Challenge #4, The Forum-wide competition

My house : Ravenclaw

My given character : Hannah Abbott

My chosen character for this romantic pairing : Cedric Diggory

This story features a love triangle between Hannah Abbott, Cedric Diggory and Cho Chang, but the main pairing is Hannah/Cedric with Hannah's POV on his new relationship with Miss Chang.

Disclaimer : I own nothing recognizable, J.K. does.

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I am still young; some would say my life has barely even started. But there are memories I can say I cherish above everything else, and that I know will stay with me forever. It is astonishing, when you think about it, how a few whispered words can affect a human being. The promises that your eyes once held for me, that your tender touches and loving expressions made me believe; they are what I hold most dear.

It is of popular belief within our circle of friends and in our House: Hannah Abbott is a naïve girl. Some would even say that I am a little dumb. Sometimes I accept their insults as true, because I don't know why I would hang on to you like this knowing that you don't love me anymore, that maybe you've never truly did, if I was bright enough to save myself. Somehow though, I can't seem to accept the idea that I could just have been a pastime. Our love had been a secret, but at times I wished you would not have insisted on hiding it. Now the only explanation I can find is that you'd been ashamed of me, and my wounded heart can't rest with this thought.

I know you like the fact I still think about you day and night, that my heart beats whenever you come into my sight. It flatters you to know I feel that way and I can't resent you for it. I know you don't want to hurt my feelings; it's just normal for a human being to want to be appreciated. I wish you were more aware it pains me, though, that you have turned the page on us. I hurt everytime I see you look at her, embrace her. I hurt whenever you look at me too, with this ravishing smile you only hold the secret of, because it makes me remember what we had. I know deep inside that staying 'just your friend' is slowly poisoning me. You think everything is 'okay', but it's not: I'm not okay.

When we are alone together, every moment is pure bliss for me, until you leave to join her. Then I remember I'm just the other girl, not the one you dream on. At once I fall into a well of despair and I have no one to turn to. Who can I run to? You are my best friend and you are also the cause of my misery… That Ravenclaw girl. So pretty, so much more clever than me; a perfect body with brains to match. She is like you; flawless. Whereas, next to you, I look imperfect just like any other person. I think every single student in the school envies your love, and if it's not already the case, they should. It is magic in itself to see how you two fit with each other in every respect. But still I wish it was me, once again, holding your hand instead of Cho; my worst rival, the one I can do nothing to compete against.

She has always this glint in her eyes when I see her, sometimes I feel like she's mocking my pain. She's sure proud that you are hers, it's flagrant though she never says it out loud. And you always say how much you care about her; you don't even seem to notice what it inflicts on me when you do, the power your words have on my well-being. But no matter what my reason and my eyes tell me, there is no way out of this for me. I can't stop myself from always coming back for more, anything you can give me; just one more smile, just one more good time shared. And as long as you'll be around, I'll be ruined for anybody else; I know I won't lay eyes on any other man but you, Cedric.