a/n: chapter four wooo! thankyou to everyone again who has reviewed this y'all are awesome
it gets a little heated in this chapter
warning: cussing, almost sex and fighting
words: 3,210
no more disclaimer we all know I don't own this show.
enjoy.
The man you don't have to be
It's going to be different
"What's going on Kendall?" I looked from James to Logan and then to Camille. She looked unsure of what to say as did I.
"Well you see…"
"Guys why don't you give Kendall and I a moment"
"Ok." I smiled at them and grabbed Camille's hand and lead her back to my room. Once there I sit on my bed and pull her into my lap.
"What should we tell them?"
"What do you tell them Camille? I don't want you to feel uncomfortable with all of this."
"I don't know Kendall."
"Ok well we can tell them we're dating again and with everything that's going on with your apartment we just decided to have you move in with me. Permanently." She smiled at that. We haven't talked about how long she would be staying, but now that we're together I want her here.
"Ok but I do want to tell them about the baby but just not yet."
"That's fine we'll tell them when you're ready."
"Thankyou Kendall"
"You don't have to thank me Camille, you're happy right?" I ran my hand through her hair, something I used to do to comfort her.
"Of course Kendall, if I'm with you I'm the happiest person. You're happy right; I mean this is a lot to handle. Kendall this is a lot of responsibility. I don't want to be burden."
"You're anything but Camille. I want this ok so don't doubt that. If I didn't I wouldn't of kissed you. And as long as I'm with you I'm happy."
"Ok. We should probably go back down there."
"Yea come on."I laid back pulling her with me and kissing up her neck.
"Kendall." She warned but I just moved her so she was straddling me. She wrapped her arms around my neck, finding my lips with hers. I swiped her lips with my tongue trying to get her to open her mouth, she giggle, kissing me harder but keeping her mouth shut, I nipped at her lips causing her to gasp allowing me to slip in my tongue, I let my hands move to her hips, going underneath her tank-top rubbing circles on her hip bone, moving them up and under her bra, rubbing her nipples, causing her to buck her hips into mine. She moved away from my lips, her own kissing a path down my jaw while grinding her hip into mine. I don't really know where this is going, but I know that I don't want to stop. I rolled her over on her back, placing my lower half on top of hers reclaiming her lips with mine.
"Kendall." She gasped out when I bucked my hips. I moved my hands down to the waistband of her shorts going for the button…
BANG. BANG. BANG.
I lifted my head up as the pounding continued.
"What the fuck." I grumbled. I laid my head down on Camille's shoulder; she kissed the side of my head and pushed me off of her.
"Go see what they want."
"Fine" I got off the bed and stomped over to the door pulling it open.
"What the fuck do you want?" I exclaimed as Logan and James stood there looking pissed off.
"What the fuck is going on?" I looked at Logan who barely ever cusses but I can't help that I got distracted
"You can't just drop something on us like that and then just run off Kendall. We would like to know exactly what's going on."
"Sorry I had to talk to Camille about something's and then we got distracted. We'll be right there." I closed the ignoring their protest. I locked the door and walked back to Camille, pulling her up and crashing my lips into hers in what I like to think of as a mind blowing kiss. Before I knew it Camille is pulling away, with a huge smile on her face might I add? She reached up kissing my forehead and pulling me to the door.
When we got downstairs Logan and James were back at the same position they were before went upstairs. I pulled out a seat for Camille and took the one next to her. Honestly right now I'm scared shitless.
"So are y'all going to explain?"
"Ok well last night after I left you guys there was an accident in the parking lot. I got out and went to help whoever was in the car, which turned out to be Camille. I ended up waiting until I could see her and then once I could I stayed with her for the rest of the night. I realized I still have feeling for her so we got back together. My phone died and I just forgot to let you know I am so sorry."
"Well I guess that explains Camille's face and arm. Are you ok Camille?"
"Yea I'm fine Logan thank you."
"I thought you had a boyfriend. Jack McClanahan."
"It was just a publicity stunt, I was never with that guy, he's a total jackass."
"Ok but not that I don't want you here Cami, cause it's going to be awesome but why are you living here."
"Oh well, Camille…"
I have no clue what to say. I guess Camille knew that because she laughed and took over.
"I'll tell them. I guess a few weeks ago the original owners of the apartment building that I was living in sold it. Now the new owners want to remodel it. I've been so busy with my show and movie and my b—never mind that I forgot everything and today is the last day to move out so when I told Kendall he asked me to move in." I looked over to Camille who is biting her lip. I grab her hand and rub circles on it. I know she nervous about her almost slip up.
"Oh" Logan looked up and then down and then back to Camille. I hope he doesn't A) still have feelings for her or B) have a problem with her staying or us being together.
"If y'all have a problem I guess I could find somewhere else."
"No Camille" Logan stood up and walked over to her giving her a hug.
"It's not a problem. We want you here. It's just going to be different."
"Yea Camille but it's going to be so awesome." James joined the hug and all three pulled me in.
"Guys your suffocating my girlfriend"
"Sorry."
"It's good. Thanks guys."
"I was wondering if y'all could help get Camille's things from her apartment and move them here."
"Yea I'm free."
"Yay. Most of it is just clothes and important things; everything is already pretty much in storage."
"Logan are you ok."
"Yea I'm fine I'll be happy to help I just need to take a shower."
"Oh ok" With that he left the kitchen and made his way to his room. He didn't look to happy. I know they dated and they shared a lot of first's but he broke up with her and it was five years ago, so honestly in my opinion I don't think he has a right to be angry.
"Hey why don't you eat while I go to talk to him?" I grab the food and handed it to her, before kissing her temple and walking the same direction Logan did.
I walked in just as Logan walked out of the shower, already half dressed, we've been friends forever there really isn't a sense of privacy between us anymore. I sat on his bed as he rifled through his drawers.
"Hey man"
"Hey what's up?"
"Are you ok with this whole thing? With me and Camille?"
"Yea Kendall I am. Dude don't worry." His shoulders slumped a little and he took two deep breathes. It was something he did when he was lying or comfortable or pissed about something.
"Dude we've been friends for the last twenty three years I know when you're lying so don't."
"Fine it's not that I'm not ok with it because I am honestly."
"Then what Logan. Are you still in love with her?"
"No Kendall. It just I don't know ok. Maybe I am. She was my first relationship, my first everything pretty much and so it hurts a little when I see her with my best friend. And when I saw her maybe old feelings came back ok."
"No not ok. You've had five years."
"So did you."
"Yea but I still had feelings for her and you know it. It was a mistake breaking up with her, I know it and she knows it. You said you were over her, so why are you acting like this."
"I don't know, it's just your living your dream of being the hockey player you always wanted to be and now you have the girl of your dreams. I don't know, I'm happy for you guys and your right I had five years, I didn't do anything cause I'm not in love with her, it's just I'm twenty three years old, by now I thought I would be in med school, engaged to my high school sweet heart. You have what I wanted for myself and one day your gonna marry Camille and you two are gonna have a bunch of kids and move on and it will be all perfect and I have no clue what I'll be doing." I went next to where Logan was standing by his window and wrapped my arms around his shoulders.
"My life's not perfect and it never will be, and Logan you can still go to med school, we'll all support you and you'll find that girl and you'll marry her and you'll have your two kids and three dogs and you'll save the world, and at the end of the day you'll have your wife and your children and you'll also have us. Just because I starting my life and following my dream doesn't mean I'm leaving you guys behind. I'd die without three." He laughed, but I mean it there my brothers and I don't think I'd be where I'm at without them.
"I don't know Kendall being a doctor was always what I wanted to do, but I don't think it is anymore, my dreams changed and I don't think they include being a doctor anymore. I think that's why I'm upset, you have everything figured out and I don't."
"Trust me I barely have anything figured out right now. What I do have figured out is I'm with Camille, I'm playing hockey like I wanted to and I have you guys and my mom and Katie and right now for me that's all I need, Logan if you don't think being a doctor is what you want to do than don't, just do what you want. James, Carlos and I will be there to support you and now so will Camille. If you want to be president we'll be there on election day waiting to vote for you, hell Logan if you wanted to become a bank robber I'll be there to hide the evidence. Just do what you and don't sweat it, when you figure it out it with smack you in the face and make sure that you know, and you'll find the girl. And we'll all be right there."
"So if I became a serial killer…"
"I'll be right there with the shovel and lighter fluid." It's true I would do anything in the world for those guys.
"You're an idiot, but I love you. Thanks Kendall."
"Anytime man, love you too." I stood up and pulled him into a hug. We may be twenty three year old men but we still hug. And we don't give a shit what people think.
"Come on lets go get Camille's things."
Camille
By the time we got all of my things packed and put in the back of Kendall's truck it was almost ten, I was hungry and so exhausted which is weird because Kendall didn't really want me to do anything to upset my injuries or harm the baby. All I really did was pack and watch and laugh as the boys bickered and complained about my stuff. I looked around my now empty apartment, realizing how large it was. I picked up one of the last boxes with my right arm, successfully balancing the box on my hip. I began walking down the stairs when someone slammed into me causing the box and my right side to be slammed into the wall.
I gasped and dropped the box, sliding down the wall, breathing deep, trying not to cry, I straightened myself out as tears fell down my cheeks, I lift up my shirt only to find the swelling that had gone down to rise again. I ran my fingers over the large bruise that Jack caused when he slammed me against a wall and then pushed me to the floor and kicked me. Thank god the only damage he caused was a few broken ribs and some bruises but no harm to the baby.
I tried to stand up but pain in my ribs was just too much, I fell back onto the floor letting my tears flow at full force. My whole body started shaking with tears when I noticed someone wrapping their arms around.
"Cami what happened?" I looked up at Kendall who looked like he could kill someone.
"Nothing someone just ran into me. I'm still a little sore from the accident, I'll be fine." He picked me up and carried me back to my apartment, setting me up on the counter and lifting my top over my head and setting it down next to me. He ran his fingers down my side causing me to shiver.
"Those aren't from the accident Camille. When did he do this?" I started to sob; I was so scared all I could do was cling to him. I know as soon as I tell him he's just going to go find Jack.
"Yesterday before my appointment. I told him that I was going to keep the baby and I didn't want him in our lives. He got so angry and just pushed me against the wall and he just…" I couldn't continue and Kendall didn't push, he slipped my top back on and lifted me off the counter.
"You're ok Camille. I won't let him hurt you ok?" I shook my head and let him hold me. He didn't have to say anything for me to know that it was the truth. I'm pretty sure he would die before he let anything happen to me. I nestled my head further into his chest when I felt a teardrop hit my cheek. When I looked up and saw Kendall crying it nearly broke my heart. I wiped his tears and kissed his cheek.
"Do you need to go to the hospital?"
"No I'll be fine." He looked me up and down and wrapped his arm around my waist before leading me towards the door.
"Let's go home Camille." Even though I was still crying those words made my heart skip a beat and my stomach jump. I followed Kendall down the stairs and to the truck where the rest of the guys were waiting.
When we got there James was flirting with the owner's daughter and Logan was waiting by his car. Logan looked up and made his way over to us.
"Do you mind if I borrow your girlfriend for a second Kendall?"
"Uh yea. I'll go try to pry James away from that poor girl." The three of us laughed, it was still true James Diamond is still a man whore.
"So what's up?"
"I just wanted you know that I am ok with you and Kendall. I guess I was just a bit jealous, my dreams changed over the last few years and I just felt like you two had everything figured out and I don't."
"We don't, trust me"
"Kendall said the same thing. I guess life's changing and so is everyone else. And I don't know what to do anymore."
"What about med school?"
"I don't know anymore. I still want to help people but I don't think being a doctor is the road I want to take."
"Logan, when you figure it out we'll all be right next to you supporting you with whatever you want to do. Even if it's illegal. "Logan looked at me, laughing and then pulled me into a hug.
"What?"
"You and Kendall pretty much said the same things. What is with you two thinking that I would be the one to do that."
"Because Logan it's always the quiet ones."
"Shut up Camille. You're made for him you know." I pulled Logan into a bone crushing hug when I heard loud shouting.
"You mother fucking bastard."
My eyes got wide as I saw Kendall punch Jack.
"What the hell is he doing?" I grabbed Logan's hand and dragged him to where James was trying to pull Kendall off of Jack.
"Kendall. Stop." As soon as James got Kendall to pull away I reached out for him and James grabbed Jack.
"What are you doing here Jack?" I knew this would happen if he came around.
"I wanted to apologize. But this jackass started hitting me for no reason"
"I'm her boyfriend asshole. And you know damn well the reason Jack."
"He's your boyfriend. Camille don't do this. I didn't mean to." Jack looked at Kendall and then at me and just laughed.
"Really? So you didn't mean to tell her to get an abortion and when she didn't you slammed her against the wall?"
"I wasn't thinking clearly… Baby I'm sorry. We can start over and get back together."
"I am not your baby. I never have been and I never will be. We were never together Jack."
Kendall let go of my hand and reached out for Jack grabbing him by his collar, the look on his face is probably the scariest look I've ever seen. His face is flushed and his eyes are dark.
"Stay away from my family. Stay away from Camille. Stay away from our child. If you ever touch Camille again I swear to god Jack I'll make sure James isn't there."
"Whatever Knight. Remember this I don't back down. Enjoy your whore." I'm pretty sure the whole entire town of L.A. could hear the noise of Kendall's knuckles meeting Jack's face.
Kendall walked away from Jack without a second glance and in an instant his arms were around me and his chin was resting on my head.
"Don't listen to him Camille. He's an ass. You're not a whore ok. Don't listen to him. Ok?"
"Ok." I couldn't really say anything else, nobody else has ever called me that, I know I'm not whore I've only been with three people my entire life, I know it was just said out of anger, I hope, but it still hurts.
"You're pregnant?" I lift my head off of Kendall's chest only to find a shocked Logan and a pissed off James staring at us.
Oh Shit.
a/n: so what did you think be honest and let me know in a review and tell me what your favorite part was.
chapter 3: my favorite was defiantly when he welcomes her home it was sweet.
until monday
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