Disclaimer: I don't own Charmed, only this idea, and part of it isn't even my idea, because I got the idea off of something in America's Next Top Model! Ok, I'll shut up now...

Yes, so new story. I've been holding back tons of ideas (some of which I'm glad I haven't written down because they suck!) but now I'm ready to burst! I have to get this one down on paper (or Word) because it's burning a hole in my brain. So, here's the FULL summary.

Summary: They don't know my past. They know nothing about me. They call me names and outcast me, but they have no clue what I've been through. They never will. And I watch him laugh and joke and have fun and I remember the last time I did. The last time I had fun. But does he have the slightest idea that he is the only one I want to see when I wake up? The only one I live for?

This is an excerpt from my wonderful latest story.


Six months later

Life was a whole lot better, I know. I could see the end of this dark tunnel, the one I had so long traveled through. I knew Paige wouldn't want me to waste my life away. Especially on her. She'd want me to be happy.

It was wrong to doubt him. To doubt that he actually liked me.

The phone rang and I raced to get it.

"Hello?"

"Hey," I heard. And I smiled. Imagine, me smiling. I haven't smiled in forever.

"Hello?" I asked. Had he hung up?

"Just wanted to hear your voice," he answered. I could hear his smile. And I liked that. But at the moment, all I could think about was that day. Not the day of Paige's kidnapping, or the day she died. Not even the day of her funeral. The other day, the day I almost lost someone else...

"That's sweet," I said. Still my mind was elsewhere. I wasn't listening to what he was saying.

"...are you ok with that?" he ended. I hadn't been listening, shit!

"Repeat that? Sorry, I didn't hear you," I said. He repeated what he had said. He couldn't make it to our date tonight. He was going out with another friend. "Oh, alright. Later."

"I love you," he said. My mouth dropped open. Nobody had said that to me in ages, not even my parents said it, though I know they still loved me, but they were afraid I'd rip their throats out.

"I love you too," I answered almost automatically.

"Good," he answered. "Later." And he hung up. I put the phone back in it's cradle. Wow.

-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-

On Monday, I walked into school, yes, still wearing black, but since I use temporary dye (Mom and Dad wouldn't let me use the real stuff), my hair was once again shining brown. I could tell that people were...well surprised.

I walked to my locker, not paying attention to the stares, and when I got there, Leo was there with his friends. But his back was to me. Him and his friends were talking, so I didn't interrupt them. But I did hear some things...

"Leo, when are you going to break up with her?" Mark asked. "This was just a scam, remember? You don't really like her-"

"It's just a way to embarress her in front of the whole school, I get it," Leo said irritably. My heart froze. I knew it. I knew it was just a joke. Too good to be true... I had just opened my locker and I slammed it shut. I started jogging down the hallway toward the doors, the way out.

-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-

I ran into the house, slamming the door behind me. Mom ran into the hall, eyes flaming, until she saw my tears.

"Sweetie, what's wrong?" Mom said. "Why aren't you at school?" I through my black bag down on the floor.

"It's just a scam. He never liked me, the bastard!" I screamed. Mom, instantly catching on, tried to hug me, but I kept pushing and pushing, until I finally just lost it and started crying.

"I'm so sorry, baby, I'm so sorry," Mom whispered. I sobbed into her shoulder. Mom pulled away to grab the phone and call the school to tell them I wouldn't be in today. After, I immediately went into the bathroom and dyed my hair black.

-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-

The next day at school, after homeroom, I went straight to my locker, got my books, and closed it. I started walking down the hall, my hair once again lining my face, my chocolate eyes averting everyone elses.

"Piper!" I heard him scream. I continued walking, faster, to get away from him. He was getting closer, I could feel it. I made a quick turn, into the girls' bathroom. I heard a sigh a couple seconds later, then the padding of feet going away. Life had took a turn for the worse.

Hold your head up high
You're never wrong

I slipped quickly out of the bathroom, keeping my eyes down on the ground. I was right all along. I had known it, but I hadn't followed my fucking instinct.

Somewhere in the right you belong
You would rather fight then walk away

At the moment, I felt like I could punch someone's face in, like I did to that kid two years ago when he asked about Paige. But I also felt like I could curl up into a ball of tears and cry the night away. Then die. Yeah.

What a lonely way to breath the air
What an unlovely way to say you care

But why? He said he loved me. Was that really part of his plan, to make me love him, then embarress me? It didn't really fit him, of course, neither did any of this. Shows how much I knew about him.

Now you're too far gone for me to save
And I never thought we'd come to this

Did Paige really want me this way? I bet she's looking down on me pitifully and telling herself, "How did she get here?" Life was full of mysteries, Paige. I just wish that you could've learned it on Earth, them sick bastards...

Maybe there's beauty in goodbye
(no one's wrong or right, you would rather fight, then you walk away)

Well, at least I'm not bringing down his reputation anymore. God, it scares me how bitter I've become. I shouldn't be like this. But I am... Maybe if I just let go...let go of the pain, it'd be able to move on... I know I'm not the prettiest person out there, but I'm beautiful enough to make a guy jealous enough he'd wish he'd never been born, right?

There's just no reason left to try
(now it's gone to far, look at where we are)

I could try. Today, after school, I could ask Mom to bring me to the mall, get me some colorful clothes. Not bright, but not black. Woah...Where was I? Oh, right, East Wing, going to Ms. Ryler's classroom. Shit! I'd past it by a long shot. Damn...I did a spin we'd learned in gymnastics, then started toward the chipper math teacher's room.

You push me away
Another black day
Let's count up the reasons to cry

I didn't even realize until it was too late. I bumped into a warm, quite familiar, muscular chest. I fell backward, landing on the floor, legs splayed and my school stuff scattered in every direction. I looked up to see, none other than my least favorite person.

"Damn you, Leo," I said bitterly, trying to gather up my supplies quickly, so I wasn't late for math. He tried to help, but I slapped his hands away. "I'm perfectly capable of using my hands, thank you." He stood up.

"Why'd you change your hair back to black, Piper? I love you're natural hair," he whispered. I finished collecting my things and tried to walk past him. "Why are you ignoring me?" Leo gently pushed me back to my original spot. I felt the tears build up behind my eyes, but I had spent enough hours, and tears, on him.

Look what you've missed, living like this
Nobody wins (nobody wins)

"I'm going to be late for math," I said quietly. He dug in his pocket for a pass and handed it to me. I rolled my eyes and grabbed it. "And as if you don't already know!"

"Know what?" he asked, puzzled. How could he stand there, lying to my face!? He at least owed me the truth.

"I at least deserve honesty, Leo. You could at least give me that!" I said harshly.

Searching for the truth in your eyes
Found myself so lost don't recognize

He searched my eyes for any clue. I'm glad he found none. He was lost, clueless. How could he not see the pain in my eyes? "Piper," he started.

"No, just leave me alone," I said. I could tell he was getting impatient, but so was I.

"Damn it, just tell me!" he yelled. I stood up straighter. Why did he keep playing that game? When was he going to snap out of his lies?

"How can you lie and tell me you don't know?" I asked. "You fucking lying, scamming scumbag! You just had to choose me, didn't you? You had to involve my heart, me, that's already been fucked up with enough? You have no idea, do you?"

The person now that you, you claim to be
Don't know when to stop, or where to start
You're just so caught up in who you are

"P-"

"JUST SHUT UP! You may be popular, captain of the fucking football team, but that doesn't give you the right to mess with me! When are you going to stop with this shit? Yeah, I've changed, but you've changed even more. At least you knew who I was. I don't know you anymore! You are just so caught up into staying popular, you just plow right through people, not caring who you hurt." Or kill... "You said you loved me-"

"I do love you! Where do I start to tell you why?" he interrupted. "Just let me explain!"

Now you're too high up for me to see
I'd never thought we'd come to this

"What is to explain? You lied to me. You led me on to believe you actually liked me. What is so unlikeable about me? Why do people have to screw with me? You...people really have no idea, no clue, about what I've gone through!"

"Tons of people have lost someone, Piper. Maybe not a sister, or best friend, but maybe a parent, loved one, whatever," Leo said mockingly. "You're not one in a million."

"You have no idea, do you? That's not what I'm talking about," I answered. "And Leo, thanks for the compliment. Glad I blend with this fucking world. Glad you don't notice me."

"That's not what I meant," he said. I scoffed and tried to pass him again, but he grabbed my wrists.

Maybe there's beauty in goodbye
(no one's right or wrong, you're about to fly, then you walk away)

"The hell you didn't," I said coldly, trying to tear my wrists from his hands. Not only because I wanted to go, but I still felt the warmth he exposed everytime he touched me.

"Piper, don't walk away. You love me," he said. I shook my head quickly, eyes glaring.

"You're wrong. I stopped loving you the second I heard that you were just leading me on. You don't love me," I said. He looked at me sadly.

"No you're wrong," he muttered. I gave a scornful look at him.

There's just no reason left to try
(now it's gone to far, look at where we are)

"God, Leo!" I exclaimed. "I know what it feels like to hate someone so much you want to kill them!" I whispered loudly. "That's not normal! At least not in my opinion! Do you know how much I wanted to kill those two guys who raped and murdered my baby sister? I'll tell you, it was my goal in life. Now that's not normal. And you said that tons of people, like ourselves I'm talking about, lose someone they care about. Was your grandfather murdered in cold blood? I don't think so. It feels different, Leo. It feels different then just losing someone to a car accident, or cancer, or old age. It doesn't feel right. It feels like a bag of bricks has been dropped from the Empire State Building onto you. They say that a penny can kill you from that high up, if it hits the right spot. Now imagine a bag of about 15 bricks. Have you ever felt this way?"

"No, Piper, I haven't," he said quietly. I had won.

You push me away
Another black day
Let's count up the reasons to cry

"Then you have no right to tell me that I should just get over it, because I am far from getting over it, Leo! There are so many things that I felt, that I feel that you will probably never feel in your life!" I said. By now, the tears were beyond flowing, they were cascading. I don't remember when I started crying, but I did. It gave a nice effect though...

"Piper, I-" I shook my head.

"Save it," I said coolly. He looked down at his feet.

Look what you missed, living like this
Nobody wins (nobody wins)

"Piper, I'm sorry. I honestly didn't know. Please just forgive me," he begged. I shook my head. "Fine. I'm done. In the beginning, Piper, yes, it was just a scam. But I learned. And if you won't take me back I don't want you back. You can go and die for all I care." I froze. The whole world froze.

"That's right because everyone wants me dead!" I yelled. He seemed guilty now, but he had said it and it was done.

"Piper, I-" I looked away.

"Why does everyone want me dead? Why do I not deserve to live as much as everyone else? Just answer my question and I'll leave you alone.

You never say you're sorry
Try to tell me that love me
But don't - it's too late to take it there

"Piper, I didn't mean it-"

"The hell you don't. Why do I not deserve to live, hmm? It's not fair," I said, folding my arms across my chest. He shook his head slightly.

"I love-"

"Don't even say that. I don't want to hear it. Not from you," I said. He sighed. "It's too late to love me, Leo. I can't love you back."

Maybe there's beauty in goodbye
(no one's wrong or right, you're about to fly, then you walk away)

"Why not?" he asked. Could I trust him?

"Because I loved Paige, ok? What if it happens again? And I hate you! You ruined a happy moment in my life. I actually thought that maybe someone did like me for me, and that I wasn't a freak, and that I shouldn't die!" I yelled at him. The bell would ring soon, and I knew Ms. Ryler would call Mom, and then I'd be in HUGE trouble... But oh well.

"I know what it's like to not want to live! I've felt it every fucking day of my pitiful life since my sister was taken from me. I have tried to kill myself!" I screamed. Leo stood still, shocked at the news I had just burst. Had I really said that out loud?

There's just no reason left to try
(now it's gone to far, look at where we are)

"And it didn't work! I wanted so desperately to just disappear off the face of the Earth. I was so close," I told him. "And I would have tried again, but then you came back! You moved back, and you were the only thing I lived for. It's amazing what one can dream of, but I loved you long before you asked me out. But you never noticed me! Not once!"

"I always noticed you, Piper. I thought of you every day. I would think 'why did she change?' to myself every time I saw you," he said.

You push me away
Another black day
Let's count up the reasons to cry

"Then how come you never talked to me? I know you saw me fall and get pushed and get insulted. But you never said a word to anybody," I inquired. Leo opened his mouth and then closed it. The tears stopped.

"I don't know. I was afraid. Please just forgive me," he said.

"I can't, Leo. I can't," I told him.

Look what you've missed, living like this
Nobody wins

I walked away, toward Ms. Ryler's classroom, but the bell rang. There were a couple seconds before the teens started piling out of their classes.

"Piper-" But at that moment, the rush came speeding out of the doors, and his words were lost.

I had won, but why did it feel like I lost?

(Now it's gone too far, look at where we are)
Nobody wins


Please review, thanks to those who did! Song is Nobody Wins by The Veronicas. This is a really good song, you should totally check it out, and this band. They're awesome!

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