, but that was only when he touched my arm. That one went down pretty badly but I forgave him quickly and tried to show him it wasn't his fault at all by smiling constantly.
I couldn't remember ever smiling so much in my life! Yes, I was content with Bella and I loved her with all of my heart, I still do, but nothing is like true love. The peace I feel with Jasper in my presence, it's like I can become a whole different person with him by my side. I vowed that very moment to become the person I knew that was always in me, the woman I know I am; the woman Bella saw in me.
Well? I hope I wrote this well. ^_^" I had some writers block. Tell me what ya'll think about this chapter! Plz review! (The more reviews i get the more excited I get about writing the next Ch.)
