The weekend was nothing but a big blur for me. I seriously can't remember what I was doing on Saturday. All I could think of was that wonderful Sunday morning in the bookstore.
Where I saw her. Where I got to talk to her. Where I grew more and more in love with her.
I don't know what this hold she has on me but it is definitely something that I did not want to go away. She makes my heart do jumps when I see her.
Could it be love?
It's to soon, right? How can you love someone if you know nothing about them?
Easy, you just do. You can't explain it. It just happens and when it does you better hang on because it is going to be the ride of a lifetime.
Sunday morning
I sat in the bookstore on one of the chairs reading my latest book and drinking my coffee like I do every Sunday morning now that I knew that Spencer could show up at anytime.
I was finally out of the house because I had desided to stay home yesterday and that was big mistake. All I did was sit around the house wishing that I had something to do or someone to talk to. Usually I would be over Madisons house on a Saturday but we all know that's not going to happen anytime soon.
So as I was saying...I was sitting in the bookshop loving my book and really getting into it too when someone sits across from me. At first I just didn't think one thing about it until I glanced up to grab my coffee I saw her there. Spencer was sitting in the chair right across from me and I didn't know it until now. I swear I think I stopped breathing.
Before I knew it she was looking up right at me.
Ok you're good Ashley. Just breathe and say hi to her. Start up a conversation and everything will be good.
"You work at Coffee Haven right?" Damn she started it first.
"Uhh...Umm...Ya. You remember?" I was kind of shocked that she had remembered anything about me. She smiled big at me when I asked her that and I thought her smile was the best thing that I have ever seen. I swear I didn't know how she did it but she sure made me feel so good inside.
"Yeah I remember how you looked when I was asking you a question. Like you were a deer caught in headlights. It was kind of cute."
She's flirting! That's flirting, right?I smiled huge when she called me cute and for the rest of the time that we were having our small conversation it never left my lips.
Spencer and I talked about our day and everything that you would think that someone can talk about for the first time getting to know you. We didn't go into personal stuff but we did talk about life in general. I loved everything that came pouring out of mouth.
Mmm I wanted to kiss those lips.
Hold her hand.
Feel her body-
"Ashley!" Oh shit I got lost for a second there. Oops.
"Oh sorry. What did you say?" I tried to get my brain off of all that other stuff and back to real life.
"Do you work today?"
"No I don't. I work the weekend and than on the weekends I have them off."
"That works out good."
"Yeah it does. Especially with school. I need time to do my homework and study."
"So you go to the college?"
I really wish that I did so I could be there with you and always get to have these conversations with you.
"No. I'm actually a senior at Franklin High." Spencer looked down at her book for a second and than back up at me. Did I see a frown on her face or something? I know I can't be that younger than her and besides what's age got to do with it.
"Do you go to the College?" I desided to ask her more questions. Instead of going into my life for right now.
"Yeah this is my second year there."
Wow maybe she was a little more older than me. But not by that much. Well that's what I'm hoping for.
"That's cool."
Right when I was about to go into ask her about her classes my mom walks through the front door of the bookstore. Of all the bookstores in Seattle she had to come walking through the doors of this one.
Our eyes caught eachother and for the brief second I felt like exactly like I did when she kicked me out of the house. She looked at me with such discust and it killed me inside. How could you not want to love your child? How could you let something as little as who I love change how you feel about your child?
You're suppose to love them unconditionally. You're suppose to be there for them through everything that they go through and try to help them out. No matter what.
Instead I get the parent's who hate me for it and make me feel like I was never borned.
I hate this so much.
"Are you ok Ashley?"
I wish I could tell her yes and be ok but I'm not.
"Not really Spencer. I'm going to get going."
"Did I say something?"
"No, it's not you Spencer. I just have alot of things going on right now that I wish would just go away and be ok but they aren't."
"Would you like to talk about them?" I looked up at her and with the look in her eyes I felt like I could open up about everything but I didn't want to go into it right now. Especaially since we barely started talking with eachother today. She didn't need to get mixed up in my drama.
"Thanks but I kind of have to deal with this on my own." I grabbed my jacket and my coffee with my book in my other arm and looked at her as she stands up with me.
"Well here's my number. If you ever need to talk or anything you want to get off your chest you can talk to me. If you want that is." Spencer pulled out a piece of paper and than quickly wrote down her number on it. I couldn't believe that she was actually writing down her number and giving it to me. She hardly knew me but here she was giving it to me as if she had known me for awhile now.
"Thanks."
"I'll be at the bookstore Wednesday night. Just in case you might want to do this again."
Do what again? Hangout and talk like we were doing? I would like that ver much.
"That sounds really good." She smiled at me and she made me melt again.
"Well I have fun Ashley."
"Me too. So I guess I will see you later than." I told her as I was walkng away.
"Ya. See you later." Spencer said as I was walking towards the front door.
I was literally on cloud nine that whole day. Nothing and no one could take that moment away from me.
It was Monday afternoon and I was already at the coffee shop waiting for Aiden to walk through the door so I could tell him everything that happened yesterday at the bookstore. I didn't have a chance to see him at all until today, so now I was just jumping out of my skin to tell him the great news.
Of course when he walks in all he does is squash on my parade.
"I have such great news!" I yelled at him as he came in the back to put his stuff away. Aiden looked at me and than continued to put his stuff away.
"Will you please pay attention to me because I have some news that will shock the hell out of you."
Right as I was about to spill my guts he comes at me with something that destroyed me.
"She has a fiance." My smile faded and my heart broke.
Spencer was getting married and she didn't even mention it one time that we were talking.
I felt so dumb. I felt like a fool and knew that this was over with and it never even got to start.
(A/N: Thanks so much for the reviews...it was good to hear from everyone who read and for the ones who didn't review thanks for reading as well. I'll try to have one up for the weekend...stay tune. Well leave the love and tell me what you thought. Thanks again)
