Chapter 3 – Should've Said No

Looking at it now, it seems pretty stupid. I should've seen it coming.

Those tiny little moments we'd share were the calm before the storm.

I dreamed about our conversation and laughs by the lake for a week. A wonderful week when I was happy and oblivious.

Then one morning Maria tells me there's gonna be a dinner at Potter Manor that night. I was over the moon, I loved that beautiful extravagant house. And I was going to see James. My heart was so full.

I put a beautiful dress on, deep purple, long sleeve and heart shaped cleavage. Maria and I decided to let my hair down and a few braids here and there, so I looked like a fairy. I felt so pretty, and so nervous about seeing him.

How naïve of me.

-x-x-x-

The night started as usual. My parents and I got to the Potter Manor, said hello to everyone we should and parted ways, Mother and Father drinking with those boring friends of them and I looked around for James.

When someone patted my shoulder.

"Hello sister! I'm afraid we haven't been introduced yet. I'm Sirius Black, your future husband's best friend. You look beautiful, as usual." He winks as he kisses my hand.

"Hello Sirius, it's nice to finally meet you. Thank you, you look great too."

"I know." He is so smug but something tells me he's a nice person.

"So… Have you seen my future husband ?"

"Wow, someone is eager to see him. Ah, James is a lucky bastard… I wish I had a beautiful lady like you falling all over me…" He says dreamily and laughs. I can't help it but join him.

"I'm not eager nor falling all over him." A big fat lie. "I just haven't seen him yet, and this is his house. Besides, you have many ladies at your feet; I don't know what you're talking about Black."

He laughs and takes a glass of wine from a server. "You're right. I am pretty amazing. You know what, I think we're gonna be very good friends Evans."

"I think so too. I am pretty amazing as well."

We both laugh and he sips his wine. "Well, that bastard is around. I saw him talking to his Father and some weird old man with ridiculous mustaches. We can go looking for him." He offers me his arm and I take it.

"So Evans, since you're about to become a Potter there are a few things you should know. First of: I'm always around. You better get used to my presence."

"Ok, I think I can live with that." I smile as we continue walking around the Manor.

"Second: James is a pain in the arse, but you'll get used to it too. He can be nice when he wants to."

"Yes, I've noticed that."

"Third: Don't ever tell him a secret. He's terrible at kipping it, trust me."

"Ok, that's good to know." And in that moment we found James. In a corner of the room, kind of hidden by a huge sculpture. And he was not alone.

"And last but not least-"

"Sirius, who's that ?" I tried not to sound rude, but I couldn't help it. James was talking to a woman, a very attractive woman, and they were awfully close.

We stopped moving. Sirius looked over them and stopped smiling.

"Oh… that's actually a cousin of mine. Bellatrix. Her Father works for James's Father."

She's really attractive; long dark hair, pale skin and curvy figure. And talking very closely to James figure. I felt a pang in my chest.

"Don't worry kid, they're just friends. Besides, they're just talking." Sirius gave me a nervous smile. I didn't buy it.

They were so lost in their conversation they didn't notice Sirius and I standing there, just a few steps in front of them. But then the Bellatrix girl saw me, she looked me in the eye, turned back to James, and kissed him.

She. Fucking. Kissed. Him.

And he kissed her back. He put his arms around her and returned the kiss.

If I wasn't holding Sirius arm I'd fallen down immediately.

I could hear my heart breaking in a million pieces. God, it hurt.

Sirius looked at me as if he wanted to say something but didn't know what. There was nothing to say. I let go of his arm and ran.

I just ran until I got to a door that led to outside. I just stood there in the garden, alone in the darkness, feeling the chill of the night like needles in my skin.

The tears started falling down instantly, and I didn't try to stop them. I cried for what felt like hours in that darken garden.

My chest hurt so badly. How could I be so stupid ? I was daydreaming about a men I didn't even knew. James is a total stranger, I know nothing about him, and yet I've managed to fall in love with the idiot.

And then someone joined me.

"Hey… I saw you running over here. Is everything all right ? Are you crying ?" Amos Diggory's voice sounded actually concerned.

"It's fine. I'm fine."

"You're not fine. What happened ? Want to talk about it ?"

I was so tired and so sad that I just told him everything. I told Diggory my whole stupid love story that only existed in my head. And I cried even more telling him about the kiss I'd just witnessed.

He was a good listener. He even held my hands while I sobbed.

"Oh I'm so sorry Lily…I really am. Potter's an idiot. If he never noticed his beautiful girl then there's something seriously wrong with him."

"You are very sweet Amos. Thank you." I told him as I wiped my tears.

He looked at me in a strange way.

"I have an idea. I don't know if you'll like it, but I'd love to do it, especially if it means giving Potter some of his own medicine." He gave me a sly smile.

Uh oh.

"What is it ?"

"Well Evans, let's give that asshole something to care about. What do you think if we acted like there's something between us?"

"Excuse me? You want to fake an affair ?" I was so confused but at the same time…tempted.

"Yes. What do you say?"

I didn't even blink.

"Okay."

"Okay, cool." And he kissed me.

Amos kissed me.

He grabbed my waist and the nape of my neck and kissed me.

I knew he was taking advantage of my delicate state. I knew what he was doing. But I couldn't care.

When he kissed me I kissed him back. It was my very first kiss. And I liked it. It was good to feel wanted.

When we separated, I felt numb. Ok, I have no feelings over Amos but he's a great kisser. Even though I have zero experience, I can tell.

"Ok, show time." He took my hand and led me inside.