Chapter Four; The Train of Thought

Alright I'm sorry that I haven't had much time to post chapters lately but I've been pretty busy. Anyway, here's the next chapter and I hope you enjoy it!

That night after I made sure that all of the kids were in bed I decided to take a walk inside the woods. I felt helpless because my daughter thought that I was betraying her by deciding to start dating again. As I continued my walk through the woods a bright light started shinning into my eyes that I noticed was coming from the clearing up ahead.

I decided to follow it and found out that it led me straight over to a glowing glistening pool of water. As I slowly stepped towards it it stopped glowing bit by bit until I stopped right in front of it and squatted down to look at my reflection but I was surprised to see that the man inside the pool didn't match my face. For it had been my previous incarnation looking back up at me.

When I touched my face my other self touched it in the exact same spot. Then all of a sudden I saw him standing next to a reflection of a woman with long blonde flowing hair. "Rose?" I whispered as the two people inside the water turned to face each other and wrapped their arms around each other's necks before starting to kiss and passionately make out with each other.

I glanced up and looked over at the rushing waterfall behind me and a group of fireflies that were lighting up a wooden sign attached to the rocks that read;

The Memory Pool

I read it silently to myself before looking back down inside the water. The reflections of our past selves were gone. I slowly reached my hand towards the magical enchanted water when suddenly I felt myself fall into it with a humongous splash. I held my breath once I went under the water and when I opened my eyes I was no longer in the water but inside a black tunnel. I removed my sonic screwdriver from my pocket and shone it around.

"Rose?" I whispered loudly. "Rose where are you?" That's when all of a sudden a great enormous red and white train (with shiny white runners) rolled down the tracks that had a yellow circle in the front of it with a picture of a pink brain in the middle of it. It pulled to a stop in front of me before the engineer pulled the lever that opened the door. He was a young man dressed in a shiny red uniform with a matching cap and had dark brown hair with a matching mustache.

"All aboard!" he exclaimed.

"Who are you?" I asked him.

"My name is Brian and I am the engineer to the train of thought." He explained.

"The what?" I questioned him with uncertainty.

"The train of thought, I can take you to any memory that you want to see." He explained.

"Really?" I wondered. "Any memory?"

"Yes," he began with a nod. "any one."

"Then take me to see to see Rose Tyler. I don't care how just do it." I told him.

"Alright, climb aboard." He told me as I stepped onto the train and made my way towards the back and sat down next to a young girl with dark brown hair and dark brown eyes. For some strange reason she had seemed familiar to me but I knew that was impossible since I never saw her before in my life, but she reminded me an awful lot of Cassie.

"Hi." I told her quietly with a small little wave hoping that I wouldn't frighten her.

"Hi." She said back.

"I'm The Doctor who are you?" I asked her as the train started to move.

"My name's Amber." She responded.

"Well that's a pretty name, I have a friend with that name." I told her. "Where's your mummy and Daddy?" I asked her but she simply just shrugged.

"I dunno." She replied.

"Do you mean you're an orphan?" I asked her but she just simply shrugged again. I looked out the window and saw that the train had finally made it out of the tunnel and was now chugging along the tracks up a deep hill. There was a great and beautiful meadow up ahead along with a shady apple tree. I recognized it as the place that Rose and I used to sit under and have picnics together.

Then as we passed into the woods we came a crossed a stone gate that looked like it led into some secret place. I realized that my hunch was correct when I saw that it was guarded by a couple of weeping angels. "That's odd." I whispered. "I thought this place was supposed to be memories of the past but I don't recognize that place." I said to myself.

"This is a place of things that have been, could have been, or that have existed even though you might not have known about it or remembered it." Amber told me.

"Wait a minute, does that mean that it includes whatever is on the train?" I asked her.

"I guess so." She began. "But I'm not sure really." She finished.

"Amber, what is your last name?" I asked her.

"Smith I think." She told me as my mouth gaped open.

"Oh my God, you're my daughter." I told her. "I mean you were going to be but_" I began.

"But what?" she asked me.

"Never mind. It's just really good to see you." I told her with a warm loving smile. I didn't want to have to explain to this innocent little child that she had died inside her mother's stomach. Besides the important thing is that she was here now and I finally knew what she would have looked like and been like. Tears of joy ran down my cheeks. I quickly brushed them away before I continued to look out the window when the train finally pulled to a complete stop.