a/n Twilight is owned by Stephanie Meyers and I am just fantasizing using her characters.

Chapter 4

Bethany's POV

After I said Yes to becoming a Vampire, everything moved really fast. Carlisle told me that he would come by early tomorrow, and he would give me a large dose of Morphine. The Morphine would depress my respiratory system so I would go to sleep and breath really slowly. It would also lower my heart rate. If he gave me too much, I would just go to sleep and die. A little while after he gives me the Morphine, he will come back and pronounce me dead. He told me that I would need to tell my family that I had decided to donate my body to science. Maybe it would be used to train the doctor that someday will cure cancer? That means my parents will need to have a funeral, and burial without my body.

Carlisle and Edward left then, and he said we would see each other soon. Before he left, Carlisle gave me a shot of Morphine to help with the pain. I asked him not to give me the full dose because I wanted to be able to say goodbye to my parents and brothers.

When they were gone, Pops and I just looked at each other for a long time. Finally I broke the silence, with my voice all hoarse and raspy "Pops, if it doesn't work, I want you to know that I love you. Thank you. I know how hard it must have been to ask this favor from Vampires."

Pops had tears in his eyes and lowered his face so I couldn't read the expression on it. Talking so much had exhausted me and I didn't have the strength to move my head to see his face. He must have regained control of himself because he looked up at me and said "Bethany Lane Ateara, you have been my sunshine, my angel since the moment you were born. You've had me wrapped around your finger since the day you called me "Pops" for the first time. I couldn't let you go. I had to try. I am so proud of you. I love you."

Tears leaked out of my eyes and I didn't bother wiping them. "Pops, I am going to take a nap now. I don't know how long I will be out, but can you send them in here when I wake?" I could feel the dark pulling at me, trying to pull me under but I was going to hold it off to hear his answer.

"I will send them in here, one by one. I will also tell them that you think the end is near and you want to talk to each of them tonight; so they don't go back to the Motel. You'll get your chance to say goodbye." With that he stood up and grabbed the blanket at the end of the bed and pulled it up over my shoulders.

I let sleep take me away.

When I awoke later that night, I spoke with each of my loved ones and we said our Goodbyes. It was hardest with my Mother and Father. My brothers and I weren't very close. I had always been too frail to play with them; or I was in the hospital. We loved each other, but we didn't really know each other that well. When I told them that I had donated my body to Science, my Mother freaked out. The only reason she let me come to La Push to die, was because I promised her that she could bury me in California. I told her that she can still have a funeral and a headstone in California, but that my body would be used by Medical Students or Scientists, who someday will develop a cure for cancer. She hates Camcer almost as much as I do.

It was about 11am and I was dozing. Morphine makes me sleepy, and I can nod off in the middle of a sentence, and then wake finishing the same sentence. I heard a commotion at the door and a few minutes later Carlisle was in the room. He asked me how I was feeling and I told him "resolved". He smiled at that. Then he asked that everyone else to leave the room, so he could examine me. Mom closed the door behind her.

"It's time. Do you still want to go through with this?"

"Yes" I rasped.

"Have you eaten anything today?"

"No, I had some chocolate cake last night." I wanted to say more but it was too much work. I wanted to say how much I love chocolate and how I had wanted the taste of chocolate to be the last human food I ate.

"Good, then I don't have to administer as much Morphine." Then he took the Morphine vial and syringe and filled the Syringe. He injected it into the port of my IV. "Goodnight Bethany, I will see you soon."

My lids drooped and my heart beat slowed and I felt myself drifting off in a haze.

I woke up in a bright room. There were two walls that were all window and the other walls were covered in bookshelves full of books. There was a wall containing beautiful paintings, that didn't go together, but they were interesting. Above my head was a hospital lamp, I was very familiar with those and the hospital bed under me was familiar too. There was medical equipment all around the room and I didn't know where I could be? It wasn't long before an angel walked into the room. She was so beautiful and her long brown hair was wavy and luxurious, but it was her caramel colored eyes that were the most remarkable. They were full of compassion and curiosity.

"Hello Bethany, I am Esme. I am Carlisle's wife and he is at the hospital right now,. But he will be back soon. Are you OK, is the pain too much? I can give you some Morphine for the pain? Carlisle left instructions just in case."

"I'm OK for now" it came out as a whisper, and I was breathing hard by the end. She could tell how much it cost me to talk.

"If there are things that you need to say, I can call for Edward and he can get them from your mind for you? That way you don't have to exhaust yourself talking. Or if you want, I can just talk to you and you can just listen so that you don't have to talk?"

"You talk" I managed to get out. I wasn't curious about anything right now, I was in pain but I didn't want to spend what was left of my life in a drug haze. I thought it would be nice to listen to whatever Esme had to say. Also it would give me something to concentrate on, instead of the pain.

Esme smiled at me again, and started "Well you know we are Vampires, but that is not nearly as important as the fact that we are family. You see, I never dreamed that I would actually have another chance to have a family. As a human, I had a son. He was just an infant when he died and it devastated me. I threw myself off a cliff. Carlisle decided to give me a second chance at life. It was hard at first but I fell in love with him and the young people Carlisle brought to us have become my family. Now I am even a Grandmother. I never thought that could ever happen. Renesmee brings me such joy. And we will be an even larger family, when you join us. I expect we will have a lot of adjusting to do, but we are all looking forward to your change."

Esme turned her head like she was straining to hear something and the turned to me and smiled "there is Carlisle now. I am going to get Edward and Jasper and we will see you in a few minutes. " It felt like she just disappeared because she was there beside me and then she was gone. I never even saw her move from the bed to the door. My head was spinning anyways. Esme was so nice. I could see why they all loved her. I could also see her and Carlisle together, they would make a striking couple.

I don't know how much later it was, cause I may have dozed off but I felt the presence of someone else in the room. She was beautiful like the rest of them but her eyes were tinged red. I thought about the things that Edward had told me about red eyes meaning that they drink human blood. I started to feel scared. She put out a hand like she was telling me to stop and then she pushed her long mahogany colored hair over her shoulder and leaned over to talk to me.

"Sorry there is no need to be scared Bethany. I have red eyes because I have been a Vampire less than a year. They will turn colors soon. I needed to talk to you before they do the change, cause I need to tell you some things but I don't want my husband to hear. Edward is my husband and I am Bella. I see you have heard of me. Anyways, I went through what you are going to go through, not too long ago. They are going to want to give you a large dose of Morphine to make it so that you won't feel the pain. It doesn't work. You will still feel the burning, but the Morphine will paralize you. You won't be able to move or scream or anything. When the Morphine wears off, you will still be burning. Finally the burning will recede from your limbs and focus onto your throat and heart. Your heart will die and the only burning left will be in your throat. That will be eased when you hunt, but will be with you the rest of your existence. When you wake up, you will be overwhelmed. Just remember if it smells really good, it is human and you can't hunt it. Hold your breath and run. I wish I had more time, but just remember what I said and you will be fine. I will come talk to you while you burn, it'll help take your mind off the pain."

Then with a whisper of clothing, she was gone.

Moments later Carlisle, Edward and another gorgeous man entered the room. Carlisle smiled at me and introduced the new man as Jasper. I remembered Edward said he could mess with emotions. Was he there to mess with mine? I knew Edward was hearing what I was muddling in my head, so I let him talk for me.

"She wanted to know if Jasper was there to deal with her emotions?" he said for the others, and then he answered for me "He is here to help you be calm, in case you are scared. "

I understood and I wondered what I was feeling right now? I don't even know what to feel.

"You are feeling a little apprehensive and worried, but not scared. I read Jasper's mind for the answer." Edward looked sheepish at getting caught.

Carlisle went over to a tray that was set up in the corner. He handed Edward and Jasper gloves and face masks.

Jasper declined the gloves and mask "I don't think I can handle the human blood and since she is relatively calm and at ease. I will just leave for the actual procedure?" Edward acted like he was expecting it, but Carlisle smiled sadly and waved Jasper out of the room.

Carlisle brought the tray over to me. He then paused "Bethany, I am going to give you a large dose of Morphine now, then I am going to inject your heart with my venom. After that, I will be injecting your skin all over with my venom so it spreads faster. Edward is here because he has the most control of the others. If your heart stops beating before the change begins, then Edward can perform CPR while I continue getting the venom in you."

I looked up at Edward so he knew that I wanted him to speak for me, then I thought I trust you Carlisle and I am ready, I guess I will see you on the other side. Edward told Carlisle what I had thought.

Edward and Carlisle both smiled at that. Then Carlisle injected the Morphine into my arm. I could feel the pain lifting from my shoulders and the black coming up to embrace me.