I finally found the nerve to get out of my small compartment, and apologize to Katniss and Peeta. After sitting up on the bed, I slipped on the grey boots that were just barely in my reach. I took a deep breath. I looked in the mirror and determined that my hair needed some fixing.

"I'm sorry for the trouble I caused earlier. I will try to be- No," I began rehearsing in the mirror as I combed my hair. I had to make sure my apology was perfect, since I was sure Katniss that would stiffen at the sight and sound of me. I sighed. Peeta would think worse of me. I didn't care as much about him, though. He wasn't my best friend, but I knew that if I didn't apologize to him too and settle him down a bit, these kind of problems would come about a lot, and if that happened, Katniss may turn her back more and more to me. Loosing my best friend wasn't something I could handle.

Maybe I should wait until tomorrow, I thought to myself. She may need to cool down. But then again, if I were to let her sleep on it, her anger could get worse. I let out a large puff of air. Women were complicated like that. But she wasn't just any woman, she was much closer to me than just some woman, she was my best friend. I took another deep breath and braced myself on the counter, knuckles threatening to turn white.

"Katniss, Peeta, I apologize for my aggressiveness earlier, and I'm sorry for almost getting in a fist fight. I really do want to be friends," I rehearsed several more of these lame apologies. I knew that they would never be good enough for Katniss to forgive me first, Peeta's opinion on me after this would decide whether Katniss would give mercy. I may have been creative with traps and snares, but in no way was I that creative with words.

Katniss was still my best friend, Peeta could never take that from me, even if he didn't respond well to my apology. She would still forget eventually, but if I had just one more opportunity to sweep her off her feet, to take her breath away, I knew for sure I would. It would be my only chance. I may not have had the best woman skills in the world, but I knew Katniss. I knew every thing about her. I could have done it a long time ago, and I wished I would have. I may not have had the best woman skills in the world, but I knew Katniss. I used to run my mouth at the hob, like she was already mine, and everyone believed me. They all assumed we were going to be together someday. She probably knew it all too. I gripped the counter, hard, and stared at my now white knuckles. Anger threatening to distort my lips in ways that resembled a wolf's snarl.

It was the god damned Hunger Games that ruined everything. Took my Catnip away, and scarred her for life. The cursed death match of the over powerful Capitol took my every chance of being with her away. The Capitol and Peeta took my dreams of convincing her to marry me and cooking for her in the mornings, seeing her everyday in the morning with messy hair and a messy nightgown and not think anything different of her. It may not have been the same as a normal newly wedded couple, still fresh in love and still exploring each other,but it would have been so much better. I could have woken up to my best friend and wife that I already knew everything about.I very well recognized the extatic tone in her voice, the look on her face when I brought her baked foods,and the sharp, concentrated look on her face as she launched an arrow. I grew to love the smell of the woods that lingered for eternity on her clothes and in her coal black, braided hair. Damn, I couldn't believe I let her slip out of my hands. I couldn't believe I never mussled the courage to ask her to be mine. She was perfect. She wasn't emotional most of the time, but when her soft side slipped my heart always melted more for her. The way she looked at me when I spoke to her alone in a clearing, the way she looked after Prim as if she was her own daughter, the way she sympathized for the people in the hob, thin, trying to make a living off of the small things they sold. She was everything I needed.

My anger worsened, and tears began to arise from the back of my eyes, I gripped the counter. My knuckles had lost all color at this point. I heard a low growl coming from my chest. Gripping the counter did not control me. I leaned over the counter more and more, the middle of my forehead nearly touched the mirror, my face turned red, and the water level in my eyes had risen.

I straightened my back, released my grip, and began marching around the tight living space, infuriated. I stomped heavily to the wall, pulling air into my lungs and letting it out quickly as my fist went through the wall.I had needed something to punch. The dent looked amazing in the strong wood that held up the ground. I punched the wall several times, the feeling of my fists hitting the wall, the pain and blood growing on my knuckles. I ripped the blankets off my bed and layed down. I had to calm down before I apologized to Katniss and Peeta, but before I could have wiped the blood off, now running down my fist, or reduced the screaming bloodshot eyes, there was a tapping at my door. I cleared my voice.

"Who is it?" I yelled just loud enough for the person at the door to hear, while I slowly trudged to the sink to wash my hands and face.

"Peeta," he shouted back in a soft tone of voice. "I just want to talk," he added as I finished cleaning my face and hands. I knew I had to try my best to be civil, but I didn't know that I would succeed. Damnit.


I'm super sorry guys. I didn't update because the characters all seemed so out of themselves and the writing wasn't descriptive enough to me. I couldn't fix it because they don't let you after a certain time, so I was thinking about just pressing the 'Complete' button and leaving it there. But then I read your guys' reviews and decided to make more.

Anyway, I hope you like this chapter! I have gotten a bit better at writing and I hope that the rest of the chapters are descriptive!

Also, I will probably be writing a fanfic for Shiver by Maggie Stiefvater, if you're into that book, check it out, if you're not, you should check it out anyway! I don't think it will have many spoilers. Thank you!