"Tom." I heard someone whispering to me in my sleep. They lightly shook me and I woke up with a start. Lila was sitting right in front of me in nothing but her panties.
"Hello darling." My voice broke and she giggled. I coughed once and tried again, "What are you doing?"
She smirked at me and slowly crawled up towards me, "I just wanted to show my beautiful husband how wet he makes me." She gently palmed my growing erection and I groaned. "I know how stressed out you've been this week and I want to make it all better." She smiled at me.
"Oh Lila…yes please." I whispered as she started kissing down my throat. She lightly nipped me here and there which caused me to groan again.
"What do you want me to do, big boy?" She put her hands up my shirt, lightly rubbing my nipples. She continued kissing down my torso, down towards my trousers.
"Oh god, I want you to…I want you to suck me off."
"Whatever you want, sweetheart." She smiled up at me once more before pulling down my trousers and pants, releasing my erection. Lila gently started to kiss it up and down and then licked the tip. I moaned again, fisting her hair as she started to move up and down with her mouth. She took one hand and wrapped it around the base, gently squeezing me. She licked me all over before slowly pumping me. I hadn't had a release in several days and before long I was ready to explode.
"Oh Lila, baby, I'm so close."
"Daddy, wake up." She said but it wasn't her voice, it was….
Reilly jumped on me, ripping me from my beautiful dream. "Daddy, I wanna see mommy." He said quietly and I gently moved him to the side of me, trying to cover up my erection. I settled for a pillow over my lap and then turned to Reilly.
"I'm not sure if we can do that just yet, buddy. We should probably wait until she comes home." I fixed his curls to the best of my abilities.
"Well you're in luck because the hospital called. Apparently she's stable enough to come home." I turned to see my mother standing in the doorway.
"Oh…well then go get dressed Reilly!" He immediately jumped from my bed and ran towards his room. My mum looked at the pillow in my lap and raised an eyebrow.
"Don't you dare say a thing." I mumbled and she laughed before leaving me alone. I rubbed the sleep out of my eyes and got up to get dressed. I put on my simple v neck white shirt, black leather jacket, trousers and my boots. I walked out to the living room to see Reilly ready to go in his Loki t-shirt which made me smile.
I bent down next to him and hugged him. "Now Reilly, mommy doesn't remember you right now so you can't treat her like you always treat her. I'm going to introduce you to her when we get there, do you understand?"
He smiled at me, "Yes daddy." He replied and I picked him up and took him out to the car. After strapping him in we drove to the hospital and I walked up to the front desk, requesting Lila.
"She'll be right down Mr. Hiddleston." The receptionist replied and smiled at me. I took a few steps back to wait for her arrival. After a couple minutes I heard footsteps approaching and I looked up seeing Lila with a male nurse. A male nurse who was looking at her like he wanted to eat her. My blood boiled and I quickly made my way over to them. Lila looked up and gave me a relieved smile before looking nervously back at the nurse. I stepped in between them and wrapped my arm protectively around her.
"Hello darling." I said in a strained tone, ushering her away from him. I felt her wrap her arm around me and I slightly smiled at the feeling.
"Thank you so much. I'm pretty sure he was about to push me up against the wall if you hadn't come so soon." She whispered to me as we made our way out the doors.
"Has he been bugging for a while?" I asked nervously, looking down at her.
"Just since this morning…what a creep." She snorted and I laughed whole heartedly.
"I'm sure you could've dealt with him just fine." I whispered in her ear and wrapped my arm around her tighter.
"No shit!" She skipped away from me towards the car, leaving me smiling behind her. Then I remembered something…
"Lila!" I caught up to her and she spun around. "Um, I brought our son today. He's really been missing you and I thought that maybe you would like to meet him…" I trailed off and she looked down nervously.
"Oh yeah…our son. I forgot about that." She tucked a strand of hair behind her ear before looking up at me. "Do I have to like…breast feed him of anything like that?" She crossed her arms in front of her chest and blushed.
I broke out into giggles which seemed to startle her. "No darling, of course not. He's three years old now, we feed him normal food." I tugged her hands away from her body and kissed both of them. "Would you like to meet him?"
"Sure…" She replied, seeming unsure of herself. I held her hand and led her to the car. I opened the backseat, revealing Reilly to her.
"Lila, this is Reilly. Reilly say hello to mommy." Reilly smiled shyly at her and Lila returned the smile.
"Um, hi Reilly." She tousled his hair awkwardly and then took a step back. Reilly looked disappointed so I leaned in and kissed his cheek.
"Remember what I said…" I whispered to him and then tickled his sides which caused him to laugh. I stood up straight and looked back at Lila who looked confused. "Shall we go?" I asked, opening her door for her.
She slid in and I ran around to my side, getting in and starting up the car. I looked over at Lila who was looking back at Reilly. Reilly was staring right back at her in awkward silence so I cleared my throat.
"So do you have any questions?" I asked, breaking her out of her trance. She looked over and smiled sheepishly.
"I guess I just don't know what to do. I mean…what if I break him?" She frowned, looking down at her hands.
"You won't break him. I'll teach you everything." I smiled over at her and then looked back at the road. I noticed her shift in her seat, keeping her eyes on her hands.
"Mommy's weird." I heard Reilly whisper in the backseat. I quickly looked over at Lila who looked to be on the verge of tears.
"Reilly!" I yelled at him while trying to reach Lila. She pulled away from me and looked out the window. I heard her sniffle a couple of times before whispering "It's fine."
"Lila he just doesn't understand what's going on. Give him some time and I'm sure you two will be best friends." I hopefully smiled but let it drop when I saw the frustration in her eyes.
I pulled into our driveway and got out to get Reilly. Lila was already storming towards the house and I quickly followed suit. I opened the door and took Reilly to his room for a nap. "I'm going to talk to mommy, you stay here." I whispered to him and walked out to find Lila on the living room couch with her hands balled up into fists.
"Lila, its fine." I whispered when she looked up.
"No it's not! I don't even remember my own god damn kid! Nothing is fine about that Tom, nothing is fine! I still think I'm just starting to be an adult. I'm in no position to be a wife or a mother! Do you see my side of things? Its one thing to be married to a complete stranger but to have a son is just absurd. I'm supposed to love him unconditionally but I don't! I don't love you and I don't love him and I don't know what to do with myself! I fucking hate this Tom!"
She stood up but I grabbed her arm, "Let go of me!" She screamed before running into our bedroom and locking the door. That was the first of many nights that I would cry.
