Allen talks to much about someone Kanda would rather not hear about. Ensuing emotional crisis and opening up of Kanda etc. Quite cliched but cliches are cute. Also, yes this is the same time as chapter 1, but a different perspective. I need titles please make suggestions!!
Do I have to go into this? It isn't mine. Kanda's brother is. He's entirely mine to do what I want with Mwahahahahahahahahahahahahahahhahahahhahaha. Ahem. Yes. -man isn't mine
In this fic there will be lots of lovely BL, implied lemon, Yullen and some dark Yukki (didn't know what to call KandaXTykki and this seemed funny) Also possibly some Linali hate.
Kanda was pissed off. Allen kept asking him what was wrong, as if he really expected to be told. That baka moyashi. Like Kanda would tell him anything, anyway, it was too horrible. He didn't want the younger boy to hear that. It was too… intimate, too revealing, and anyway. Allen didn't care. It was his fault anyway, talking so loudly, and for so long about… Tykki. Kanda shuddered involuntarily as he thought the name, but it was improving. There was atime when he couldn't even think it. But back to Allen. He hated him. Always pretending, always lying to everyone, trying to be everyone's friend. Kanda didn't understand how the boy did it. If he had to try to be everybody's friend he would die from exhaustion. Yet Allen kept going. Kept his mask on. Kept hiding. Though… He was hiding too, wasn't he. His mask wasn't as kind, but he still wore one. He sighed. This kind of thinking wasn't going to help. He got up and left the meditation room, heading for the forest.
Whe he got there he removed his coat and shirt, the cold air making him more awake. Reminding him that he was still alive. He unsheathed Mugen and began to shadow spar.
Swish
Pain.
Kanda continued to spin and slash, trying to ignore the memories.
Darkness, lights flashing, that girl, Rhode? A dark room. His brother crying out in his sleep.
Kanda moved faster, attempting to block out the pictures, now appearing even more vivid, more real.
The pain. Everyday. It hurt so much. Too much for his thirteen year old body to stand, yet he didn't die. His brothers screams. A girl, stroking his hair as he lay bleeding. Telling him it was ok. He could sleep. And then… Dreams. Nightmares, so bad tey seemed more real than the ever more hazy world. Nightmares he couldn't wake up from, because when he was awake it was just as bad.
Kanda banged his head against a tree. "Stop it, stop it, stop it." he muttered through clenched teeth. "I don't need this." he heard Allen approaching. He picked up Mugen and continued his sparring, slashing violently at nothing in particular.
Tykki's tongue in his mouth. The feel of his hand on his thigh. That laugh, so mirthful, but sinister. His brothers cries in agony as the older man raped him. His own cries as Tykki moved inside him. And the blood. So much blood. It was surprising how much blood two prepubescent boys could lose without dying. And then…
Darkness. Then light. A forest clearing. The glint of silver. Light reflecting off mugen. Red blood on white snow. His brothers rasping breaths. Then. Silence. Nothing but his own slow breathing.
Kanda gave up. He needed something to keep his mind off things. He walked back to Home. Stopping to query allen on his way. He was juts on his way to the library to find something meaningless to lose himself in when he heard kombi's voice over the intercom. "kanda, report to my office. I have a mission for you and Allen."
Kyaaaaaaaaaa I have a sister in law!! (not really though, only intenets. Loves to allen is mine XD)
Also kanda pov high five -taii. Loves for you also.
Please R and R, but no title suggestions I know what it's called now.
