Dear Newt
Ever since I could remember,
Everything inside of me,
Just wanted to fit in (oh oh oh oh)
I was never one for pretenders,
Everything I tried to be,
Just wouldn't settle in (oh oh oh oh)
Everything is messed up, May keeps having panic attacks, she only gets calmed down by me, and then she just cries talking about her brother August, and her parents that died from the Flare when she was little.
Minho is doing great taking care of everyone but I think he just wants to cry.
If I told you what I was, Would you turn your back on me?
And if I seem dangerous,
Would you be scared?
I get the feeling just because
Everything I touch isn't dark enough
If this problem lies in me
Brenda and me don't know what to do, I don't know if we are really meant to be together. I just don't know what to do.
I'm only a man with a candle to guide me,
I'm taking a stand to escape what's inside me.
A monster, a monster,
I've turned into a monster,
A monster, a monster,
And it keeps getting stronger.
You know you would have loved it here, everything is beautiful and bright, and everyone would have loved you here. You were the glue and I never told you how much I love you. You were my best friend.
Can I clear my conscience,
If I'm different from the rest,
Do I have to run and hide? (oh oh oh oh)
I never said that I want this,
This burden came to me,
And it's made it's home inside (oh oh oh oh)
I don't know what to do Newt, everything is gone. Everything I love is died. You, Teresa, Chuck, my family, and everyone else, what do I do Newt?
If I told you what I was,
Would you turn your back on me?
And if I seem dangerous
Would you be scared?
I get the feeling just because,
Everything I touch isn't dark enough
That this problem lies in me
And you know what, I don't even know if we should keep the human race alive, we are all screwed up, everything is a mess.
I'm only a man with a candle to guise me,
I'm taking stand to escape what's inside me.
A monster, a monster,
I've turned into a monster,
A monster, a monster
And it keeps getting stronger
I think this will be my last letter to you Newt, I need to find a way to live on, to see what the world needs, I don't know if I want the race to keep going.
I want to say before I go, I love you Newt, you were my best friend and I will never forget you.
I am sorry for what I did, I am sorry for everything.
Good-bye Newt!
I'm only a man with a candle to guide me,
I'm taking a stand to escape what's inside me.
A monster, a monster,
I've turned into a monster,
A monster, a monster,
And it keeps getting stronger.
Love, always.
Tommy.
