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Chapter 4

I Wanna Go To A Place

Flay walking through the sand of the sea at orb mansion. She carier half dozen of children, Malchio foster children. Along with Lacus Clyne she accompany children to play. ''So.. He always do that? Daydreaming all day?''said Flay to Lacus. Lacus just nodded.

''He still feel sorry for people he taking away their life at war. I dont have anyword to comfort him''say Lacus.

Flay taking away her breath. It was her responsibility too that Kira feel so depressed after the war. She forced him to kill all their enemy. ''Do you mind if i greet him?''ask Flay. Lacus smiling. ''Of course yes.''

Flay now watching Kira who watching the sea. Alone, sitting in his seat at balcony. Wind blows his brunnette hair. And his amethys eyes.. Looks so damn sad.

''Kira?''call Flay. Kira see her. ''um.. Flay,''said him calmly. ''What are you doing? I mean i know you are watching the sea from morning till afternoon but what are you exactly doing,''said Flay. Sitting next to him.

Kira smile at her. ''i have so many things to think,''said Kira. ''Sometimes i think i deserve to die, you know.. I have seen another people die. They feel so much pain when dying, sometimes with shrieking, their eyes looked at me. It feel so much pain. but then i was curious, what about cagalli and athrun and Lacus if i was die. What about my redemption? I have one year to have mistake and i just need few years later to fix what i have done.'' He is not calling my name. Obviously their relationship is a past behind.

''I know i must do something but their shadow.. The people spirit i have taken away their lifes still look at me. Haunted me. Consume me. And i feel sorry for them. i hate my life.. But i can't take it away. I dont know what to do. its just hurt.''

Flay nodded. She know what he feel. She have it too when she kidnapped in Vesalius. The feel of guilty. but shall she say, 'i know what you feel.' Because actually she dont know sure what he feel. she never kill somebody. Kira does. She dont know what he really feel.

The two became silent.. ''I feel sorry about you too,''said Kira suddenly. Flay eyes widening. ''Even in the end.. I almost failed to save you. I am sorry..''said him.

He think about her? ''Its alright Kira.. I am fine.. Look i am fine!''said Flay laughing. She wants to cheer him. ''But if.. '' ''Its just worriness,''add Flay again. Kira look at her. Silent again. ''What about Yzak?''ask Kira. A little smile come to Flay. ''He is fine,''say Flay. ''We are best friends now,''add her again.

''Did he treat you well?''ask Kira. Flay just nodded. ''I was worried.. Because before you are kidnapped to Vesalius, you really hate coordinator. On the other hands.. Yzak really hates natural. But it is glad to know that both of you can build a good relationship,''Kira smiles.

''I am not really hates coordinator. I hate them because they kill my father, i hate you before because you said you can save my father but you can't. I refuse to befriend with Lacus because i am sick of her careless being wrong ship at the wrong time. And i treat Lacus just because i want my father save badly. I know i do the wrong things.. But i must say that i don't hate you just because you are coordinator. I have my own reason.''

Kira smile at her. ''Yzak and i is a long lost friend. Before the war, we met when i am still 5. So he treat me well. And i treat him well too.''

Kira smiles at her. ''Milly told me sometimes you visit PLANTS for a week. Dearka told me he saw you visiting Yzak at ZAFT military base every day a week you are on PLANTS. Certainly, you and Yzak not just a friends only.''

Flay blushes, find out her best friend turn to be a nosy girl. Will kill Milly someday! ''We are hanging out together. He is stubborn but nice. He always know what to do, there is no doubt in his vocabulary. Thats why i feel save rely on him.'' There is no jealousy come in Kira eyes. ''How about you and Lacus?''

Blushes turn to Kira. Revenge eh..? ''She comfort me,''say Kira. Flay giggling. She is very beautiful when giggle. Kira remember her last giggle when she talk with Jesica, her friends one years ago. She turn back to Flay who is wise and nice just like before the war.

''Kira, Flay.. Yzak is here..!''call Lacus. Flay and Kira looking at Lacus. In Lacus left, there is someone who have bright white hair wearing red polo shirt and long legged jeans. The children look at him. Curious about his hair colour.

''You tell me he is on the PLANT?''ask Kira. Flay look back at him. ''Was i?'' Silent. Kira looks at Flay who obviously looking at Yzak with Lacus. Athrun once talk about his ex ZAFT comrades. Nicol, the sweet pianist, the one Kira kill. Dearka, the hottie blondie, Miriallia new boyfriend who love to tease other people. And Yzak, the stubborn barker, who always looks irritating all the time. Strangely, he is the most loyal and fair comrades.

Kira looking at yzak, he looks irritating with children but carry one of them in his shoulder. ''Kira.. Thanks for apology me.. i feel so relief now. Thank you..''say Flay again. Kira eyes widening. ''No.. It was me who should ask for forgiveness!'' Flay smile.

''Its alright Kira.. i supposed i should go now.. Yzak call me anyway, our shuttle launch four hours ago. We should prepare.''

''Oh really? Where are you heading on?''say Kira. Flay gigling again. Her Heliopolis is shoot down. She doesn't have anything in space. ''You dont wanna know!''

Flay touch his hands.. At his back hand. ''Thank you..'' she smile beautifuly and just go away. To Yzak sides. Lacus talk to Yzak about their new chairman, Durandall.

''He wants to find you..''said Yzak when Flay join with him. ''I feel fine in here. There is no one reason i should back to PLANTS. Please dont tell him i am here,''beg Lacus holding two hands. She looks cute in this pose.

''If you said so.. ''yzak smiling at her. ''Then we should go,''Yzak holding Flay hands. ''So soon you two can have a dinner with us?''said Lacus. ''I am afraid we can't. Our shuttle fly 4 hours ago,''smile Flay.

''Hara hara.. Sadly you can't dinner with us. if you said soo then take care,''smile Lacus back. She walk with them until Flay and yzak sitting in their cars. ''Bye bye..''smile Lacus swinging her hand. Flay swing her hands too.

''What are you talking with Kira?''ask yzak. Flay smile at him. ''You dont want to know,''answer her. Yzak just tsck! ''Then you dont need dinner when we arrived at my house!''

''Geeez... That stingy!'' Yzak smile at her. The afternoon sunset makes his shy and lame smile looks shiny. Flay love his smile as she love to be with him. Hope this will forever.

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