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AUTHOR'S NOTE PLEAZE READ!! First I want to apologize that I haven't been updating in almost 2 weeks now!! I have a excuse!! My internet was down the whole 2 weeks!! I'm really srry!! Thank you for reviewing to everyone that reviewed!! Also fr those that asked, yes Edward is still attracted to bella's blood but because she is so weak, underfed no nutrition and all that, her blood isn't as strong as it is in the book. They still have the powers they had in the book don't worry, and that is the very LONG author's note!! :P p.s. this chapter is dedicated to ForbiddenFruitOfEC, and Darkangel0345 because with out them this chapie wouldn't be out for a while!!
Bella's pov:
I don't know how long I was running/walking, but I knew it was far from the school. Not that I minded! I took a deep breath and looked around.
I was in a small clearing I use to come to as a child, I use to come here for peace and quiet. It hadn't really changed that much, it still had trees surround it like silent protectors. The grass still swayed as if faries were with them. This place held a sign of safety and comfort.
I sat down on one of the tree stumps, I put my head in my hands and sighed. I really didn't know what to do anymore. The abuse was getting worse everyday, the mutt kept on pressuring me to do things I would never do with him. I met Alice and Edward today, who strangly I felt safe with, like I could tell them my secret and they would help.
But I couldn't do that to them, I wouldn't burden them with my problems. I wasn't worth it. No matter how much I wanted to tell them I couldn't. I looked up at the sky, it was gray clouds everywhere. I had my eyes closed when I heard my name being called.
I froze like a deer caught in headlights, I didn't know what to do, if I got caught by Charlie or Jacob I knew I was in for it. I didn't relax until I saw bronze hair, I let out a breath I didn't know I was holding. I let out a small smile when Edward sat next to me on the next stump.
"What are you doing out here Bella?" he asked.
It took me a minute to compose myself before answering,
"Well, um, I needed to think some stuff over."
He seemed interested, like I was some hidden prize he couldn't reach like the others.
"What were you thinking about?" he seemed frustrated at something.
"I was thinking about, um, life?" I ended in a questioning tone.
I didn't think he believed me, his eyes told the whole thing and so did his words,
"Really? So you had to come out here to think about life, when you could do so in a classroom where its safer?"
Ugh he got me, I didn't plan on telling him what I was thinking but he was dazzling me! I said in a rush hopping that he wouldn't understand me,
"I was thinking about my life."
From the was his brow was furrowed (srry if I didn't spell that rite!!) I could tell he was going to have a question as to why I was in the middle of the forest thinking about my life when it happened.
It started raining when he was about to open to say something, when I remembered, the make-up I had on wasn't water proof. My eyes went wide as I jumped up, I tried to run so he wouldn't see the bruises I had on me. It wouldn't have been so bad if I didn't take off my hoddie, but I did and he could spot all the bruises!
He grabbed my wrist before I could make a run for it. He spun me around into his chest. He was looking into my eyes confused.
"Where are you-"he broke off. The make-up had come off my face first revealing my bruises. I froze, I looked up into his eyes to see him trying to control his anger.
"E-E-Edward? Are you a-alright?" stupid question Bella stupid question I scolded myself.
"You are asking me if I'm alright? I should be asking if you are alright! Who did this to you!" he was angry that part I was sure of.
Its not like I could tell him so I tried to lie, poorly might I add.
"Um these old things, ha-ha funny story I was at the um um beach and I um fell on a, ah, erm on a rock and I fell on my erm face?"
Even I didn't believe my lie, why would he believe it! If he actually believed my lie it would be a miracle! But of course I never get the luck!
"Bella you can not honestly believe that I would believe that do you? That bruise is in the shape of a hand! Tell me who did this to you. You can trust me Bella." He seemed to be pleading at the end, and his damn eyes! Must not look into his damn dazzling eyes!
I couldn't tell him so I chose to improvise. I yelled at him,
"Why the HELL should I tell you! I just fucking met you! For all I know you could be an undercover FBI agent!"
He looked surprised I yelled at him, much less cussed at him. I though he would yell back, but he surprised me by replying very calmly.
"Because I care Bella. Something I think that you haven't had for a very long time."
I let my emotional side out, he just didn't freaking understand!
"Why? Why do you fucking care huh? You don't freaking understand what my life is like, you try get beat when you wake up, when you serve dinner and then get called names like slut and whore, and-and getting beat until you become unconscious! and-and-"
I couldn't continue. I was sobbing by now, I couldn't handle this, why was I opening myself to a stranger who, I just met. Yet I feel like he was the part of the puzzle I was missing, like he completes me.
He held me while I cried, I didn't let him go. I clung to his shirt like he was my lifeline. Which right now that was what he was.
We sat there for awhile with him holding me, and I clutching on to him for dear life. We were rocking back and forth with him kissing my head, calming me down, whispering soothing words into my ear. My sobs became soft whimpers that gradually stopped.
I didn't tell him who abused me but I don't think he thought it was Charlie, for that I was grateful. I didn't want him to get hurt trying to protect me against the abuse. Charlie was the chief of police and he had a gun, he could shoot Edward if he tried to protect me and then blame me for Edward's death.
I don't know how long we sat there, with him rocking me back and forth. But it must have been a couple of hours because one minute I was crying my eyes out, and the next I was knocked-out.
I opened my eyes to see amber eyes staring down at me. His eyes went wide when he saw that I was awake, so did mine. I blushed deeply, and tried to detangle myself from the Greek god I fell asleep on.
"I'm so sorry I fell asleep like that." I managed to mumble out, I was beyond embarrassed!
He just chuckled and said in a soft voice,
"No, no its really alright. In fact it was quite enjoyable. Do you know that you talk in your sleep?"
My eyes were as big as saucers. I knew I sleep talk and hated it! The one thing besides blushing that I would be much better without. I groaned and said embarrassed tone,
"Yes, I know I sleep talk. I hate it! What did I say, nothing bad right?"
I don't know if he got the second meaning behind it. I usually say what is in my mind when I sleep talk. If I talked about the abuse Charlie and the dog do to me I was done for!
He looked at me again, with the same frustrated look, except he looked like he was trying to hide it. It still made me blush, I looked down and let my hair fall down onto my face. He smiled and brushed my hair out of my face, he kept on smiling even when he answered,
"You shouldn't hide your face, its too beautiful to hide. Don't worry you didn't say anything horrible in your sleep."
I still wasn't reassured by his words, so I asked again,
"Are you sure I didn't say anything, nothing that I should blush for?"
He gave a small crooked smile that made me melt. He replied softly,
"Alright, all you said was 'its too green' and 'just give me the freaking pizza'. You even said my name."
He spoke the last part unsurely as if he didn't know how I would react to that knowledge. I sure knew how I would react! My blush turned to a red I have never accomplished until now, and my mouth opened in silent horror.
"No!" I couldn't believe it I just couldn't! I said his name, goodness knows what he thinks I was dreaming about him!
He chuckled at my response, he replied,
"It's okay, you only said my name a couple of times. You seemed comfortable and safe when you said my name. I guess you don't speak names often?"
I shook my head, yes I do speak names often, but there in my nightmares! I wake up screaming silently not in the arms of a god! Shaking my head I replied,
"No, I don't usually speak names. I really hate my sleep talking, it always gets me into trouble."
His eyes darken when I said that, like he knew – and after I told him I was abused – the type of trouble I get into for sleep talking.
I looked up to the cloudy sky, just enjoying the peace I felt when I was around Edward. When he moved his arm I saw his watch, it was already 3:50!
Oh shit, Charlie might be home by now. Trying not to show my panic I spoke,
"Um Edward I think I need to go home now. Its getting late and I still have to make dinner."
His eyes narrowed at the aspect of me at home, I hope to any god that he didn't know it was Charlie or Jacob!
"Alright but I'm driving you home. Its going to pour down anytime now."
I didn't argue, the way I saw it I would be home quicker and get into less trouble, I hoped anyway. I didn't know that he had his car close by, we're in the freaking woods! But there it was under a pine tree in all its shiny Volvo glory.
We walked back to his car, enjoying the warmth it offered, well I did anyway.
I was shocked when he put on Debussy. I spoke my shock aloud. He seemed shock too, like he didn't think I would be interested in the classics like the other rap loving teens. (once again I have nothing against rap but bella does!!)
"You know Clair Du Lune?"
"Yes, I started listening to it when I was younger to calm down, it stuck with me all these years." I responded.
"Most teenagers these days only listen to rap, most don't even know who Debussy is! My mother used to play it for me before she died."
Wow, I didn't know his mother died, I never really had a mom but I knew it was hard to lose one.
"I'm so sorry, I didn't mean to bring back any memories."
I was too, I hate thinking of my mother and I hate her, god knows how feels.
"Don't be, she died a long time ago. I hardly remember her anymore."
He seemed to try to put on a façade to cover up how he felt. I looked away to give him privacy.
Before I knew it we were two blocks from my house. I told Edward to stop at the corner. I said this for two reasons. First Charlie's cruiser was parked outside, second Jacob's Rabbit was also. If Charlie didn't spark fear into me the mutt sure as hell did! My heart stopped for a moment.
Edward tried to argue saying that it was only two more blocks. But I said I needed the exercise anyway. I opened the door with a heavy heart, closing the door I gave a sad smile. He looked sad as well, but I quickly brushed it off as a pity look. Someone like him would never like someone like me. I was too damaged, I was marked and bruised.
I started walking to the deathtrap known as my home. I walked up the walkway as slowly as I could, looking back I could see Edward giving me a sad smile and a wave goodbye as he drove to his house.
Know I was alone in the I gave myself a moment to ready myself for the abuse coming. Taking a deep breath I opened the door.
Standing in the hallway was Jacob and Charlie both of whom looked pissed and ready to put me in my place.
I bit my lip in fear, trying not to show it, I think I failed.
"Well looked who finally came home the fucker know as whore. Do you know how long we were waiting girl? Jake has been waiting for you while you go around coming home fucking late! What the hell have you been doing, sleeping around with all those boys? HMM?"
"I wasn't sleeping 'with all those boys' Charlie! Who the hell told you I was doing that anyway, hmm the fucking mutt over here? I ain't the whore in this damn house Charlie!" I couldn't contain my anger any longer, I was sick of being treated like dirt!
I wasn't ready for Charlie's slap, I fell to the floor clutching my cheek. I'm going to be brave, I'm going to be brave, I kept reciting in my head. My heart pounded with fear at Charlie's next words,
"Jake I think you should go upstairs with the slut, show her that she is yours and put her in her damn place, what do you say?"
The dog just smiled and roughly pulled me up, slapping me over his shoulder so that he could touch me. he shouted over his shoulder,
"You might want to leave Charlie, it will take awhile!"
Charlie just smiled cruelly and nodded his head grabbing his keys and shouted over his shoulder,
"Keep her quiet Jake."
Dread over came me as it now sunk into me what Black wanted to do with me, there was no way in hell I was going to let him do that!
"LET ME GO RIGHT NOW BLACK PUT ME DOWN!"
My shouts fell to silent ears as I was thrown on my bed roughly.
I could smell the alcohol on him as he violently kissed me.
I blacked out an hour later. I woke with a small cry and noticed that I was completely naked and covered in blood. I then soon realized that I wasn't alone, someone was sitting on the rocking chair in my room!
I'm leaving off here, once again really srry that I didn't update soon.. oh don't worry I will never get into detail about 'that' I just can't write that, well I can but the story seems sad and angst enough without and I don't want this to be rated 'M'……. okay so how about 9 reviews fr this chapter??
I'll try to update sooner and make the chapies longer!! Any ideas are welcome!! Good night I'm out!!
