Hey everyone a new chapter is up :D
I want to send a special thanks to OhMyFudgeCookies who have really made me want to continue posting this story. Thanks!
In this chapter there is going to be crying, drama and a new paring is revealed! Hope you enjoy!
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D pov
Blaise looked so sad sitting there with Draco. He didn't know what to say. Draco had his own problems already but Blaise was his best friend so he had to do something. He would think about it but for now he just had to be there for Blaise. He put his arm around him and Blaise placed his head upon his shoulder. They sat there for a long time. In fact so long that they completely missed the first DADA class.
They both ran down to the dungeon and got their things. Books, ink and feathers and hurried up to the third floor. Charms with the Ravenclaws began in 2 minutes. The came through the door in the last moment and sat down in the back. Professor McGonagall gave them a disapproving look but her lips tight before beginning the lector.
Draco couldn't get himself to take notes. He would have to make a plane on how to approach Harry.
Draco used the entire class and when the five Slytherins left class, Draco had an evil smile on his face.
H pov
It had been a horrible time for Harry. Normally he loved being at Hogwarts. But right now, he wished he could go to sleep and never wake up. The last few weeks had been though. Hermione and Ron had tried to talk to him but he was too depressed to talk. He couldn't wait until Christmas. He would be staying at Hogwarts but at least he would be alone. Ron and Hermione were worried about him and he knew he had to talk to them sooner or later. Right now he preferred later…
Harry was walking alone to the second class. It was with the Slytherins. It was potion and Harry´s stomach dropped when he thought about it. He and Snape had talked for a long time that evening but they hadn´t said a word afterwards. Right away the next morning he had woken up around 6 am. Snape had been sleeping in a chair next to him. Harry had been laid on a couch. They have just eating breakfast before Snape had sent on his way.
Harry knew he had to say something… or did Snape want to ignore the day all entirely?
Finally he reached the cold dungeon and he was the first to show up. He sat down next to the door, when he heard a par of feet coming towards him. Harry didn't look up until a voice reached his ears.
"Harry?" Harry recognized the voice without looking up.
"What do you Malfoy?"
But Harry was surprised when he felt a body almost touching his own, sitting down beside him on the floor. He looked up. his eyes meeting silver only few inches away from him.
"well I was wondering if you were okay." He sounded genially worried.
Harry found himself being lost in the silver pools of grey. He snapped out when he heard his name being called.
"Harry?" Malfoy said.
"ehm.. yes I… just- I´m fine. Why do you care?" Malfoy just sighed and leaned back against the back wall.
"listen Harry-" Since when had he become Harry?
"i´m just going to say something and then, if you want, I will leave you alone okay?"
Harry just nodded. If Malfoy would leave him alone he could endure listing to him a minute.
"okay here it goes… this summer I realized that I was not who I wanted to be. I wanted to be a person who people could care for and not this façade that someone thought they knew. I didn't know why, but this summer something changed me. I wanted to care for a person. Someone I finally saw in a whole new light. I didn't want to be a deatheater like my father. He is cruel and I can´t follow him and Voldemort anymore. I was so confused at first but now I found out what I really want."
Malfoys face was now so close to Harrys that he felt the heat radiating from his face. Malfoy´s breath reached his lips and he felt the need to lick his own dry lips. He couldn't breathe right, but he still found himself saying.
"what?"
Malfoy smiled so his fully pink lips stretched. Their eyes were looked and neither of them blinked.
"you"
and then Malfoy leaned in and Harry closed his eyes. He had to feel those lips. Just once. They looked so soft and warm. But to all their luck a voice sounded from behind Malfoy.
"Harry!?"
The voice belonged to Hermione. The boys jumped away from each other and Harry suddenly realized that he was sitting there. Almost kissing Malfoy!
Harry jumped up and walked away quickly without looking back. Hermione looked worried and surprised at the same time. When he was close enough she grabbed his arm and pulled him over to the other Gryffindors, who was on their way down the stairs.
"what in the world happened to you? Why did you sit there with Malfoy and was so close!"
Harry just looked down at his shoes. He couldn't meet her disapproving eyes boring into his.
"sorry…" he said.
"oh Harry… you don't have to apologize. I´m just so worried about you. You haven't said a thing almost all morning, you disappear after first class and I find you with Malfoy all alone… whats going on?"
Harry still looked down. He didn't know what to say. Why did he sit so close to Malfoy? If Hermione hadnt showed up, would he and Malfoy have kissed? Har never had time to think about girls and never boys. but he did want to kiss Malfoy. Not now but back there. What should he say to Hermione? She was muggle raised like him and he knew the prejudice some muggles had. How did the wizard world look upon gay people?
"I don't know. I- I think I wanted to kiss him…" Harry couldn't believe he had just said that.
Hermione looked at him with big eyes and her mouth open. She blinked a few times before she sighed.
"so that's why you´ve been acting so weird? I thought it was about Sirius-"
"it is! Or it was- I- Hermione i´m so confused!" harry felt tears leaving his eyes and Hermione embraced him. She shushed him so the other wouldn't hear, but Ron, dean and seamus heard him. They came over and looked as worried as Hermione had.
"Harry whats wrong?" dean asked.
Harry just buried his head into hermiones hair. Hermione gently pushed him off but kept an arm around his shoulder. The boys gasped when the saw Harry was crying. Dean hugged him close and Harry breathed in the comfy sent of his friend. He had never said it but Dean and Seamus had always been like older brothers to him. They had the same comfy aura like Fred and George.
Dean let him go completely when it became a bit awkward with Hermione's arm around his shoulders. Dean and Seamus took his hand, while Ron asked Hermione what happened.
Hermione looked at Harry and he just nodded. if they were going to hate him, his heart would break but he couldn't go around not knowing what they would think of him the rest of the year.
Hermione explained;
"well I found Harry and Malfoy-"
"Malfoy?!"
"did he hurt you? If he did I will kill him!" Ron shouted.
Hermione just kissed her boyfriend and asked him to come down before Snape heard him.
"no but Harry had something he wants to say. Harry?" they three boys turned to look at him instead of Hermione.
Harry exhaled slowly.
"I- I think that I- I have been having some thoughts and I think I might, just maybe… be gay." Harry whispered the last part and he couldn't look up knowing his friends disapproving and disgusted looks.
Suddenly he heard his friends laugh and he looked up surprised.
Seamus and Dean were laughing and Ron just exhaled deeply.
"god Harry! You really gave us a shock! We thought you might be sik or something!" Ron said.
What?
"Harry" Seamus said. "Did you really think we would hate you because you´re gay? That would be a hypocritical don't you think?" hypocritical? What were they talking about?
"Harry you are my best mate. I would never hate you. Just try not to fall in love with me okay?" Ron said with a goofy smile.
This made Harry smile and the others laugh. They all hugged Harry close before Snape opened the door to potions classroom.
"get in" Snape turned around with the aura off darkness and respect hanging behind with the students. All the Gryffindors and Slytherins got in and sat on either side of the room.
"today we are going to look at the potions used for healing and how they can be misused to dark causes. Turn to page 165-"
Harry started taking notes not noticing the white paper bird lading on his table. Ron pocked him and gave him a nod towards his right. Harry looked and saw the small origami bird sitting there by his hand. He looked around and he caught Malfoy looking straight at him giving him a wink. Harry felt himself blush and quickly looked away. On the bird there was a small note "inside" so Harry opened it.
If it was possible he felt himself blush even more. Inside the small bird a short not ewas written. And Harry had no doubt who had written it.
Meet me tonight at 11 by the lake. Can´t wait to feel your lips on mine xxx
Harry bit his lip. Should he go? The problem wasn´t that Harry was gay, but rather that Ron defiantly wouldn't like it if he found out about Malfoy. He felt the need to see him but why? He didn't like Malfoy did he? No it wouldn't happen… he was rather handsome but it was Malfoy! His enemy, right? Right!
Still he found a small voice in his head, saying;
He did say who didn't want to be evil, he really sounded nice to Harry. Maybe he should go… just to see what he wanted…
"he want you" Rons voice whispered.
"what?!" Harry didn't realize he had yelled before the class started laughing.
"yes mr. Potter as your friend mr. Weasley said, I wanted you to answer. Is that somehow a problem?"
"no sir…"
"Then, what do you answer."
"I wasn't listening sir. Sorry."
Snape just shook his head at him and asked another, Slytherin. Harry looked over at Malfoy but found him not laughing but smiling to him. God! Harry whished he would stop blushing!
Another look at the smile and those silver eyes he made up his mind. He would leave tonight, meeting Malfoy.
so thats it for today :D longest chapter yet ;) again thank you for reading and pleaaassseeee leave me a review it means so much to me :D just a single word just a little "nice" would mean the world.
