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Chapter Three:Dirty Dreams

BPOV:

I could not believe my eyes. Jacob Black was standing in front of me. He had grown several inches taller since I saw him last. His body was still built like a roman god. It was sickening to think that all of that gorgeous hunk of a man was wasted. I watch as he seem to be staring at me with shock. I was not sure if this was a good thing or bad? When he finally spoke I was relieved to hear that he was just as thrown by the changes in me as I was with him.

When everyone sat at the table I found myself having nowhere to sit except beside him. I stared down at my plate as he said the meal prayer. I knew I was supposed to close my eyes but I was still too stunned to think straight.

The man, no Father Jacob, was hotter than I remembered. My panties were already dampening just from being in the same room as him. I knew this had to be a sin to think of a man in cloth in such a sexual way but I could not stop myself. Maybe when I went to confessions I could confess to my desire to wanting to fuck Father Jacob senseless. Yeah, that would just sound great to a priest hearing a confession that a woman wanted to screw one of them. God, what was wrong with me?

I had to go out on a date and fast. I was so sexually deprived that I was now lusting over a freaking priest. My dad would die of shame if he could hear my thoughts right now. Yeah, he would definitely lock me up in a cell. It might be a padded one at that.

I was relieved when Leah handed me a bowl of food. I was putting food on my plate and not even considering what it was exactly. I was still trying to focus on the fact that the one man I had always desired above all others was sitting next to me and he was unattainable. He was so unattainable it wasn't even funny.

"So Bella what have you been up too?" Jacob asks curiously as he flashed me a sweet smile.

I felt my thighs clench tightly together. The boy who grew up to be even more sexier as a man still had that award winning smile that always made my private parts tingle.

"I…umm…I went to college and then came back here." I tried to speak with an even tone although my heart was beating against my chest so hard I was sure that I had some sort of a mini stroke.

"What did you major in?" He continued to ask about me. I was so damn wishing someone else would speak for me since it was hard to think straight while my stomach was raveled in knots.

"Business. I am actually um…doing photography at the moment." I hoped I was making sense. My ears were ringing and my head felt quite blurry with him so close to me. I kept my eyes down at my plate while I spoke to him. I hoped no one else at the table noticed how odd I was acting.

"Wow. Photography, uh. Do you own your own business?" He asks as he slips the spoon full of potatoes in his mouth. I watch as he licked the spoon. I bit down on the tip of my tongue. The pain helps me focus.

"No. I actually work for Alice Cullen. She is a wedding coordinator and I do pictures for her clients." I rambled as I pick up my glass of soda and sipped on it. My throat felt so parch.

"Why don't you have your own business?" He asks as he placed another spoonful of potatoes in his mouth. I watch as his tongue darted out between his lips to lick a little smidge of potatoes from them. I gulped hard. I turn my head away for a moment as I caught my breath. The man had no clue of the severe affect he was having on me.

I wondered for a moment what it would be like to lick those full lips. Would they feel as soft as they looked? I glanced at Leah with envy. She had definitely gotten a chance to kiss his lips in the past before he threw away his life to becoming a priest. Damn I hated her. Damn her.

"Bella?" Jake frown at me as I turn back to face him with a bewildered look.

"Uh, what?" I swallowed hard as I realized that I had got so caught up in my thoughts that I forgot his original question.

"Your own business?" He reminded me.

"Oh. Well, I started out doing the photo thing as a hobby and it turn out people really liked my photos so I did a few sittings until Alice offered me a job as her very own personal photographer for her small business." I replied trying to sound mature and professional. I glanced around the table and saw that everyone was staring at me with a strange look on their faces. No doubt they were wondering what the hell was wrong me tonight.

"That sounds interesting." He answered as he glanced around the table.

We look at one another for a brief moment before he began to talk to everyone else around the table. I was so relieved the attention was off of me. I felt Leah kick me under the table but I refused to look at her. I knew she was probably lusting after Father Jacob as much as I was. I did not want her to see just how badly I wanted him. She would give me all kinds of hell about later.

After dinner Sue served Jacob some peach pie. I declined. I just wanted to leave as soon as possible. It wasn't that I did not like seeing Jacob after all this time but it was causing me to feel a little boxed in. I could not understand why being in the same room with him was having such a strange effect on me. He was just a man. Okay, he was a drop dead gorgeous make me want to scream at the top of my lungs kind of man. Still, I had been around tons of cute and even sexy guys since Jacob. I hated feeling so perverted. I mean who lusts after a priest? None of my friends that I knew of had ever spoken of such a fantasy. I had to be the freak. The odd ball.

Charlie's phone rang and he walks out of the kitchen to take the call. A few minutes later he returns to say he had to leave right away. Something about a small fire out at the Watson's place. He was afraid old man Watson had gone off on one of his drinking binges and set the place a blazing. I assumed that Jacob would ride along with him since he was his ride here but instead good old Charlie turn to me for assistance.

"Hey Bella can you give Jacob a ride back to town. I mean you only live about ten minutes from the church." He suggested.

I felt my mouth open wide and I was pretty sure my jaw dropped to my feet. Why me Lord? I am trying to be a good girl here and not lust after one of your disciples and here you are putting the man in my vehicle. Why are you putting this much temptation in my path? You know my weakness.

"Sure." I closed my mouth and obediently nodded my head.

I felt Leah kick me again. This time I turn and glared at her. She was really starting to piss me off with the damn kicking.

"What?" I hissed as I stared hard at her.

"I need help with the dishes." She nodded her head toward the kitchen area. I got up and followed her.

Jacob and Seth were discussing things pertaining to the community center when I left the room.

"What is wrong with you?" She demanded with her hands on her hips.

"Nothing." I rolled my eyes. "I don't like being kicked. This is not fourth grade."

"Well you could have fooled me. You were acting so damn bashful with Jacob that I thought perhaps you still had that damn crush on him." Leah stared at me with a cocky grin on her face.

My stomach sunk to the ground. How did she know about my crush on Jacob? I never revealed that to anyone! I felt my whole body go cold as ice as I glared furiously at her.

"What crush?" I demanded.

"Oh come on Bella. When you guys were kids you tag behind Jacob all the time. You would smile and pretty much kiss his ass anytime he was near you." Leah huffed with a disgusted look on her face.

"I don't know what the hell you are talking about." I declared as I placed my hands on my hips.

"Please. Whatever Bella. " Leah snap at me as she began washing the dishes.

"I can't believe you. I hardly look at him." I defended myself.

"Exactly. That is how I knew. Honey the man is drop dead fine. I could not stop myself from adoring his good attributes. So when you refused to look at him I knew you were thinking of more than just how cute he was." She began her explanation.

"It's okay Bella that you find him handsome. You just need to keep in mind he is a PRIEST not a man. He is no longer looking for a sexual partner or hell even a future wife. He is married to the church now. Nothing will change his mind from that." Leah continued.

"Look Leah I don't need a damn lecture from you. Yeah I think he is very handsome but I swear to you that was as far as my thoughts went on the subject." I was grinding my teeth at this point. I hated when Leah was smarter than me. I hated how she could read me like a book. It just sucked big time. I rarely ever had leverage over her. She was constantly figuring out things about me. I hated how easy it was to read me.

"Okay. Just saying." Leah sighed heavily as she began to slip dishes into the sink.

"Bella." Seth called out as he walked into the kitchen.

"Yeah," I turn to smile warmly at him. I prayed that he was not aware of my interest in Jacob as well. Unlike Leah he would be very disappointed in me.

"When you're done with dishes Father Jacob needs that ride." Seth replied casually.

"Okay." I snap at him. He looks at me with a hurt expression.

"Sorry. I need to help Leah first." I strolled over to the sink and began to assist Leah with the dishes. I was thankful that neither of us spoke another word while we finished our chore.

"I really appreciate you giving me a ride back to town." Jacob stated politely.

I smiled back at him hoping that my nervousness around him didn't show. I had walked him up to the church doors.

"No problem." I answered.

"I am really impressed with how well you have grown up." Jacob stated as his eyes lock with mine.

"Thanks." I chewed on the corner of my lip.

"I am glad to be back. I just wish…well…I guess I wish it had not taken so long to get here." Jake replied sadly.

"It's not like you could have put in for a job here before now, right?" I ask curiously.

"Exactly. I mean there were no openings available here until recently. I was more than happy to come when they requested it of me." He answered with a slight smile.

"Do you do everything they ask of you?" I couldn't help but wonder how he could stand to be so obedient all the time.

"Pretty much." He chuckled softly.

"I don't have that kind of will power. I mean sure I did what was expected of me from Charlie but every once awhile I made mistakes or acted out rebelliously." I knew I sounded lame but it was true. I could not spend my life being perfect the way he was expected to be.

"It's easy when you love God as much as I do. I know that there is a heavenly blessing waiting for me when I leave this world." He explained with a crooked smile.

"What if you're not a priest or a nun? I mean should I not expect the same reward?" I knew I was sounding bitter but it didn't seem fair that he was expected to be better than most people in order to receive a reward that would come to all of us in due time.

"Sure. I just…well…it's hard to explain." He ran his hand through his hair giving me a confused look.

"I understand." I really didn't but I could see he was having a difficult time trying to explain it to me.

"Really? Because sometimes I don't." He admitted.

"Seriously?" I was thrown by that response.

"I don't know. I just know that I enjoy what I do. I know that each day I get up I have a reason to wake up. I mean God is supposed to shine through me. I am supposed to be an example to others." He continued to try and convince me why he enjoyed being a priest. I wasn't sure if he was ever going to convince me that giving up sex and marriage and future children was ever a good thing.

"Well I should be going." I was about to wave goodbye when his arms wrap around me. I felt like I was melting in his strong arms. He smelled like ivory soap and summer rain. It was an incredible mixture. I wanted him to hold me in his arms forever. How many times in the past when I was younger did I imagine him holding me like this? At least a million.

His arms released me as he stared into my eyes. I swallowed hard. I thought he might actually kiss me when he caressed my face with his hand and then took a step back.

"You're a remarkable young woman Bella. Someday you will make a man so happy and blessed to have you in his life." He replied in a deep husky voice.

I wanted to scream at him. "Be that man Jacob." But I knew it would fall on deaf ears.

"Thanks." It was the only thing that I could say without revealing how I truly felt toward him.

I turn and walk away as fast as my feet would take me. I slipped in the car and saw that he was still standing there on the doorstep watching me as I drove away.

It had been a freaky ass night. Seeing Jacob after all these years and then having him hold me in his arms was just too much for me to handle. I knew that when I went to bed tonight I was definitely going to have one of those incredible and now extremely sinful fantasies of Father Jacob.

JPOV:

I took a quick shower before I prepared myself for my nightly prayers and slipped in between my sheets.

I laid in the darkness thinking of all the things I needed to do the following day when my mind wander off to Bella.

She had grown up so much in the past ten years. I wasn't sure if I was pleased or disappointed that she had not found the right man to settle down with and start a family. I had picked up on the fact that she did not seem to like to discuss her personal life.

When she started to leave I don't know what came over me when I pulled her into my arms. I had only meant it to be a friendly hug from one friend to another but when I inhale her I smelt the sweetest scent of vanilla and honey in her hair. It seems to intoxicate me. She felt so warm and curvy. When I looked into her eyes I saw such pain and confusion. She was definitely lost in this world. For all purposes she appeared to have it all together but I sensed that she was truly hurting and confused within. When I reach out to touch her face I felt a tingling sensation course through my fingertips to my wrist and up into my arm. Her skin was so soft. She continued to smile at me but her eyes well they were saying something entirely different. If I didn't know better I would have wondered if she found me attractive somehow. I knew it was a ridiculous and even a vain thought but something about her eyes had made me feel so much a man rather than the priest I am.

When she walked away I felt myself longing to call out to her so that we could spend more time together. Once again I was reacting in an improper way. What the hell was going on with me? Bella was a beautiful young woman who deserves much happiness. I could not give her the things in life that she would want. In fact I could not be anything other than a friend and mentor to her from this point on. So why did I feel so disappointed when she left? Why did I long to touch her face and hold her in my arms?

I knew that this was what we called lust. I could not lust after Bella. It was a mortal sin. I said a few extra prayers before I finally found sleep take me over.

I was standing in the forest staring up at the sky. It was a beautiful day. The sun was shining and not a cloud could be seen. I heard a sound. Turning to my left I saw Bella. She was smiling at me as she walked toward me in a white robe. I was frowning at her. Why was she wearing a white robe? It was too pretty of a day to be wearing a robe.

She stood in front of me continuing to smile at me.

"I knew you would come." She spoke to me in a deep sensual voice.

"Of course I would come for you." I felt my heart racing as my hands lifted up and cupped both sides of her face.

"I thought I would never feel this way again." She spoke as she licked her lips.

I found myself staring at the two pink lips that seem to beacon me to come closer to them.

"I know how you feel." I agreed as I licked my lips and lean into kiss her. They were smooth and silky. Our lips pressed together. I heard her moan as her tongue slip out pushing my lips apart.

I heard a small voice in the back of my head warning me that this was wrong. I was not supposed to encourage this sort of behavior from her but I could not stop myself. My lips parted as her tongue slip into my mouth. Our tongues dance against one another. I felt my hands slip from her face to wrap around her neck as I push my tongue further into her mouth. I heard her soft moans slip between her lips.

Her hands began to roam up and down my chest. I wanted to feel her hands all over me. I knew it was wrong but I didn't care.

Her hands wrap around to my back pulling our bodies close together. Our chests were pressed against each other. I could feel her heart beating as our kiss deepened. My hands slid down the sides of her arms until they ended on her waist. I gripped them hard as push my pelvis up against her. I was rock hard. I watched as her eyes flew open staring up at me with shock. I wasn't sure if she wanted to stop or if she was enjoying what I was doing to her?

"Bella." I released her mouth as I gave her a moment to consider what we were doing. She smiled happily up at me.

"Please Jacob show me how a woman should be touch." She stated softly as her hands roamed down to my hard shaft. I jump slightly. It had been so long since a woman had touched me there.

I smiled wickedly down at her as I began to untie the robe. Her eyes never wavered. I knew she wanted this as much as I did. My heart was racing. My stomach was in knots. My head was spinning out of control. Warning bells were going off. I knew what I was doing was a sin. I knew that this woman did not deserve to lose her virtue due to my lustful needs but yet I could not stop myself.

I push the robe open to expose her sweet delicious body before my eyes. With gentle ease I push the robe off of her shoulders. It slips off and landed in a heap around her feet. Out in the forest underneath the beautiful sky my Bella stood naked before me.

"Do you think that God would approve of this?" Bella asks me as she licks her lips a few times.

I stand frozen. Why would she ask me such a thing? She knows that God does not approve of what I am about to do with her? Was this a test? Was she Satan in disguise? The sky turns from beautiful to suddenly dark. Lighting shoots across the sky. Thunder booms loudly.

I look at Bella but she is no longer there. Instead all I see is her robe on the ground.

"Bella. Bella?" I began to call out for her. She does not answer back.

I fall to my knees as I lift up her robe and inhale her sweet scent still on it.

"What have I done?" I cry out to the sky as the cloud above me bursts open and rain begins to pour furiously on top of me.

My chest is heaving as I open my eyes to the semi darken room. I sit up in the bed. I feel a pain in the center of my legs. Looking down I see the nice little tent my dream has created. I growl out angrily. Masturbation is a sin in the sense that you are pleasuring yourself. It is considered a misuse of the sex organ. Still, the pain is too much to handle. Reaching under the blanket I stroke myself a few times hoping it will ease some of the discomfort but instead I find myself remembering how Bella's body had looked naked in my dream and a few minutes later I release a load of cum into my sheets.

Guilt washes over me but I remind myself that I am still a man after all. I get up and try to clean up my mess so that our maid does not discover it later when she cleans up. Glancing at the clock by the bed I realize that it is only six am. I can't go back to sleep after that. I spot my jogging shoes. Slipping into a plain pair of black sweats and my shoes I decide a morning run might help clear my thoughts and help me release this sudden sexual tension that has built up in me ever since my eyes landed on Bella Swan.