Hey all here is the latest chapter in P.S I love you I hope that you all enjoy it. A big thanks to everyone who has read this and to everyone who took time to review I hope you all enjoy this chapter. Oh and for those who don't know

SIT = Slayers In Training

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A few weeks had passed since Buffy had received the letter from Spike, since that day Buffy no longer hid in her memories; she did what Spike had asked of her she lived. She had even taken Spike up on his little shopping trip idea though she had asked to borrow money from Giles rather than take it. Now tt was not unusual to see Buffy around the hotel now and she was there when Giles brought 2 new Slayers to the hotel the gang realised the need to find the girls and teach them to control their strengths.

Buffy threw herself into training the SIT as they were still called showing them the skills she had perfected in her years as the Slayer. There were many who showed some promise though none shone as brightly as Dawn. As Buffy watched the SIT's going through their moves Buffy couldn't help but smile as she watched Dawn move with a gracefulness of her own. Letting out a sigh Buffy wished for the millionth time that Spike was here with her feeling the tears welling up in her eyes Buffy silently walked to the exit door and let herself out into the garden. Unbeknown to her Giles had seen her hasty exit and her watcher sadly shook his head, his Slayer was 'going through the motions' again except this time no one knew how to fix it.

Spikes letter was a god send and Giles thanked the Powers that be for it, but even though she was almost like the old Buffy her eyes were sad they no longer sparkled with life, no this Buffy was not the Slayer they knew.

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Looking around the garden Buffy suddenly felt claustrophobic, embracing the urge to flee she jumped the Hotels wall with ease and ran down the LA streets, she embraced the dull burn in her muscles, relished in the tightness of her chest. She ran until she couldn't go any further she stood atop a cliff edge pointing out towards the ocean, the sun's ray's bounced like diamonds on the surface. Sitting with her feel dangling over the edge and her back against the warm ground Buffy let the memorised words of Spike's letter wash over her again. Imagining not for the first time his rich accented voice laughing as he read the letter before leaning over to kiss her and say what a 'poonce' he was or how much of a poofter did he sound like. Feeling the familiar tightness in her chest Buffy embraced the tears that fell from her eyes and spilled onto her cheeks it was only in moments like this that now she allowed herself to cry for the man she loved.

Not a moment went by that she did not think of him in some way, catching the hint of cigarette smoke on some LA corner or something like that would catch her attention and she would think of a expression he would say. It was hard without him she had nothing of his besides a well-worn letter, a chunky skull ring and a shiny scar on her hand that she knew she would have until the day she died. Even though she would live for Spike like he had asked she couldn't wait until the day they were reunited in the afterlife and how she dreamed of that day...

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For the first time in a long while Faith and Giles sat opposite each other neither sure what to say, clearing her throat Faith's husky voice filled the tiny yet comfortable room Angel had given to Giles

"G, what we gonna do? B's not B ya no?" Faith finished awkwardly

"Quite, Faith I'm not sure there is anything we can do" he said softly removing his glasses and rubbing at his pale eyes Faith's chocolate brown orbs stared at the worn man taking in every detail looking at all the angles before she said what she was about to

"Watcher Man..." she stared her voice was slightly huskier then normal "you – you know B's in love with Spike... Right?" she finished her gaze locking with Giles's neither moved each searching for something in the other's eyes. After a moment Giles looked away

"Well yes, it was rather obvious though I do believe Xander and er Angel do choose to ignore it" he said slowly

"Right" Faith said slumping back into her chair looking back at Giles she softly said

"She misses him" looking at his hands Giles let his shoulders slump a little dejectedly

"And she will for a long time I do believe Faith, a long time" with that said the two sat in a unusually comfortable silence

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A/N: soooo thats chapter 4 what do you think??? Please review xx