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Quinn's POV

So I woke up the next morning with a text message from none other than Manhands, I mean Rachel. (Sorry got use to calling her that)

Hey Quinn! How are you today? How about we meet up at the Lima Bean in say 1 hour? Hope to see you there!

-Rachel

So I got out of bed and got ready to go until I had the urge to puke.

So I rushed to the bathroom and just spilled my guts out.

Once I finished I brushed my teeth like 5 times until I got the taste of vomit out of my mouth.

And so I got in my car for the first time in a while and drove to the Lima Bean.

About 10 minutes later I got there. And I headed inside.

I quickly spotted Rachel and went up to her.

"Hi Rachel." I gave her a small smile.

"Hello Quinn I'm glad you could make it!"

As we sat down we ordered our food.

"So…how have you been?"

I gave her the how do you think I am I just lost my husband look.

"Right sorry. That was an inappropriate question."

"It's all right. Well horrible and stressed because I have absolutely no idea what to do with Sam's funeral."

I looked down trying not to cry.

"Oh if you want I can help you with the funeral."

I looked up.

"Rachel…no I can't. You have a wedding to plan and-"

"Oh Quinn it's no problem really. You can't plan a funeral in your state of condition. I

Mean this is all too depressing for you and your child."

"Umm thank you. I owe you one."

"No problem. Speaking on the baby, when are you planning to make an appointment.?"

"Well I don't know yet. I wanted to go with Sam but…"

"Well you should plan the appointment soon. To see that little angel is doing!"

"Your right. I will soon. Thanks Rachel you are a really good friend."

She smiled at me. And we continued our very long conversation.

2 weeks later…

Today is the saddest day of my life.

Today is Sam's funeral. I dress up and head my way to the funeral.

Once I make it there, I head my way to the funeral home.

"Hello Quinn... What do you think? Rachel says as she comes up to me.

"It's nice… Thanks Rachel"

"No problem. Come on the funeral will begin any minute now."

We head our way into our seats. I recognize someone I knew before.

"Hey Quinn. "

"Finn. It's been a while."

"Yeah. I'm really sorry about your loss."

"Thank you and congrats on your engagement."

He smiled. And the funeral began.

Everybody went and spoke about Sam.

Until finally came my turn.

I went up and said," well I had no speech prepared but I do have a song I would like to sing"

I headed toward the piano and sat on the bench.

I began to play the keys to the piano and played…

And now I'm all alone again nowhere to turn, no one to go to
without a home without a friend without a face to say hello to
And now the night is near
Now I can make believe he's here

Sometimes I walk alone at night
When everybody else is sleeping
I think of him and then I'm happy
With the company I'm keeping
The city goes to bed
And I can live inside my head

On my own
Pretending he's beside me
All alone
I walk with him till morning
Without him
I feel his arms around me
And when I lose my way I close my eyes
And he has found me

In the rain the pavement shines like silver
All the lights are misty in the river
In the darkness, the trees are full of starlight
And all I see is him and me forever and forever

And I know it's only in my mind
That I'm talking to myself and not to him
And although I know that he is blind
Still I say, there's a way for us

I love him
But when the night is over
He is gone
The river's just a river
Without him
The world around me changes
The trees are bare and everywhere
The streets are full of strangers

I love him
But every day I'm learning
All my life
I've only been pretending
Without me
His world will go on turning
A world that's full of happiness
That I have never known

I love him
I love him
I love him
But only on my own

I sobbed as hard as I ever done.

Rachel came over and hugged me.

"It's okay. Come on."

She took me to my seat. And I saw no tear that was dry.

And then they took the casket to bury him…

As they lowered the casket I couldn't handle it any more and had a breakdown.

"NO! PLEASE DON'T BURY HIM! PLEASE! LET ME GO WITH HIM! PLEASE SAM DONT LEAVE ME! PLEASE!"

Rachel grabbed me.

"Quinn calm down please it's not good for you or the baby."

I just sobbed.

And as people dropped flowers on his casket I took something out of my bag.

"Good bye Sam. I love you so much. And don't ever forget that."

I hugged the leather jacket one more time. And dropped it to the casket.

It was the leather jacket he use to own. Back in high school. He gave it to me one night and I have cherished it since then.

Tears flowed down my cheeks.

"I love him but only on my own…"

Well that was really depressing. The song was On My Own by Les Miserables cast.