A/N – I don't own criminal minds

-Hate is a strong word-

Emily couldn't believe what she had just done, she opted for the chickens way out, she could have stayed and lived with the horrid feelings between the team, which would lead to there break up, at least she was the only one leaving with this option.

She knew the moment she got in the the BAU everyone was going to ask her questions, beg her to stay, but it wasn't going to work her mind was set on getting out of there.

As the lift pinged, she took a long, deep breath preparing her for the next moments that she brought her self to, heading to the glass door which led to the bullpen she was slightly pissed that no members of her team where there to even say bye, but she was shocked to see someone had already packed her stuff in to a box, "Well that's great, they cant get rid of me faster enough.", she tried to stop the painful tears which fall from her dark brown eyes, she couldn't help it.

Grabbing the large box she stood there for a second looking around at everything she was going to have to let go, in her heart she wanted to stay, but she knew she had to go, so shaking the feeling of, she slowly walked out the bullpen, to bump in to the team, no words where passed just glances, until Dave stupidly questioned her, "So your really doing this",

"YES, im really doing this" Emily tried to shout but it came out like a nine year old school girl wanting her dinner money back.

"You don't have to go you know" Reid knew it wasn't going to make a deference.

"YOUR RIGHT, I don't have to go but you all made me, do u really think I want to rest of my working life with the people I will spend it ignoring me!" Emily shouted at the top of her voice at the 6 people who stood in front of her.

"Emily, please don't go." JJ and Pen, almost said together.

"It's funny isn't it you only speak to me when im about to leave, no one bothered when I tried to apologise, or when I was in the bathroom crying my heart out trying to think of what I could have done, no one cared to think about the many thoughts going through my head, this my be the chickens way out but it's a lot less painful then the other option." Emily growled in their faces, she need to stay strong but the tears, proved once again she wasn't.

"Sticking around with us, is a lot more painful." Avery stressed out Hotch quietly commented on Emily's outburst.

"Well yeah it is but suiced, don't all look at me like that, I though about it you know, I came so close to doing something that would stop the thoughts." Emily now crying enough to fill a river.

The team was shocked by what had just slipped through the mouth of there friend. "Yeah, also thanks for packing my things." Emily stated before turning to walk of"

"We didn't pack you things" A confused Morgan put it to the already heated conversation, Emily stopped in her tracks, "Don't try and cover your backs, please" Emily managed to say before the elevator doors opened and she stepped in.