A/N: My special thanks to Lor-mats, who sent me this song of Priscilla Ahn.


I recall all my life. There were many events that I didn't expect, that I didn't need. All I wished to be happy, to have normal life with job, sweet home, friends and love. Yes, I remember, that I dreamed about my wife. For me she should be more then my love she should be my soul mate, should be my half. At least I've thought so when I was young. But I didn't then take into account the cost of my dream. May be if I have known how this would hurt I would never be ready to put myself through that. And that would be the main mistake in my life. Because I've never give away all that I had and have.

I'm alive should have died in a plane crash
Four long years ago
Lost my hope, couldn't cope
With my fear of news on the radio

But I've got a long red cape
That's caught in the engine of a plane
That's flying way too low
Yesterday a hurricane had blown away my long red cape
And I, feel satisfied

I have family and home. I lost both. And I thought I would never find again. But then there was crash in which I should have died but I survived. Why?

I damned fate for not letting me die. I didn't want to continue my sufferings.

But I didn't understand that she fulfilled my wish.

I'm alive. I've found friends. I've found family. I've found love. I was happy. I got all I wished for.

I'm alive should have died
Four long years ago
Lost my hope, couldn't cope
With my fear of news on the radio

But my happiness didn't last long. I've seen my life destroying. I've seen my love dying. And I thought I would die too. I hoped for it. I prayed for it. But I'm alive. Why?

I damned fate for not letting me die. I didn't want to continue my sufferings.

I didn't understand why I survived again.

I'm in peace, I feel sweetly released
From all that I couldn't let go.
If I knew, what to do
The I guess I'd finally feel anew

I kept struggling with people, with fate, even with myself. Eventually that was me who doomed me to loneliness, only because I couldn't let go. I couldn't believe that I deserved to be happy. Recalled my life I understand now what I have to do. I let go my fears and accept who I am.

Yesterday a hurricane had blown away my long red cape
And I, feel satisfied

I did many things. Some were good. Some were bad. But I was living. I was living for others sake. I was living for my daughter. I was living because she needed me around. And I was with her. I was with her when she felt in love for the first time. I was with her when she entered the university. I lead her to the altar. And I know that my life isn't for nothing.

I'm in peace, I feel sweetly released
From all that I couldn't let go.
If I knew, what to do
The I guess I'd finally feel anew

But I can't wear my cape
'Cause I would be repeating a mistake

I just gotta let it go
I just gotta let it go
I just gotta let it, let it go, let it go
I just gotta let it go

I'm almost there but I'm still here. Finally I'm in peace with myself. I feel anew because I know what to do. I know what will be there. I let go. I look at the people around me. I know how they feel now. I know all of this pain because you think that now you lose something important, you lose someone. But you don't. They just don't understand yet. I don't leave them only go ahead. But I'll wait for them. I'll wait for them understanding and moving on. I'll wait for them finding peace as I did.

I don't leave you! I'll wait for you! And we will be together!

Yesterday a hurricane had blown away my long red cape,
And I feel satisfied

Now I know why you smiled. You've known then. You've known then it wasn't the end. And now I smile too. I smile because I know I'll see you soon. And I'll tell you about all those long days without you and all those short dreams with you.

Soon I'll be with you just wait a little. I have to say good bye.


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