Last Time
After their Jacuzzi bath they headed back upstairs were they both were able to drift off too sleep for a bit. Well AJ drifted off to sleep, Punk was still up and couldn't help but watch her sleep. He loved to watch her sleep. It would relax him more than anything. The first night they were together in Mexico he watched her sleep all night. Her chest slowly rising and falling,her eyes twitching when she would dream, her lips parting slightly as she'd let out a silent breath, it was beautiful to him. She was beautiful to him. He often had trouble falling asleep because he was still so infatuated by her. He had never done a drug in his life but he imagined what the addiction felt like, she was his addiction.
After Wrestlemania 29 Punk wasn't on TV. It was no secret he was displeased with losing his match to the Undertaker. He wasn't on TV that following week nor was he on tours. There were rumors of him taking time off but he wasn't around for AJ to ask. She found out for sure like the rest of the world when he walked out into the middle of the ring the following week and announced he was going to be leaving for a short time. AJ wasn't sure if he was truly hurt or he was going for good.
Her and Punk were on the outs. It was no secret that their friendship ended right around the time of the Royal Rumble but that was another story. She was afraid to approach him and ask how he was because no matter how hurtful they were being to each other she still cared about him, she still loved him. She saw him sneak out the back of the arena and she subtly chased after him so no one would spot her either. He was walking to a car since he didn't bother to take his bus.
"Phil!" She yelled out and he stopped and looked back at her.
"Short stack." He forced out and her heart melted. He hadn't called her that in weeks and it meant he wasn't as mad at her anymore.
"Where are you going?" She asked with wide eyes.
"Home." He told her honestly. "I haven't been myself." he admitted. "I think you more than anyone knows that." "We both haven't been ourselves." She agreed. "I'm sorry for-" "Don't." He said cutting her off. "You made your choices, I made my mine so we live with them." "I can't live with them and have you hate me." She told him and he gave her a sad smile.
"I could never hate you Ape." He promised her. "You confuse me and you know that. I need to clear my head." "And be away from me?" She asked hurt.
"Away from everyone but mostly you." He told her not holding her back. "I'm all over the place Ape, I can't stay this angry at you and being here on the road make me really fucking angry." "I didn't mean for you to leave." She said to him.
"It's not your fault." He sighed. "I think I'm very much to blame for a lot of this unnecessary drama going on between the two of us." "You are." She agreed and he chuckled. "Are you ok?" "What?" He asked taken back.
"Your knee." She pointed. "I know you hit it bad during your match and you've been favoring it." "You know you're the only person to ask me how I'm physically feeling?" He asked almost amused.
"I'm still your friend even if you're not mine." She told him and his heart sunk.
"I'm always your friend." He said seriously. "Have I been pissed off? Yes. But do I have a right to be? No, I'm with Amy and you're with him-" "It's not like that." She said shaking her head.
"It is exactly like that." He said to her. "I can't expect you to stay celibate for the rest of your life because I don't like seeing you with other men, especially when I'm with someone else. Someone I love very much." "I get it." She said putting on a brave smile.
"I just don't like him." He said to her. "And I think you're going to end up hurt and you're going to end up hurt because you're trying to drive me fucking crazy for some reason and that's what kills me. I won't sit back and watch you cry or hurt anymore April." "I'll be fine." She whispered looking down at her feet.
"If you really felt that way you'd look me in the eye." He said to her. "I just need to get away from this place it's fucking toxic." "I'm sorry I made it that way for you it wasn't my intention." She told him.
"You didn't." He assured her. "He did. But I am hurting physically it's not all mental."
"I never wanted to push you away." She said shaking her head. "I was trying-" "I know what you were trying to do." He said to her. "And it worked. I just need to think with my brain and not my heart." "So that's why you're going?" she asked him. "Your heart thinks you should be here with me?" "My heart is always here with you." He replied smoothly. "For such a jackass you really do have knack for saying sweet things." She said plastering on a smile trying not to cry.
"I love her." Punk told her very seriously. "I've put a lot of years and time our relationship and I can't just drop her. It's not fair." "I understand." She said to him. "I'm the other women." "Don't say it like that." He frowned. "You're more than that. If it makes you feel any better I blame myself for all of this. I'm hurting you everyday and it's hurting me in return and I can't do it anymore." "I'll go." She said to him. "I'll take the time off-" "You're about to get the title." He reminded her.
"You were here first and you love it-" She began to argue.
"You love it too." He countered. "Don't ever give up something you love for somebody else." He spat at her. "You need to start standing up for yourself, do you hear me?" he demanded.
"I hear you." She assured him.
"Say it like you mean it." He ordered.
"I will!" She yelled holding back tears and he shook his head and pulled her against his chest. She clung to him as if she was holding on for life. "I'm going to miss you." "It won't be forever." He promised her.
"Where are you going right now?" she asked him. "Are you driving home? That's like five hours." "I was going to stop and try to sleep." he said to her.
"Want company?" She offered.
"That's a terrible idea." He said to her. This was exactly what he was running from. He looked over past her and saw him watching from the door. "He's waiting for you." he hissed glaring at the man.
"He's not my boyfriend." She told him.
"Ok." He said to her as she let go. The pang of jealousy and fear hit him and he grabbed her wrist all the while keeping his eye on the man. "Let's get out of here." he knew being with him was bad, he just didn't want her with him at all.
"You just said-" she began.
"Can Celeste collect your stuff for you? I want to leave now." He said cutting her off and she nodded.
He opened the passenger side door for her and she got in. Punk flipped him off after and walked around the car and got in with her.
"You really just don't want him me around me." She said knowing that was the only reason he was taking her with him. He started the car and literally screeched as he sped out of the parking lot.
"I really don't. But that's not the only reason." He said to her.
AJ only had one shoe off when Punk attacked her lips and began stripping her of her clothing. They weren't at a fancy hotel, they were at a rundown motel off of the highway. They didn't care where they were as long as they were together. She was in her bra and jean shorts when he lifted her so her legs were wrapped around his waist.
"You know I love you, right?" He asked her seriously and she nodded. "No April, verbal." "I know." She said sadly. "You know this is it too?" He asked her. "We can't do this again. It hurts too much- you get that right?" "I'm a big girl Phillip." She told him. "I can handle this."
"I'm going back home to Amy." He told her bluntly. "And you're going to go back to work and get that title and we're not going to see each other for a while."
"I know." She agreed. "Time apart is going to be good for us. We'll get it out of our system." "We've been saying that since the first time." He reminded her.
"If you're getting cold feet I'll call a cab-" he cut her off by kissing her.
"Tonight you're mine." He growled collapsing on top of her as they crashed onto the bed. "For one last night, for one last time..." "I'm yours." She finished in a sensual whisper and he was aroused beyond belief. Her being his was unbelievably sexy to him. "One last time." She added.
He peered over to his sleeping beauty and chuckled to himself. How he could ever walk away from her or think that would be it was a case of severe denial. He knew deep down that night it was only the start of their next crazy chapter. People wondered how him and his wife could be so boring and hangout inside all day but they had no idea how crazy it was for them to actually get together. He used to dream of nights he could lay and watch her sleep without the fear of being caught or having to sneak out before she would wake up because saying goodbye to her after a night together was the most painful thing to him.
"I want pancakes." He heard her sleepy voice.
"What?" He asked with a chuckle and watched as her eyes shot open.
"I want pancakes. It's morning, isn't it?" She asked and he looked at the time and wasn't surprised he was thinking for four hours while she slept.
"I'll make you pancakes." He said kissing her lips.
"With strawberries?" She asked cutely.
"Yes." He said to her as he reluctantly crawled out of the bed.
"You don't look like you slept all night." She noted.
"I didn't." He admitted. "I kept thinking."
"About the fight?" She asked nervously.
"No actually." He said surprised, surprised that thoughts of her finally gave him a night of peace from that. "I was thinking about you."
"Good thoughts?" she asked hopefully.
"Amazing thoughts." He said to her. "I was thinking about that night before I left after Mania."
"I wrote about that in my book." She told him and his eyes widened.
"Yea?" he asked and she nodded. "The cliff note version I hope, unless your memoir is taking a fifty shades turn."
"No." She giggled. "I hated that night."
"I thought it was good." He shrugged.
"I thought it was the end." She told him and he frowned. "I didn't think you'd come back to me."
"I couldn't stay away. You're like a magnet." He said to her. "I couldn't shake you no matter how hard I tried."
"I thought you hated me." She added.
"I never hated you at any point in my life." He said to her.
"You told me you hated me." She reminded him and he shook his head at that memory he wasn't willing to give much thought about.
"I was angry. I wasn't myself." He said to her. "You still think about that?"
"I hadn't until I wrote the book." She said sitting up. "I had been through a lot in my childhood and adult life but nothing ever hurt me like those words coming from you." His heart sank and he wasn't sure how to respond. "I don't blame you for saying it. I wanted you to hate me."
"I didn't." He said to her from across the room. "I hated myself and I hate myself even more for seeing how much that still bothers you."
"It doesn't bother me. But that's also in the book and I don't want you caught off guard." she said to him.
"It's our story and you have every right to talk about it. I'm not proud of that moment. I wish I could take it back believe me." He said to her. "Those were the dark days."
"The darkest." She agreed. "Not just for you."
"I know." He said walking over to her and sitting on the edge of the bed. "I forget sometimes everything you were going through without telling me."
"It wasn't that bad." She assured him trying to put on a brave face.
"I would kill him if I could." He told her grabbing her hand.
"Phil." She sighed. "You're going to have realize there's a chance you're going to bump into him one day."
"They say that time away makes you less angry but that's not the case for me and him." Punk said to her. "The more I think about him the more angry I get."
"He's living his life and we're living ours." She reminded him. "The fact that we're so happy is what kills him."
"Not literally." He said sadly. "He almost ended our marriage." He reminded her. "He manipulated the both of us."
"And he's the one alone right now." She shrugged. "And here we are in our beautiful home about to stuff our faces with pancakes. We don't have a schedule to follow we're retired and can do whatever we want to do. We have it all."
"Yea." he had to agree. "Doesn't mean I won't beat the shit out of him if and when I see him again and I know for sure I can take him!" he pointed out as he walked out of the room and she let out a sigh.
A/N: Yikessss what the hell went on during that time? Why did he hate her? How did they go from that to marriage? So much going on...
