Chapter 4

The rest of the weekend flew by. It was Monday morning and Alison was nervous. She wasn't nervous about school she was nervous about seeing the brunette again. All Alison could think about Sunday was Emily. How she was so sweet and kind to her Saturday at her home. Emily did pull her in the pool by faking an injury and Alison was mad at first when it happened. But now that she looks back at it she laughs. She thinks it was kinda cute of Emily to do that to her. But shes confused more than ever about the feelings she is having for Emily. No guy has ever caused butterflies in her stomach or made her have goosebumps by just a touch. So she decided to call her older sister Charlotte and see if she could meet her for coffee after school.

Alison was getting ready to leave for school and called out to Jason, "Come on Jason I do not want to be late on the first day."

"I'm coming, calm down,"said Jason.

Alison and Jason get into her car and drive off to school. She parks beside the other girls. She barely puts the car into park and Jason is already jumping out the door. Once Alison was out of the car she happened to look across the parking lot and sees Emily parked beside Toby and Noel. Shes talking to both of them and it looks like an intense conversation. But before she knew it they were laughing. Seeing Emily smile brings a smile to Alison's face. Before she can stare at the brunette any longer Spencer jumps in front of her with the other girls.

"So who's ready for junior year? I know I am, I cannot wait to go on college visits," said Spencer.

"Only you Spenc would be excited about going on college visits and taking the ACT," replied Aria.

"You know what I'm excited about? Now that we are considered upper class man we can do whatever we want," said Hanna.

"You guys are too caught up in all of the extra things. Look how far we have come, it makes me sad because before we know it we will be graduating," said Aria.

Alison was listening to their conversation but she happened to glance up and see Emily looking at her with a smile. Emily waves at her from a distance and Alison returns the smile and waves back. This girls catch that Alison isn't paying attention to them anymore and that her focus is on someone else so they look to see who it is.

All three girls start smiling and giggling. Alison notices that they just saw what happened and tries to put on her best mean face. She then speaks to them, "What Emily was just waving at us so I was being polite and waving back."

The girls look at each other with sincerity and Spencer speaks up, "Ali you know that we love you for you. It's okay if you like her and want to talk to her. We support you."

Alison begins to grow angry inside, but she knows Spencer is just trying to be nice. But Alison still doesn't even understand herself what is going on. She just gives the girls her known look and storms off into the school without them.

Emily notices the tension across the parking lot and sees Alison storm off into the school. She looks back at the girls who look puzzled. So she and the guys decide to head over to them and see whats going on.

"Hey ladies, whats wrong with Alison," said Emily.

"We don't really know. We were just trying to be nice and talk to her about something personal and she got mad and stormed off. We weren't even being mean we just told her it was okay and that we supported her," said Aria.

Noel walks up to Aria and puts his arm around her and speaks, "I'm sure Ali is just having a bad day. She might not be ready to talk about what is going on yet."

Everyone notices how cozy the two are and Hannah speaks before anyone else can, "So are you two a thing now?"

Aria looks up at Noel and they both share a smile and intertwine their fingers. Noel then speaks, "Yeah, I asked Aria to go get ice cream with me yesterday and I asked her to be my girl friend."

Spencer and Hanna were stunned. Spencer then spoke, "Aria you didn't even call to tell us! I'm really happy for you guys."

Everyone else agreed. Toby looked at the time on his watch and said, "Come on you guys we better head inside the bells gonna ring any minute."

Everyone headed into the school, and Emily immediately spotted Alison at her locker. She looked flustered, but she didn't want to go up and make things worse for the blonde. So she kept her distance.

Spencer, Hanna and Aria approached Ali at her locker, but before they could apologize for what happened in the parking lot the bell rang. They all went to their classes for the day.

Emily had her first class with Spencer, Aria, Hanna, Noel, Caleb, Toby and Alison. She was thrilled to have her first class with all her friends. The rest of the day consisted of having 2 classes with Hanna, Aria and Caleb. Then a class with Spencer and Toby. But she only had one class when it was just her and Alison. So she had a total of 2 classes with Alison and Alison would not look at her in either class or even acknowledge her. They all even sat at lunch together and Alison would not even look at her. Emily was becoming confused, she thought maybe she did something to make her mad. So Emily decided to wait for Alison after school at her locker to talk.

Alison approached her locker and saw Emily waiting for her. Emily then spoke, "Hey Alison, is everything okay?"

Alison didn't want to yell at her, but she lashed out anyways because that's what she does when shes scared, "No its not. I'm straight Emily, I like boys. You need to get it through your head and stop staring at me all the time." Alison couldn't believe she just said that to Emily. She regretted it all as soon as it left her mouth.

Alison could see the hurt in the brunettes eyes. Emily didn't cry though, in fact she got pissed. "I was just being nice and decided to come see if you were okay. But apparently all you can think about is me trying to get in your pants. Well news flash Alison not everyone wants you," said Emily. Alison couldn't believe Emily stood up to her and said that to her. It hurt hearing her say that. Emily didn't mean it obviously she was in love with the blonde. But before Alison could say anything Emily stormed off and out the door. Alison didn't realize it but their was a lot of people standing around when that happened. The girls heard everything so did Toby and Caleb. Toby looked at Spencer and ran out after Emily. He knew Emily was upset because she doesn't normally raise her voice to anyone. He knew what would follow and that would be tears running down Emily's face.

Alison then stormed off to her car. The girls were so confused, they have never seen anyone lash back at Alison. They decided they should check on Alison, but only send one of them that way Alison didn't feel like she was being cornered. So Spencer offered to go because she lived next door to Alison and they were close considering they were cousins.

Emily threw her stuff down at her car and started running until she came upon a tree where she collapsed underneath it. Her knees hit the ground and she began sobbing. She didn't even know why she was crying exactly. The blondes words hurt, but it wasn't something she hadn't heard before. How could she be so in love with this girl already and they haven't even kissed let alone have any type of intimacy. Before she knew it Toby caught up to her and put his hands on her shoulders. He pulled her up and wrapped her in a hug.

"Em, whats going on. Please talk to me," said Toby.

"I don't know Toby. I've never felt anything this strong in my life. It was like she tore my heart out of my chest back their and ripped it to pieces. I know we aren't even dating or have come anywhere close but, I feel like I have known her my whole life. When I'm around her my skin gets hot and my heart races. I know she says she is straight, but I feel like she feels it to. When I look in her eyes I can see it. I don't know what to do," said Emily as she cried into his chest.

"I know it's hard, but you just need to give her space. If she does feel the same way about you, which I think she does, then she will come to you. Alison isn't a person who shows her feelings. She doesn't let anyone in not even her parents. But seeing her with you, its like shes a complete different person. So don't give up. Look at me, I've been in love with Spencer Hastings since grade school and we are going on a date Friday," said Toby.

Emily jerked her head up and smiled as she spoke, ""Toby! Why didn't you tell me! That's awesome I'm so happy for you."

She happened to look past Toby and seen Hanna and Aria making their way over. Toby then spoke, "I'm always here for you. Just call me if you need anything." Toby passed the girls as they approached Emily.

"Hey are you okay, that was intense back their," said Aria.

"Yeah I should be okay. I just don't understand her. One minute shes smiling at me being nice and then the next shes biting my head off and ripping my heart out," said Emily.

Crap, she didn't mean to tell them the last part. But Hanna and Aria both pick up on it before Emily can take it back.

"Emily, we know you are gay and we are fine with that. We would like to be close friends with you. You don't have to hide your feelings from us. You can tell us anything. Ali is not like most people which you will learn more as you get to know her and we can help you by telling you more about her," said Hanna.

"We have never seen Ali so vulnerable and shes only like that when shes around you. I think that is what scares her the most," said Aria.

"Thanks you guys, it means a lot. You guys are great friends and I would like that a lot," said Emily as she wipes her last tears from her cheeks.

Aria and Hanna both give her a hug and they walk back to their cars. "Hey Em, would you want to grab something to eat after school," said Aria.

"Yeah I would love that, let me text my mom and let her know," said Emily.

Alison was sitting in her car in front of the Brew. She hadn't noticed that she had been sitting their crying for 15 minutes until she heard a knock on her car window. It was her sister, she climbed in the car.

"Ali, whats wrong," said Charlotte.

'I don't know CeCe. I don't feel the same. I'm starting to feel all of these feelings that I didn't even know existed. Its like one day I'm fine then the next its like I'm a complete different person," said Ali as she continued to cry.

"Ali, you need to be more specific. You can tell me anything you know that," said CeCe.

"Theirs this girl, she just moved her. I don't know whats wrong with me. I'm feeling all of these urges and my body is acting so different. I don't know whats wrong," Ali as she started sobbing harder.

CeCe reached her hand out and took Alison's in hers and said, "Ali, its okay if you have feelings for her. It doesn't change who you are. You are still my baby sister and I will love you no matter what. How does this girl make you feel when you are around her?"

Alison looks her sister in the eyes, she can tell shes being sincere. Something she doesn't normally see in her sister but it makes her happy to know she actually cares. After a few moments of silence she worked up the courage to say what she was feeling, "Well, she gives me butterflies in my stomach by just looking at her. When I look at her in the eyes its like she can see into my soul. Like she can see me for who I really am. Not the front I put up in front of everyone. Her eyes are so soft and sincere. When we she smiles even if its not at me, I get mesmerized and caught up in it. It makes my heart race. And when we accidentally touch my body ignites and I get goosebumps."

CeCe looks at her baby sister in awe. She has never seen Ali be so honest. It makes her happy that Ali is finally trusting her. CeCe then says, "It sounds like she is a pretty amazing girl. It also sounds like you like her a lot. And Ali that's okay, I will love you always it doesn't matter if you're with a boy or a girl."

Alison felt relieved, getting all of that off her chest. But her sister being so nice and supportive makes her feel better. She pulls CeCe in and hugs her tight letting the last few tears she had left run down her cheek. Alison for once in her life felt like herself and she was genuinely happy with who she was.