Chapters coming on okay now. Please read bottom note.


~*~*~*~*~*~*~

Crushes.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

Harry spent the evening getting to know Lily and James as well as learning more about his fathers and Sirius, Remus, Draco and Neville. At ten he stood up and stretched, "I'm gonna head to bed, Is that okay?" He asked Lucius who smirked.

"You hardly need to ask permission to sleep Harry." Lucius teased and Harry poked his tongue out before walking to the door. "Hey, Harry..." Harry turned around to look at Neville, who had spoken, "I can kip in your room tonight... If you want... Maybe it'll help with... You'know."

"You don't mind?" Harry asked and Neville shook his head, "Well it hasn't been too bad since I found out about all... this." Then he sighed, "Drakey Babes?"

"Hmmm?" Draco said, casting a colour changing charm at Harry's hair, never taking his eyes off his book.

"Fancy a sleepover?" Harry asked, deflecting the charm with a flick of his wrist.

"Sure, why not?" Draco said, standing up and closing his book.

"Wait... What?" James was confused and the three teenagers grinned,

Harry took pity on the man, "We're all sleeping in my room tonight." He explained slowly, "Goodnight." He added and the three of them left the room.

"But why?" James yelled after them, receiving no answer. The other adults shook their heads in confusion.

Upstairs Harry, Neville and Draco had got changed and were settled in their beds. "So Uncle Sev read you the riot act yet?" Draco asked, smirking, Severus was the only one of his godparents that he called Uncle but that was because Severus had been his godfather even when he believed Lucius to be his real father.

"Yea." Harry muttered, "He said if I overstep the rules, by a long shot, then I'll get spanked!!"

Draco laughed, "Well Papa, that's Remus, threatened me with a spanking yesterday when I hit Nev. And I know Lily and James agree with spankings."

Neville nodded when he was sent a questioning look. "Haven't earnt it yet but I bet it wont be long." He muttered.

"I'd say you got off lightly, Sev and Lucius only ever give out spankings if you've done something especially bad, even when I was Lucius' son..." Draco smiled.

Harry was still worried, "It wont be like... bare will it?" He asked, his face pale.

Neville ran a hand through his hair before moving to comfort Harry. "Possibly, but you know Severus and Lucius would never hurt you like your Uncle did." Draco's eyes widened and he opened his mouth but closed it when Neville gave him a look.

"I know I just... I'm scared Nev." Harry said, a tear fell from his left eye,

Neville held Harry closer, "I know baby but it will be fine." He whispered, Harry broke down, clinging to Neville and sobbing into the other boys neck. "Shhhh, Everything's okay now Har." Neville whispered, "Everything's okay." He repeated as Harry's breathing evened out. Due to his lack of sleep the night before Harry had managed to cry himself to sleep and Neville lay him back against the pillows. "If you ever repeat what I am about to tell you to anyone else then I will personally kill you." Draco nodded numbly and Neville began to speak once more. "Harry was abused by his 'Uncle', For years and years. He was raped and then sold to some sick business men..."

Neville stopped talking as Draco leapt off the bed and ran into the bathroom. Neville summoned a glass of water and handed it to the blonde when he re-emerged. He understood what Draco was going through, when Harry had admitted his past to the boys in Gryffindor Tower most of them had thrown up. "Thanks." Draco muttered, taking the glass and downing it. "Do the adults know?"

"No, and they will only find out when Harry wants to tell them." Neville said, a look in his eyes that told Draco if he ever told the adults then he would be dead within a day. "Harry also self harms, don't try to stop him but if you catch him doing it make him take one of the blood replenishing potions in his trunk."

"Okay." Draco muttered, it was all a bit much to take in.

"Oh and Me, Har, Ron, Seamus and Dean are all blood brothers, since third year."

"Isn't that illegal?"

"Very."

"Bloody Gryffindors." Draco said making Neville laugh.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~

~HP~HP~HP~HP~HP~HP~HP~HP~HP~HP~HP

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~

"What's wrong?" Sirius muttered in Remus' ear, he'd noticed the werewolf wrinkle his nose when the boys walked in and that he'd been frowning ever since. "I smelt blood, not much but still blood." Remus said quietly.

"Maybe one of them had a nose bleed or something." Sirius said softly, stroking Remus' arm. He noticed Harry's eyes on them but when he looked at the teenager, Harry looked away. Sirius frowned slightly, wondering what was up with the teenager.

"Yea… you're probably right." Remus said quietly, "It's just… well Harry's seemed really unhappy lately…" Sirius turned to stare at Remus with wide eyes as he realised what the werewolf meant. "It's probably nothing." Remus added hurriedly, keeping his voice low, "But maybe we should mention it to Sev and Lucius."

"No… I mean, we know Harry better, maybe we should talk to him." Sirius replied, casting a silencing charm around them, unnoticed by the others in the room.

"He wont talk to me." Remus said sadly, "I don't know what I'm meant to have done but he seems angry."

"Don't take it personally Moo Moo, It's an age thing that's all… I bet even he doesn't know why he's angry at you. It'll all be sorted soon." Sirius leant over and kissed his husband, subtly removing the silencing charm at the same time.

"Eww." Draco moaned, "Get a room." He glanced at Harry, unsurprised to find him scowling at Remus through his frindge. Draco sighed, it was quite sick that his friend fancied his dad really.

"Foods ready." Severus said, poking his head around the door.

Everyone stood up and headed into the kitchen but as Harry passed him Sirius grabbed the boys arm, "Can we talk? After dinner?"

"Sure." Harry grinned,

"Great." Remus said and Harry's grin instantly disappeared.

"Yea. Great." The teenager muttered, turning and leaving the room.

Remus watched him go and sighed, then he turned and walked out in the other direction, Sirius frowned and followed him. He found his husband sat at the bottom of the stairs, head in his hands. "Remmie?"

"'M fine." Remus mumbled but didn't look up.

"Look, I'm sure there's a simple explanation for why he's acting like a twat." Sirius said, sitting next to his lover.

"Of course there is." Came James' voice from the top of the stairs, he walked down them and sat behind his two friends, "Just think about everytime he's given you a horrible look in the past." James said.

"It seems to be centred around when… when me and Rem are kissing or hugging or whatever." Sirius mumbled, suddenly understanding. "Oh god he…"

"Has a crush on you." James smirked, trying not to laugh at the disturbed look on Sirius' face.

Remus finally looked up, moving his hands off his face, his eyes were slightly red but he was smiling now, "That's it? The only reason he's mad at me is because he fancies Sirius and is jealous?!"

"Yup."

"But… But… He's my godson!!" Sirius gasped.

James shrugged, "Rem fancied his dad's friend when he was Harry's age right? Everyone likes an older guy, or girl sometimes, it's no biggy. Just treat him normally without letting him think he has a chance." James said, standing up again and stepping over Remus and Sirius, "Come on, Food time." He grinned, heading towards the kitchen.

Remus and Sirius exchanged a look, "Maybe we shouldn't talk to Harry later." Sirius muttered.

"What?!" Remus gasped, "Siri we have to. Besides it could help, the fact that he fancies you, he might open up to you a bit more."

"But… Then he'd think that we had a chance."

"Look Siri, we need to make sure Harry's not hurting himself, if this is the best way then…" Remus whispered.

Sirius sighed, "You're right." He muttered, "Come on, let's go get some food."

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~

~HP~HP~HP~HP~HP~HP~HP~HP~HP~HP~HP

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~

"What did you want?" Harry asked, sitting next to Sirius on the sofa in the man's room.

"Well umm… I've noticed you've seemed a little bit upset lately. I just wanted to check you were okay."

Harry frowned slightly, "I'm fine." He said.

"Come on Har, you know you can talk to me." Sirius smiled, putting his hand on Harry's knee. He winced internally as Harry's face turned beet red.

"I… Everything's just confusing." Harry muttered.

Sirius smiled softly, "I know what you mean. Sometimes I feel like I have no control over anything."

"Exactly!" Harry said, "You just feel like a chess piece in somebody else's game."

"Ever want to do anything to regain control?" Sirius asked.

"Like what?" Harry replied, crossing his arms over his chest defensively.

Sirius shrugged, "Anything." Harry shook his head in reply, "I… Okay here's the thing, I kind of thought you might be trying to cope with everything by… by self harming." Sirius admitted.

"What?! No!!" Harry said, but he was acting too much and Sirius wasn't stupid.

"Oh god Harry." Sirius whispered, taking the boys arm and sliding his sleeve up, Harry tried to struggle away but Sirius was too strong and had already seen the scars and cuts. "Why?" Sirius asked and Harry stopped struggling to get away.

"It helps." He said quietly, "With… with everything."

"It's dangerous." Sirius said.

Harry shook his head, "Not really, I'm careful. Make sure I use a healing charm before I lose too much blood, and I drink a blood replenishing potion afterwards… I just… I feel so wrong, so dirty Sirius…" Harry whispered, tears in his eyes.

"Why do you feel dirty?" Sirius asked.

"Voldemort's in my head… He might not be working alone but he's still a bastard… He kills these muggles and sometimes he… he rapes them. It's sick Siri… And I feel so helpless, and so dirty because I can't do anything about it! I'm pathetic, just like Vernon said."

"He said what?!"

Harry winced. "It's nothing, really Siri."

Sirius scowled, "No it is not nothing, he can't get to talk to you like that."

"Please leave it." Harry begged, putting his hand on top of Sirius' which was still on his knee.

"I..." Sirius trailed off, swallowing hard. Harry stared at him for a moment before leaning forwards and kissign him firmly.


~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~

Okay so should Sirius kiss back? And if so should it go further than a kiss? Should it be an affair or a one time thing and should anyone find out, if so then who?

Couples that have been currently asked for are Sirius/Harry, Harry/Draco, Harry/Draco/Neville, James/Remus and a bit of swinging between the couples that are Severus/Lucius and Sirius/Remus.

What are your views on these couples? Are there any more you would like?