Authors Note : thank you Spirit Morale I'll keep that in mind, and this is a Kaze story.


I've been living a lie

There's nothing inside

Bring me to life


Zero put his hand on his throat, it was burning.. the thirst has returned violently, it has been a while since he took kaname's blood, two months maybe? If he had drank it when Kaname offered him last week he won't be in this state right now. Obviously Kaname's blood won't subside his thirst forever but it will prevent him from falling to level E, if he took it regularly of course .. But he doesn't want to depend on Kaname for god knows how long. He punched the wall beside him angrily 'Shit ! Life won't be easy on me even if Kaname wasn't my enemy anymore ..?!'

Yuki came running towards him "Zero ?! What's wrong?"

Zero snorted secretly 'Of course it won't, and here comes the other problem'

He sighed and turned to Yuki forcing a smile "Nothing wrong Yuki"

Yuki frowned "Are you sure Zero? Are you thirsty ? Do you need my blood?"

Zero stared at Yuki's neck briefly before he shook his head "No Yuki I'm fine, Thank you" Strangely, this isn't the blood he needs right now.

He said good night to Yuki and went to his room, two days ago Kaname told him he would go a few days for an important meetings, it was boring without him here.


Kaname loosened his nicktie and took it off with his blazer, damn those elders they wanted to do what they pleased but he won't let them do whatever they want, he will stuck in their throats, and if they dear to oppose him he will simply get rid of them.

He chuckled devilishly and throw the blazer on the couch. Suddenly he felt a sting in his nick, he put his hand on the place and winced when he touched it, there where Zero had bitten him 'Twice'.

He frowned, is there something wrong with Zero? He should go and see by himself.

In a matter of seconds he was looking at Zero's window thoughtfully, it was late at night and it seems all the humans are asleep. There wasn't any sound around so he assumed it will be save if he went there.

He opened the window by his mind and entered quietly, the room looked normal except for Zero's black jacket on the floor, he heard a sound of running water coming from the bathroom's open door. He went there frowning, is Zero taking a shower with the door open?!

He stood in front of the door "Zero? You okay in there?"

All he heard in response was a hitched breath, he tilted his head to look inside and his eyes widened "Zero! What the hell are you doing?"

There was Zero under the running shower with his clothes on, and totally damp.

Kaname walked calmly towards him, he closed the shower then knelt beside him and put his hand on Zero's shoulder "Zero .. Come on let's get you out of here"

He frowned when Zero didn't respond, the idiot boy fell Unconscious. Obviously he was trying hard to resist the thirst. He picked him up and put him on the floor next the bed, he shook him again "Zero .. Zero" When the boy didn't respond he slapped him not too gently, Zero winced and slowly opened his eyes. He said in a hoarse voice "What ..?"

Kaname sighed before he stared at Zero's red eyes with hidden anger "You fool, why haven't you told me before the thirst worsened?"

He digged his fingers in Zero's shoulders "Do you want to become a level E Zero? Know that every time you resist it you will lose a part from your sanity! Do you hate my blood that much or do you hate asking me?"

He looked at Zero's face for any answer before he muttered "You don't have to ask though I'm offering Zero"

He brought Zero's head gently to his nick "Now drink, I'll listen to you later"

He sighed in relief when Zero's fangs pierced his skin and Zero started drinking, he mindlessly played with Zero's soft hair while the other was drinking eagerly and clinging into him desperately, as if Kaname was the only sort to keep him alive.. And that was somehow true.

He hugged Zero tighter, he wanted to be always close to him. Zero tilted Kaname's head aside and pierced his fangs deeper in the delicate neck. Kaname frowned at that .. Zero must be hiding his thirst for a while now, or he won't be this desperate.

After a while Zero withdraw his fangs, he cleaned his mouth with his sleeves and mumbled "Thank you Kaname .." He wanted to say something more but Kaname put his finger on Zero's lips before he turned his gaze to the door, Zero silently followed his gaze and in a matter of seconds he heard a footsteps then there was a low knock on the door "Zero are you awake? Zero..?"

Kaname lowered his finger "I have to go"

Zero grasped Kaname's shirt "Wait Kaname you can stay .."

Kaname ruffled Zero's still damp hair "I'll see you tomorrow and you can tell me what you want, Night Zero"

With that Kaname disappeared from his sight, Zero want so badly to be with him right now, he missed him all the last week .. It felt weird without Kaname around, he felt lonely somehow. Although he was always alone except for Yuki, but when he became close to Kaname he hated to be alone more and more . It was like someone has gave you a candy that you never tasted before and when you liked it they took it away from you.

The knock on the door jerked him from his thoughts, he was annoyed from Yuki because she came in a totally wrong time, he went to the door and opened it.

Yuki's eyes widened when she saw him "What happened to you Zero?"

Zero laughed to avoid her worry "I was cleaning the bathroom and I fell on the damp floor" really? Cleaning the bathroom? will there wasn't any excuses he can't say he was feeling hot in this cold weather right?

Yuki scolded "You should have changed at least you will catch a cold!" She went to his closet to give him a dried clothe.

He snorted "Vampires don't catch a cold Yuki"

Yuki stopped and smiled sheepishly before she became serious again "I was worried about you Zero, I couldn't sleep so I wanted to check on you"

Zero sighed, he was feeling guilty towards her, he had locked himself in his room for the past three days, of course she would be worried, he smiled warmly at her "I'm fine Yuki, thank you"

While they were chatting, they didn't notice there was a figure on the tree next to the window listening to them with a bored expressions on his face.


The next morning Zero was feeling better, a much better. Kaname's blood heavenly taste still lingers on his tongue, he wanted to see Kaname, he missed his company the last week, and last night Kaname seemed angry at him, he wanted to apologise.

He sighed deeply, Kaname and Yuki were worried about him. He did nothing and was only bothering them with his troubles.

He stared mindlessly at the talking teacher, is it alright to depend on Kaname's blood to keep his sanity? Kaname has his own problems he doesn't need Zero to bother him more .. But his words last night didn't say he was bothered, he wanted to help him.

His gaze turned to Yuki, she was passing notes with Yuri and they seemed having fun. Yuki has friends by her side but Kaname doesn't, he is totally alone .. The same goes for Zero.

He sighed deeply, should he tell Yuki then? But she might not forgive him .. Yuki was always there for him and he want to be always there for her too, he can't betray her trust .. But what was he doing right now?


At night, Kaname watched Zero and Yuki patrolling the ground together from the classroom window. He was deep in thoughts and was trying hard to keep his expressions indifferent . He simply couldn't believe a few months ago he was jealous from Zero because he was able to be with Yuki, and right now he was deadly jealous from Yuki for being able to be with Zero freely. He missed Zero the last week, with him he didn't need to pretend, or to be polite, or to be the strong pureblood everyone knows, he simply be Kaname.

With this thoughts in his head he knew he should return to his room before he loses it.

He exited the classroom as always without any word, there was a lot on his mind today and he just want to be with Zero and if that was impossible then he prefer to be alone.

When he was on his way to the Moon dorms, He was deep in thoughts and didn't notice the one that was calling him until the other grabbed his jacket "Kaname wait!"

He stopped and stared at Zero as if he was dreaming, Zero looked at him closely "Are you alright Kaname?"

Kaname tilted his head still in daze "What..?"

He shook his head trying to focus, when he saw Zero looking at him strangely he snapped out of it. He forced a smile to prevent Zero from asking any questions "What are you doing here?"

Zero crossed his arms and glared at him "What are You doing here? you have classes don't you?"

Kaname's smile disappeared from his lips and he tried to hide his disappointment. He walked pass Zero "Ah .. The same old annoying Kiryu"

Zero followed him with a frown on his face "Wait Kaname!"

He walked beside Kaname looking at him closely again as if he was searching for something "Are you not feeling well ? Did I took too much?"

Kaname stopped and looked at Zero surprised before he smiled warmly "No Zero you didn't, my head is just full of thoughts and I couldn't concentrate on the lessons"

Zero snorted "You know you never listen to them anyway what's the difference now?"

Kaname sighed and continued walking "This time it's too noisy .."

Zero looked worried "Is the council bothering you?"

Kaname replayed frowning "No .. It's you"

Zero stopped walking this time "me?!"

Kaname kept walking "I couldn't take you out of my head, you are such a noise Zero"

Zero followed him again until he was walking beside him "Is it because I upset you yesterday?"

"Maybe"

"I'm sorry Kaname I really wanted to apologies."

Kaname interrupted "Apology accepted"

They stood before the Moon dorms door now, Zero's eyes widened "Just like this? I didn't think it would be that simple"

Kaname tilted his head and put his finger on his cheek then said innocently "I don't mind an apology kiss on the cheek if you want"

Zero glared at him trying to cover his unwanted embarrassment "You have already forgave me so sorry I'm not interested"

Kaname chuckled "Fine, stay with me for awhile Zero would you ?"

Zero smiled "Okay"


"You are such a child Kaname, if I knew you brought me here just for this I would have went to my room and tried to sleep early for once!"

Said Zero while he was playing with Kaname's hair and Kaname's head on his lap.

Kaname buried his face in Zero's stomach and holds his waist "I just missed my only friend, is it a crime?"

Did friends do this sort of things ? He didn't think so. He smiled and let it drops For now "No it isn't, I missed you too" Then after a thought Zero frowned "But you are too spoiled!"

Kaname inhaled Zero's smell deeply, a pure lavender, he didn't know what the feelings he was feeling right now, all he knows that he won't be able to breath without Zero's lavender scent around anymore.

Kaname put his head on Zero's thigh again and looked at the lavender eyes before him "Then spoiled me" he took Zero's other hand that wasn't in his hair, he played with Zero's fingers mindlessly "I like it"

Zero just shook his head "If it will make you comfortable I don't mind, but .. Is that what friends do Kaname?"

"I don't care Zero, if I like it and you don't mind so why not?"

Zero sighed, there is no point in arguing with Kaname right now.

Kaname said suddenly "Sleep here tonight Zero"

Zero looked at him as if he was insane "What?!"

"You heard me didn't you?"

Zero looked at him in disbelieve before he shook his head "No thank you, I have my own bed, you won't sleep before sunrise anyway so what's the difference?"

Kaname looked disappointed "I just wanted to sing a lullaby for you until you fall asleep, besides .. friends don't say no to each other Zero"

Zero snatched his hand from Kaname's fingers "Yes they do, I say it to Yuki a dozen times, and thank you I'm not a child to sing a lullaby for me, I bet it will be a growl more than a lullaby from you"

Kaname seemed thinking before he muttered a "Fine" Actually it's the first time someone say No to him and that came from his only friend? what a twisted life. But that won't stop him there is always a plan B in his head, truthfully this plan is so much easier but he wanted to watch Zero's sleeping face all the night.

He undid Zero's loosened tie before he pulled it slowly. Zero stared at him with suspicion "What do you think you are doing?"

Kaname smiled innocently "I just wanted you to be more comfortable"

Zero tried to take back his tie but Kaname throw it next to his own tie and jacket on the opposite couch. He smirked, Brilliant ! Now Zero won't know witch one is his.

Zero grabbed Kaname's hair he was playing with roughly, he lift Kaname's head by his hair and lowered his face towards him, he stared at Kaname's win-red eyes that were looking at him in question before he said in a low voice "What is it with that smirk Kaname? What exactly are you playing at?"

Wrong move Zero .. Kaname's gaze was in Zero's violet eyes before he lowered it to Zero's slightly parted lips. He wonders how their taste would be?

It didn't take long before Zero released him when he sensed his heart beating violently, what was this feeling? And why is Kaname staring at him like he was in daze?

When Zero released his hair and retreated away from him, he sat up slowly and said in a hoarse voice "I'm not playing anything Zero"

Zero looked at Kaname's back "Okay, I was joking anyway" he stood "I should go now"

Kaname turned his head towards him, and with his mind he moved Zero's tie under his own jacket and put his in its place "It's a violent joke Zero, you almost ripped my hair"

Zero smiled and went to take his tie, or to be exact 'Kaname's' "Maybe I should have ripped it, if you would bring me here just to play with it"

Kaname smirked "I know you like it too"

Zero shrugged and went to the door "Night Kaname"

Kaname lay down on the couch again still smirking "Night Zero"

Now everyone will smell his scent on Zero and know Zero belongs to who, maybe Yuki will know that too? Who knows.

He put his arm on his eyes and closed them.

Before Zero came to his life he was devastated, alone, and stumbling in the darkness. Zero came and extended his hand towards him leaving aside their mutual hatred. He pulled him out of the darkness he was lost inside.

Would Zero be always there for him? or would he leave him for someone else?

At any rate .. He will try his best to keep Zero by his side, and if that wasn't what Zero want, he won't stand between Zero and his happiness, no matter how much that would hurt him.


Frozen inside without your touch

Without your love, darling

Only you are the life among the dead