NOTE: I'm sorry it's shorter than the others. I tried to make it long but that didn't work. You see, I had an idea but if I'd put
it in here it'll be too soon and I didn't want that. So, really, this chapter was just me winging it with no idea in between my real
idea at all. Anyway, it's something!


I knew it! I just knew it! Everyone was right but I was too fucking blind to see it myself! Or maybe I didn't want to see it. Maybe I was happy living the lie that I thought was the truth.

I waited five minutes before moving. Slowly my eyes started scanning the room. Everything looked the same. Like it was untouched... Like I never got up. I'm still in my clothes and the only thing different is that the clock showed that the time was noon. I slept most of today away.

"So... It was all a dream...? Me waking up, changing clothes, the books, the stories!? Even Ludwig coming back...? It was only one big dream that felt so real." My legs felt weak as I laid back on the bed. I couldn't hear anything and I couldn't move my body for a while.

After some time went by I finally got out and walked straight to the room where I found the books. They were still there, in the drawer where I found them before. My hands were shaking as I picked up the first book and begin to read it.

"... It's the same... Everything in here is the same..." I started looking through all the other books. Each one that I read in my dream was the same! Does this mean I had a vision? Couldn't be, I don't even believe in that kind of stuff... Maybe.

If it was true... Does that also mean Ludwig would be here soon? "... I shouldn't get my hopes up..." I sighed and put all the books back. I didn't get changed clothes either. I just left.

While walking home I passed by the park that was in my dream. Looking over at the tree we sat under there was another couple with, what I'm guess is their child. They looked so cute together. One happy family. I couldn't help but smile as I watched them.

"I guess I thought it would be nice if Ludwig and I were like that. It's too early to think about it but... I would love to have a family with him." I sighed and kept walking home. Antonio's car wasn't there so I thought neither was Lovino. I walked in only to be yelled at by Lovino.

"Where the hell were you!? Antonio and I were worried sick when we found out you left in the middle of the night! You should have told us or something! And you didn't take anything with you, how do you think we're supposed to contact you if you don't have you phone?!"

I stood there and sighed, listening to him rant on about how I shouldn't be leaving and that went out looking and other shit. I didn't care much. I was perfectly fine and well taken care of. "You like someone's mom." I smirked. "I'm here now. I'm okay, nothing's wrong and... Well... I just want to take a bath..."

"Don't pull that shit on me. I'm your brother I'm supposed to worry!" Lovino's still talking and yelling at me not to walk away from here. I couldn't tell him I was Ludwig last night and had this crazy dream that felt so real.

Finally, long after he stopped talking, I drew some bath water and slowly got in. As I leaned back I couldn't shake every detail of that dream out of my head. As much as I tried it all stuck with me. Ludwig's face, the stories, even what he said while we were under the tree. A little of it make me sick, like I was going to throw up. I guess that was a little too much for me.

Other than the dream and having to walk home alone, the bath felt nice. I kind of feels like I haven't had a bath in over a week! I just sat there, dipping my head under the water at times. For the rest of the hour I just sat there and played with the bubbles I added a few minutes ago. I felt like a child.

I walked into my room and cut the light on, quickly closing and locking the door. It was quiet now. Really quiet. Kind of uneasy to me. I couldn't stand it so I went to my computer and started playing Go|Radio out loud. Or, at least loud enough for me. I don't really want Lovi coming up and banging my door down.

Sighing, I sat on my bed and looked out the window. I couldn't stop staring at the back gate door that Ludwig would always come through when ever he wanted to see me. He didn't really want to have to fight with my brother just to be with me. A small smile came to my face as I started to cry. It was too much. It hasn't even been a day and I can't stand being away from him. What if he's right?

What if we ever see each other again?

"What if we slowly stop talking to one another...?" I asked myself as I tried to stop crying. But it was pointless, the tears kept flowing. It was already late and the music seem to hit harder than it used to. Go|Radio is more fitting at this time, isn't it?

'I'm building my own cell tonight.
And I'll will never make a key.
It's just me in the dark,
Alone here with my heart,
And will you come and set me free?'

The music had started to drift me to sleep. Slowly the lyrics played and slowly I fell. I couldn't hear the outside noise, I couldn't hear Lovino calling me, I couldn't hear my phone beeping every five second, just the must. I only heard the music.

When I woke up it was almost one in the morning. The music was still playing when I got up to turn it off. I looked over at the window again then quickly looked away. "There's no reason anymore... I need to stop... " I mumbled as I walked out my room and made my way downstairs.

The house was dark and quiet. The only light came from the bathroom and kitchen, like normal. I turned on the living room light too see Lovino sleeping on the sofa. The T.V was still on, he seemed to had been watching a movie. I sighed and moved him a little but he wouldn't budge.

Tired and frustrated, I tried to move him again but ended up laying on him. It's nothing new, anyways. He used to wake up pushing me off. Lovino can be mean, can he... I leaned up and managed to move his legs so I can sit at the end of the sofa.

It was still quiet and a little scary. The only thing playing was a movie I didn't even know and Lovino's snoring. I guess that makes me feel like I'm not alone. I stayed there for a while, falling back to sleep until I heard Lovino calling my name.

"Feli...? Why are you doing here? shouldn't you be in bed?"

"Shouldn't you?" He glared at me and sighed as he sat up. I didn't really look at him, I kept my eyes closed.

"Don't play with me." Lovino got up and into the kitchen. "You want or something?"

"No..."

"... What's wrong with you?"

"Nothing..."

"..." He didn't say anything and walked back, sitting beside me. I didn't really pay him any mind, I was watching the movie after all. "Something's wrong... You wouldn't be acting so moppy, even if you were tired."

"What if... What if I don't want to talk about now?" I mumbled, looking down. If I told him he wouldn't care. He hate Ludwig and didn't even wanted us going out. So telling him that he left would only make him happy.

"Then I'll keep asking. I want to help you, but I can't if you're not telling me shit."

"... Promise you won't say 'I told you so'...?"

"What are talking about...?"

I took a long pause and looked straight at him. "Ludwig left... He left last night. When I left that night, I left with him to this house. We spent the night together. Our last night together. He told me had to move and that he really loved me." I smiled a little, I can feel myself wanting to cry all over again. "When I woke up he was gone... And I had this weird but real dream that only turned out to be a dream. Anyways, he's gone now and I'll have to get over that. I can see talk to him over line. I just won't be able to touch him..."

"... Damn it, Feliciano. You shouldn't have got yourself into this. He was going to leave and I knew this was going to happen. Why didn't you tell me when you came back?"

"You were just yelling, like you always do. And I didn't want to talk about it. I only wanted to sleep." I sighed and leaned on Lovi's shoulder. He pulled me into a hug and shook his head. "To tell the truth, I wouldn't even think you would care..."

"Of course I care. I care about you, not that bastard. You're my fratello after all. If I didn't care that would make me a bad brother, you know." He chuckled and held me tighter, which made me smile. We both laid there on the sofa in silence. I felt nice, Lovino and I really haven't done this in a while. I just thought he grew out of it.

"You could never be a bad brother." I smiled and hugged him back and closed my eyes. I really was getting tired again and I couldn't hold out much longer. Lovino pulled the cover over us as we watched the movie.

"Tomorrow, you wanna miss school and hang out? It'll just be us to. Ya know, to get your mind off... Ludwig for a day."

I giggled and smiled at him. "Yeah, that'll be fun."