A/N: Okaty so, the more that I get into this the more that it's not turning out how I originally imagined but of course none of my stories ever do. Oh well. Here's chapter 4.
Chapter 4
When I leave the diner, I had every intention of going back to my Dad's house… but for some reason I found myself back at the clubhouse. I climbed out of my car and made my way back inside. Gem was still sitting at the table we were at earlier. I looked at her and she pointed to toward the dorms. I made my way through the barroom towards the dorms. This time when I got to Jax's dorm, I knocked and waited. A minute later he opened the door. "Em. I thought you left." He said.
I push my way past him and he shut the door behind me. "I did. I ended up at the diner with Opie." I said. I walked over to the desk and hopped up on it.
"Okay." Jax said.
I sat there for a minute before I said anything. "Did you mean it?" I asked him.
He looked at me confused. "What?" He asked.
"What you said outside."
He nodded, walking towards me. "Em, for the last five years, every time I saw the clubhouse door open, I hoped that it was you and the kids. I know that I fucked up five years ago, and I can't say enough how sorry I am for that…But all I have wanted for the last 5 years was for you to come home so that hopefully I could start trying to make it up to you." Jax says walking closer to me. "I would have come after you, but I didn't know where you went. At least I didn't until Hap called me and told me that you and the kids had been staying with him." He says stopping in front of me and shoving his hands in his pockets. "I knew that the divorce papers would piss you off, I just hoped that it was going to be enough for you to come home." Jax said.
I grabbed the front of Jax's kutte and pulled him closer to me. I still didn't say anything. I leaned up on the edge of the desk and kissed him. He wrapped his arms around me and pulled me closer to him, deepening the kiss.
After a while Jax and I found ourselves wrapped up in the blankets in the bed. "So now what?" I asked Jax.
"Right now? We're gonna lay here and I'm going to hold my wife. After that? I don't really know. I do know that I want you and the kids home and not at your dad's or Ope's." Jax said.
"Is it really that simple." I said and Jax looked at me confused. "You cheated on me and I left. It's been five years. Is it really so simple that we can just go back to the way that things were before I left?"
"Do you forgive me for what happened back then?"
"I think that I forgave you as soon as you told me about it. I think that I've just been more hurt than anything." I say. Jax nods. "It's not going to happen again, is it?"
Jax shakes his head. "No. I have no intention of hurting you like that again. I know what it feels like for you to leave me. I have no intention of reliving that pain again." Jax tells me.
"Okay." I say. "I missed you too Jax."
The next morning, I wake up and Jax is gone. I figure that he's either gone to get coffee or he's out in the garage working. I get up and get dressed, realizing that I have to go back to my dad's and change clothes and then go pick up the kids. When I head out to the parking lot, I stop by the office to tell Gem that I'll be back in a bit with the kids. As I'm about to walk into the office, I hear my brother's voice. "You what!" Ope yells. I step around the corner and see Jax and Ope talking. He looks up and sees me. "You! I wanna talk to you." Ope said, with a hint of anger in his voice.
"Okay well can you follow me to the house so that I can change." I say, and he nods." I poke my head in the office. "Morning Gem. I'll be back in a bit with the kids." I tell her.
"Morning baby. That's fine. I'm ordering lunch. Anything specific?" She asks me, and I shake my head. "Okay, I'll see you later then." I head towards my car, but when I get there Jax is waiting. I smirk at him. "Strangest thing happened. I reconciled with my husband last night but when I woke up, he was gone." I said.
"I know. I'm sorry. I had to help Ope open this morning." Jax said.
"I understand. I'll be back in a bit with the kids. You need anything?" I say.
"A kiss from my wife would be nice." I lean up and kiss him.
"Better?"
"Much. Drive safe." He says as I get in my car. I pull out of the parking lot and head to my dad's house. When I get there, both Dad's and Ope's bikes are in the driveway. I climb out of my car and make my way into the house. They're both sitting in the living room when I walk in. I walk over to the couch, I sit down and start taking my heels off. I look at my brother. "You wanted to talk?" I ask him.
"Just like that?" He asked me.
"If it makes you feel better, we talked first." I say.
"It doesn't." Ope says.
"It does me." Dad says.
"Thanks Dad." I say before I turn to my brother. "Look, you're the one that helped me realize that I even wanted reconcile with him." I tell him. "What else do you want me to say?"
"So that's it. A kiss and a few words and you just take him back." Ope says as I stand up.
"Ope it was more than that. We talked things through and yes, I took him back. I missed my husband. I want my family whole. That's all that needs to be said." I tell him.
"I'm going to the cabin." Dad says.
"Okay Pop. Ride safe." I say as I kiss my dad's cheek heading to my bedroom to change clothes. I change my clothes and when I walk back out to the living room, my dad is still there but Ope is gone.
"He just worries about you. You know that, right?" Dad says.
"I know." I say before I walk out of the house. I head over to Ope and Donna's to pick up the kids. When I walk in the house, Donna is glaring at me. "Don't tell me. Your mad at me too." I say.
"No, I just hate that I had to hear about it from my husband and not you." D says.
"Sorry. It's been one thing after another." I say walking over to D's hallway. "Marissa, JT let's go." I call down the hallway. I turn back to my best friend. "Thanks for watching them. I didn't intend for it to be all night it just happened that way."
She nods. "I know. I just want you to be happy." She says.
"For the first time since I left, I am." I tell her. The kids come down the hallway a few minutes later. "Time to go." I say as we walk out the front door, D behind me. We get JT's car seat out of her car and I stick it in my car before putting him in the car. I turn back to D. "I might need your help this afternoon if Gem can watch the kids." I say.
"Just let me know." She says, and I nod before getting back in my car.
When we get back to the garage, I park my car next to Gem's in my usual spot. I notice a familiar car belonging to a blond gash. I also notice that Jax isn't in the garage where I figured he'd be. "Marissa, take your brother in the office with your grandma and stay put, you hear me." I say, and she nods.
I climb out of my car and make my way across the parking lot and into the clubhouse. I see Jax sitting at the bar with the blonde gash practically trying to sit in his lap. I walk over. "Come on, Jax. It'll be fun." She says.
"Ima, no. Now leave me alone. Em's due back anytime." Jax says to her.
"I can be quick." She says.
"You better be quick out the door." I say causing the gash to jump. She turns around and glares at me.
"Oh your back." Ima says. "Yippee." She goes to turn back to Jax when I grab her by the back of her head forcing her to look at me. "I thought I made myself clear last night for you to stay the hell away from my husband." I say.
"I didn't think that you were serious." She says. Wrong answer. I slam her face into the corner of the bar. "You bitch." She says.
"Sorry it's reflex. Now, didn't I make myself clear last night?" I say again.
"You left once, I figured you would again." Wrong answer again. I slammed her face into the bar again. "Damnit can you stop doing that." She says.
"One more time. Are you going to stay away from Jax?" I say.
"You realize at some point he's going to get tired of you right?" Smack and Crack. That time I broke her nose.
I let go her hair, letting her fall to the floor. At this point I notice that there's several of the guys watching us. I turn and look at Chibs. "Chibby, you might want to give her something for the pain, I know that I broke it the third time." I tell Chibs.
"Sure thing. Prospect let's go." Chibs says, helping Ima out of the floor.
I turn back to Jax. He holds his hands up in surrender. "I didn't do anything." He says.
"I know. I just needed someone to take my anger out on." I say leaning over and kissing him.
He looks at me confused. "What happened?" He asks.
"Got into a fight with Ope. It'll be fine. Kids are in the office." I tell him.
He stands up, throwing his arm around my shoulder. "Let's go." He says.
