Chapter 4

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"God what was I thinking" Tommy said to himself as he walked into the guest room and slammed the door. He had kissed her and had all but told her that be for this was all over with he planed on making love to her before these three month was up. You know maybe it was for the best if they explored their feeling for each other . No what the hell was he thinking, he could not go there not now or ever he didn't want to her and he knows that is what will happen if he lets it go there. God he needed a cold shower he thought as he put his clothes way and then headed in the bathroom for that cold shower.

Jude was still in her room laying on the bed staring at the ceiling when she heard the water come on is Tommy's bathroom. Wonder what he would do if I decided to join him. She thought getting up and walking over the French doors and opened them to step out on the Balcony that looked out over the back of the house and the swimming pool. There here flowers everywhere and the view was breath taking and the pool looked so inviting that Jude ran into her room throw on her swimming suit. Grabbed a towel and headed out to the pool for a swim. She had just dove in when Tommy came out of his bathroom with a towel around his waist and one in his hand that he was using to dry his hair. He wonder what Jude was doing, so he pulled on a pair of jeans and a t-shirt and went to Jude's room to see what she was doing.
"Hey Jude," he called out as he walked in to her room only to find it empty. So he checked the bathroom and found it empty to he was starting to panic when he saw the French Doors open . He walk out and what he saw took his breath away. There was Jude coming out of the pool in a blue metallic two piece swimming suite that fit her body just right. She looks like a blond goddess Tommy though to himself he was so caught up on though that he didn't even realize when she turned and looked up at him.

"Hey, what you doing in my room." She yelled and then laughed when he jumped a foot of the ground

"Damn girl did you have to scare the hell out of me" He yelled with a laugh

"Sorry didn't mean to scare you , but if was funny watching you jump like that, " I said wishing that he would come down here so that she didn't have to look up at him. It was really starting to make her neck hurt. There was a way she thought with a laugh. " Now Little Tommy Q what are you doing on my balcony. "

"Looking for you, and don't call me Little Tommy Q," he told her with a smile.

"And what are you going to do about it, Little Tommy Q, She yelled back at him

"Just wait and see." He yelled over his shoulder as he walked into the house.

She was laughing when he can out of the house and head strait for Jude. She knew she was in trouble the minute she looked into his blue eyes. "Tommy no,' She said putting her hands up to ward him off as she backed away from him, but she paused when she realized the pool was behind her. That was just the opportunity that he needed,. He reached out and grabbed Jude by the waist and throw her into the pool. At least that was his intention just as he went to let go she wrapped her arms around his neck and he went in with her. They both came up coughing and laughing and the pool fight was on he picked her up and throw her in the water again, and they where throwing water at each other. Then Jude just launch herself at Tommy. She meant to dunk him but he caught her around the waist and pulled him under with him.

"Alright I give up.' She coughed when they came up this time. Only Tommy was not laughing That was when she realized her was plastered from chest to waist around Tommy and her legs where around his waist. Before she could think about it she kissed him. He pulled her closer and kissed her back as he carried her out of the pool and into the house never breaking the kiss and up the stairs to her room.

He paused as he laid Jude on her bed and looked at her. Her lips her swollen form his kissed and her face was flush and her eyes her full of desire. "Are you sure Jude, I don't want you to regret this." he said staring down at her.

"Yes I am tired of fighting this." She told him

"I don't want to hurt you." He said reaching out and touched my face.

"Tommy you won't." She said as I tuned my face and kissed him palm.

"Jude' He started to say. He wanted her so much.

"Tommy I love you and I want to be with you ."

"Jude I can't promise you a future." He said.

"Let me ask you something, Do you love me?" She asked as she looked up into his eyes god don't let me mess this up.

"Jude I-" He started to say .

"No just tell my yes or no." She demanded as I got up on my knees and put my hand on his chest.

"Yes Jude I love you, I have tried not to but I do." He said in frustration finally telling her what was in his heart he was done fighting it. He couldn't not now or ever and this moment here and now is what matter.

"Then let just be together now and not worry bout the future." She told him as she kissed him again.

He kissed her back as he wrapped his arms around her and they fell onto the bed. She ran her hands down his back and pulled his t-shirt up he broke the kiss and help her get his shirt off and then trailed kissed down neck and cross her collar bone and back up to her mouth as he helped me take off my swimming suite and then his jeans, which was not that easy sense they where wet and plastered to his body. Then we were both naked.

"Are you sure?" He asked again pulling way to look into my eyes.

"Yes" She said and to prove it she reach over into the night stand and pulled out a condom. He put it on and thrust into me and we made love.

" I love you ." She said laying with my head on his chest listening to his heart beat and closed my eyes.

"I love you too." He said kissing the top of my head and then we both went to sleep.

When Jude wake up it was starting to get dark and she was still in Tommy's and he was dead to the world. She carefully pulled away from Tommy and got out of bed and grabbed a pair of shorts and a tank top and went into the bathroom and took a shower. When she came out he was still asleep. She smiled as she picked up her guitar and headed down stairs.

That is where Tommy found her an hour later. He stood in the door way and listened to her singing softly.

(Song is Did I tell you that I love you today? Song by Rebecca Lavelle)


Did I tell you that I love you today?
Have I looked into your eyes?
Cause I've taken down that last remaining wall
and showed myself to you

As I am
All my faults
All my thoughts
All my yearning

Oh I love you
Always have and always will
and I wanna face this moment
Hold it near
Hold it deep
Hold it still

Did you know how scared I used to be
Scared for you, scared of me
But taking down this barrier
and touching you at last
has broken all that down

Into dust
blown away
Now there's us
and we're real

Oh I love you
Always have and always will
and I wanna face this moment
Hold it near
Hold it deep
Hold it still

Oh I love you
Always have and always will
and I wanna face this moment
Hold it near
Hold it deep
Hold it still

Did I tell you that I love you today...

"That is beautiful girl." Tommy said when she was don't singing . She screamed and jumped.

"Damn don't do that, Quincy, how long have you been standing there?" She asked laying down the guitar, got up and started to walk over to him.

"Long enough to here that song Amazing girl." He told her as he meet her half way and kissed her.

"I know me to that is why I had to wrote it. So you really like it." She asked when he pulled way.

"Yes." He said kissing her on the forehead.

"It our song." She told him as she hugged he.

" I know." Was all he said as he hugged her back. This was their time and he was not going to let anything keep him form enjoying it. He thought with a smile.

A/N : That it for now please review and let me know that you think. Please I would love the feed back so I know if I am doing this right.
Tanya