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A/N: This chapter's title comes from Doves song There Goes The Fear. Hope you'll like it. Please review, reviews mean so much to me and it encourages me to write.


Golden Fallen Heart

Chapter 4: There Goes The Fear

After ten minutes, she still stood where he had left her, gazing through the space. He was already gone but she still looked. She gulped. Her eyes couldn't hold the weight of her tears anymore. A tear glide down to her left blushed cheek gracefully. She didn't bothered to wipe it away. Another tear fell down to her right cheek. She felt empty. She felt used. She felt dirty. As another tear made its way down to her left cheek, she burst into tears. She sobbed looking through the emptiness and feeling the emptiness he had left her with. It was late at night again, the corridors were deserted as most of the Hogwarts students were in bed. She heard footsteps behind her as she was about to break down to the floor but she hold herself still. She wiped away her tears fast. She turned to face the owner of the footsteps. It was Albus.

"Rose?" he sounded anxious "What's wrong? I thought, I heard you sob."

Rose was so relieved to see Albus, she hugged him and buried her face on his shoulder.

"Hey, Rosie! What's going on? You've been acting weird today..." Albus was talking with a calming voice.

Rose started to sob again. Albus tried to consult his cousin. "Shh, it's alright..."

After several minutes, Rose stopped crying and separated herself from Albus.

"Now, tell me, who am I going to hex?"

Albus managed to let a weak chuckle out of her.

"I'm tired, Al. It's been an awful day." Rose turned around to leave and Albus sighed.

"You don't tell me anything anymore, Rose."

Rose turned to face him and smiled weakly. "You know I do, I tell you things even Lily doesn't know. I'm just tired, Al."

Albus shrugged. "Yeah, fine. See you tomorrow. Rest, ok?"

"Okay, sleep tight, Al."


The next morning, Rose woke up rather angry. She was really impatient as she waited for Lily to leave her room and she never laughed at a joke Hugo made. When Hugo made a joke about a Hufflepuff girl which he had turned down, she got really upset.

"That's really immature, Hugo! She must be feeling awful, just grow up a little, will you?"

Hugo frowned.

"Merlin's beard, sis, what's with the temper today?"

Rose just shrugged him off and walked faster so Lily, Albus and Hugo were left behind. She could hear them whispering about her.

"What's wrong with her?" she heard Hugo whisper to Lily.

"Wish I knew but she hasn't told me anything. Merlin, she didn't even greeted me this morning." Lily sighed.

"She's having a bad week, I s'ppose." Albus whispered to them but didn't say a word about her crying the other night.

Just then, Rose spotted Scorpius Malfoy blocking her way to the Gryffindor table, she pushed him.

"Move, you useless twat." Scorpius was caught off guard. She walked along with a angry speed to the Gryffindor table but before she could go more then three steps, she felt a grip on her right arm. She turned so fast, her ginger hair blew and hit some Ravenclaw girls on the face.

"Dare I ask what's with the temper, weasel?" Scorpius asked her with a underestimating tone.

"No. And don't you dare ask me anything, you fucktard." Rose answered him with such anger in her voice it had frightened a couple of Hufflepuff first years.

Scorpius laughed. "Guess someone's on their period today." his voice was a little too loud, considering they were in public. Half of the Hogwarts students were already watching them and the other half had just abounded their toasts or stopped their chat to watch them after Scorpius's line.

"You're so ignorant towards people's feelings, when a girl is angry you directly assume they are on their period." she threw up her hate for him. "No wonder why you can't keep a girlfriend longer then a week, cockroach."

Scorpius stood speechless for a moment and Rose advantaged that.

"Well, but it's my fault to expect a filthy little snake like yourself to understand the concept of feelings or sensibility. Sorry for expecting too much." before she turned around to walk her way to the Gryffindor table she threw him one last glare and just when she turned around she faced their Head Mistress, Professor McGonagall, who was frowning and had her arms crossed on her chest.

"Rose Weasley," she said with a cold, firm voice. "That is not an acceptable way of talking with a fellow Hogwarts student. Detention this friday afternoon."

Rose looked down ashamed, as she lowered her head, she saw Scorpius's smug smile on his face which made her stomach flutter and she got angrier with herself.
How could she still feel this after last night? Then she heard Professor McGonagall's firm and distant voice again.

"Don't look amused, Mr. Malfoy. I think it'll be best if you joined Miss Weasley this friday afternoon." Rose's eyes were fixed on the floor but she could still guess the exact expression Scorpius had just made. She groaned after Professor McGonagall left to teacher's table.

She took her place on the Gryffindor table quietly and fixed her eyes on her plate. She could feel all Hogwarts student's eyes on her, she hated when people started. After a spilt second, Lily took her place next to her, Albus and Hugo filled the spaces in front of him both looking at her frightened and shocked.

"What's gotten in you, sis?" Hugo asked.

"I'm just... A little stressed these days, ok? You know, that foul excuse of a wizard always annoys me anyways." Rose tried to make what she had just done sound as an usual thing for her but it wasn't still her brother played along.

"Yeah, what a disgusting bloke." he shrugged off. Rose stayed silent for a long while so Albus tried to change the subject.

"It's shame that you won't get to watch the Quidditch match, we are against Ravenclaw, I'm pretty sure we'll win."

but that subject didn't interest her, she just continued to look on her plate blankly while Hugo and Albus started to talk about the previous Quidditch game.

"Eat." Lily whispered softly to her. "It's your favorite, french toast." she placed a toast on her plate.

Rose pushed her plate away gently "I'm not hungry, Lil." she sounded tired.

"A Weasley refusing food?" Hugo exclaimed. "Don't let dad hear that, Rosie!"

They all laughed to cheer her up and she chuckled a little to make them feel comfortable. She looked up to them and her eyes immediately shifted to the Slytherin table, to his place but then she quickly looked away trying to avoid Scorpius's eyes. Fortunately, he was already gone so she didn't had any difficulty avoiding his glares.

"I just can't believe I'm going to spend a friday afternoon with Malfoy rather then watch you guys play." she sighed.

"We'll have more games, don't worry." Lily smiled at her.

"Just give him hell." Hugo winked at her.

"I know, you succeed in giving hell Rosie." Albus grinned at her "From my experiences."

Rose laughed.


The week passed faster then Rose Weasley could've wanted. Her detention was to clean Trophy Room with Scorpius Malfoy at 5 o'clock sharp until everything was as shiny as stars and no magic. She dragged herself to the Trophy Room.

Scorpius was already there when she arrived at ten past five.

"Are you always late, weasel?" Scorpius asked with his usual cocky attitude and his smooth voice.

"Oh, have I kept you waiting, Malfoy? How sweet of you to wait for me." her words were full with irony.

Scorpius didn't reply her and they started their work, Rose couldn't help but look over his work. After then minutes, she couldn't help herself and sighed,

"If you do it so sloppy, we won't be able to get out of here any time soon. Filch will check all of them and we'll have to do all of them again."

"Well, nothing's enough to satisfy Miss Perfect, I guess." he snorted. "And if it wasn't for you, we wouldn't be here darling. Remember?"

"I told you to stop calling me 'darling'." she sounded frustrated.

"Or what? You'll hex me?" Scorpius laughed with a mocking laughter.

"You think I won't?" Rose raised her eyebrow.

"You don't have the guts to do it, darling. You are just a pretty little girl with your perfect pink dresses and tea parties with your mummy and auntie." Scorpius talked with a mock baby tone.

"Stupefy!" she pointed her wand at him but Scorpius was faster then her and cast the protecting charm without saying it out loud.

He laughed out loud.

"Stupefy? Really? Well, your uncle hasn't taught you much has he?"

Rose sighed deeply with anger and bite down on her lip after licking it.

"What do you want from me? Reply to ever foul comment you make about me or my family? Where will it get you Malfoy? What do you really want fro me?" her words were full with anger and her voice was loud

Scorpius didn't answer her.

"Tell me, why did you kiss me? And what the hell 'I have no memory of it' means? Bloody hell!" She looked at him for what it felt like an lifetime to him, expecting an answer.

"Why did you called me all those names?" Rose walked closer to him, still feeling the anger inside her.

Scorpius felt the fear fill his insides. The fear of wanting Rose Weasley. The fear of not being able to resist her ravishing scent again or her tempting blue eyes. He didn't want to be under her spell again. Before he realized what he was saying, the words fell from his lips.

"Because I hate you." that was the fear talking, the fear of wanting a relationship with Rose Weasley.

Rose felt her eyes fill with tears and she looked up at the ceiling and then she looked away.

"Because I hate you, weasel. Are you really that thick ?" he tried to meet her eyes, she kept looking away.

He could feel his anger replacing the fear. He hated when she stayed silent. He hated the fact that he just told her that he hates her but she hasn't told him anything. He could feel the anger rise in him as she stayed silent. Rose was suddenly too interested in her work. Scorpius was panting, he had his eyes focused on Rose, he wanted to meet her eyes, he wanted to start another fight and another and another until she told the truth, the truth about why they had been fighting, competing, bickering, why she had tears in her eyes and why did she claimed she didn't care when she did. He wanted her to give him a reason, he wanted her to react to his sentence.

Rose could feel his panting breath, all of her desire to fight was gone. Suddenly all she wanted to do was to break down and cry but she didn't. She turned her back and walked away from Scorpius. They worked for an hour silently. Scorpius would open his mouth to say something with the anger he felt because of their unfinished fight but then he would close his mouth thinking he had said enough.

Rose didn't even make a voice during the silent hours, even her breathing became quieter. She had gotten her answer finally. Because he hates me, she thought to herself and she started the anger rise in her again. Why the bloody hell he hates me? Because of my surname? Screw him then, she thought as she finished her last piece of trophy. She walked to the door and she felt his grip on her arm again. She turned and faced him.

"Why do you hate me so much?" she asked furiously. It was his turn to stay silent. "What do you want from me?" she almost roared. She freed herself from his grip rather sharply. "Bloody hell..." she murmured to herself as she left the Trophy Room and a puzzled Scorpius behind her.


A/N: So, this turned out longer then I expected. Hope you liked it. Forgive me for my grammar, spelling and punctuation mistakes. Thank you for reading and please review, as always, a review would be lovely!