What I Can't Say Out Loud

By rocklandgirl

Chapter 4

(So very sorry for the delay in getting back to this story. It's been a busy, snowy few weeks. Hopefully I can pick it up where I left off!)

(I do not own Glee or have any association with Fox or the producers or writers of Glee.)

(End of Chapter 3: "In through the nose … out through the mouth …" she thought as she practiced the slow, deep breathing techniques she'd learned to quell her panic attacks. As her racing heart finally began to slow a bit, she flushed then stood up gradually and steadied herself against the inside of the stall door. She turned, opened the door and pushed it slightly. It swung open to reveal a sight more frightening than vomit in the toilet. In all her glory there was Sue Sylvester leaning against the sink. Emma stared at her in silence, eyes watery and bloodshot as Sue simply smirked and said, "So Elmo … a little morning sickness for the newlywed? I guess I owe you an apology. I would have bet my next Cheerios national title that you were still the virgin bride.")

Emma panicked at the sight of Sue. Stopped dead in her tracks she stammered, "Sue … I, I … thought I was alone in here."

Sue shot back, "Nope Eloise, this is a public school … remember? Ya' don't get a private potty! Sorry! Even with a bun in the oven and puking all morning long, ya' gotta share the facilities."

"Bun? Oven? No Sue … that's not what's going on here …"

Swinging the door open to leave, Sue departed with a final, horrifying response, "Oh Ginger, don't fret! Your secret's safe with me. When have I been anything less than completely trustworthy? Don't answer that!"

Emma tried in vain to explain herself … "Sue, really there's a bug going around …" It was no use, she was gone. In the time it took Emma to make her way back to her office to grab her toiletry bag and run back to the restroom to brush her teeth, Sue was already standing in the doorway of teacher's lounge watching Will take his regular seat and unwrapping his lunch.

Slapping him on the back, Sue pulled up a chair, "William! Como estas?"

"Hey Sue. I'm okay, how are you?"

"Thanks Willy-boy for not continuing our conversation in Spanish. I hate it when you say one thing in a foreign language and the other person thinks it's an invitation to continue the entire conversation that way even though it's not your native language. It's just weird."

Helping herself to one of Will's potato chips, Sue continued, "You know what else is weird?"

"What Sue?"

"Emma Pillsbury-Howell."

"Excuse me?"

"You heard me. Technically I guess she's a 'who' not a 'what'. She was always weird, but the hyphenated name, in other words the fact that she's married, it's weird."

"How so?"

"Oh come on, Will. Don't tell me you weren't a little bit taken aback that your lady love ran off to Vegas and married the smolderingly handsome, but kind of creepy Dr. Howell."

"Old news, Sue. Give it a rest."

"I know. I know. But you and I have never actually chatted about the situation."

"There's a reason for that. I don't want to discuss it with you … or with anyone, for that matter."

"Shucks Will. The way I see it, you dodged a major bullet there, ending that relationship."

"Sue, I didn't end it, if you remember correctly … Emma dumped me in front of everyone in this very room last Spring when she thought I'd cheated on her."

"Whatever ..." Sue didn't want to discuss that particular piece of history, since she played a big part by lying to Emma about Will sleeping with April. "The point is I really think you've handled it very well, all things considered. Especially now."

"OK Sue, if you aren't going to stop so I can eat my lunch … I'll play along. Especially now what?"

"Oh, thought you knew. Especially now that the Virgin Queen is preggers with a little Howell-baby!"

Will's appetite vanished. He felt all of the oxygen leave the room. The look on his face said it all, as a very smug and satisfied Sue Sylvester grabbed a few more chips and walked out of the lounge.

(As always, would love to hear your reviews! Everyone has been so encouraging … and reading everyone else's fanfics really inspires me!)