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Author's Note: Okay, so as I have said this is after Hawke lost her mother…but I forgot to mention that it is also after they defeated the Qunari…Hope that clears things up!
Never Let Me Go: Chapter 4
Isabela left the Viscount's Keep not feeling as quite as reassured as she thought. Though Aveline had given her good advice, she wasn't so sure that it really applied to her and Amara. Though the prospect of really admitting to Amara how she really felt was daunting, but she knew that it was the right thing to do. She stopped at the Hawke Estate and walked inside.
"Ah Ms. Isabela, welcome back." Bohdan said smiling brightly.
"Thank you. Is Amara here?" Isabela asked.
"She is in her room." He replied.
Isabel a nodded and walked up the stairs to Amara's room. She stopped at the door and took a deep breath. Isabela opened the door and went inside; Amara was lying in bed fast asleep. Isabela smiled and stripped down to nothing and climbed into bed next to Amara.
"I was wondering when you were coming home." Amara said, her eyes still closed.
"I thought you were sleeping." Isabela said.
"No, I have a difficult time sleeping when you aren't here to keep me company." Amara said.
Isabela tensed at this response, but she put her arms around an also naked Amara.
"I went to see Aveline." Isabela said breaking the short silence.
"And what did our fine Captain of the Guard have to say?" Amara asked.
"I just…I wanted to know a few things…so I went to see her." Isabela replied awkwardly.
"Did you find what you were looking for?" Amara asked.
"I am here aren't I?" Isabela asked.
Amara opened her eyes and looked at her lover in all her glory lying next to her. Amara could see the anguish and sadness on the pirate's face and she knew that there was some un answered questions in those deep amber eyes.
"Tell me what's on your mind?" Amara asked softly.
"I…I am confused about how I feel. I have never felt this way and I have got to tell you, it scares me." Isabela said before she could stop herself.
Amara just lay there in stunned silence; she hadn't expected the Pirate Queen to open up so easily, after all she had just walked away from her earlier.
"It's okay to be afraid. I know that you don't love easily, and I know too, that you have been hurt in the worst ways imaginable, but I have proved to you more times than I can count that I would not and will not abandon you." Amara said.
"I know." Isabela choked.
She was on the verge of tears again and she didn't want Amara to see her cry any more, but she couldn't help it. The tears spilled out before she could stop them and she buried herself in Amara's naked chest. Amara just held Isabela while she cried, trying to suppress her own tears, it tore her up to see her lover in such distress, but at the same time, she felt relieved, Because now she knew that her feelings were not one sided. After a long while, Isabela's sobs had died and they lay there in the perfect silence, listening to each other's slow breathing.
"Isa." Amara said tentatively.
"Yes?" Isabela replied.
"I have something to show you, will you get dressed and come with me?" Amara asked.
Isabela looked up at her lover with a confused expression on her face, but the look in Amara's eyes wasn't playful, but serious and concerned.
"Sure love, anything you want." Isabela said.
The two women got out of bed and dressed in silence. Once they were dressed Amara reached for a sheet of parchment in her desk and placed it inside her belt. They walked through High Town in silence, the sun was beginning to go down and Amara wanted to get to their destination before it got too dark. They continued to walk through to Low Town and Isabela started to get suspicious.
"Amara, why are we going to the docks?" Isabela asked.
Amara didn't answer she just kept walking, Isabela struggling to keep up as she continued to follow her lover. Once they reached the docks Isabela stopped dead in her tracks. There was a ship tied to the dock, and it was calling her name.
"Here." Amara said handing her the roll of parchment that she had picked up earlier.
Isabela took the parchment and unrolled it. Her eyes grew wide as she continued to read and then more tears fell as she looked up at the grand ship and then back to Amara.
"You didn't?" Isabela said though she already knew the answer.
"I did." Amara said nodding.
"But why?" Isabela asked, she was confused, she had never expected this.
"Because, I know that the sea calls to you." Amara replied simply.
Isabela shook her head; she had not expected this at all, never expected Amara to give her something as tempting as this. But Isabela had decided that she wasn't going to leave Amara for anything, not even this, not even for the sea.
"Do you not like it?" Amara asked apprehensively.
She could see that Isabela was struggling with something inside herself.
"I love it." Isabela replied.
"Then what is it?" Amara asked.
"I…I'm not going to leave you. So I don't understand why you did this, it must have cost you a fortune." Isabela replied.
"Oh please, I have more money than I know what to do with. And I wanted to do this for you, because I knew that you would always go back to the sea someday, it's all you ever talked about. So I have made it easy for you to fulfill your dream." Amara explained.
"But I don't want this." Isabela said rolling up the parchment and handing it back to Amara who took it in her hands.
"Then what do you want?" Amara asked not looking at her lover.
Isabela came to stand in front of her lover, she lifted Amara's chin between her thumb and forefinger and placed a soft, intense kiss on her lips.
"You babe. I want you." Isabela replied.
This time it was Amara's turn to cry. She couldn't help the flood of tears that fell from her eyes. Isabela pulled the older woman towards her and held her as she cried. Isabela ran her hands through Amara's red hair, rocking her gently as the stood there on the docks. Isabela closed her eyes and listened to the ebb and flow of the sea behind them, yes, it was calling her, but the pull, the beat of Amara's heart was stronger, and she decided that she wasn't going to leave this woman for nothing, not even for her mistress the Sea.
"Hey, look at me." Isabela said once Amara's tears had subsided.
Amara looked up into those deep amber eyes.
"I am not going anywhere. For the longest time all I wanted to do was get away from this place. Go back to a life of thieving and plundering, sleeping on a dusty ship for months at a time and never knowing where the wind was going to take me. But…when you fought the Arishok for me…fought all the Qunari…I knew that I wanted to be with you forever. I shouldn't let my past affect what I do in the future. I have known you for a few years and I know…I know how loyal you are." Isabela explained.
Amara said nothing so Isabela went on.
"I know that I don't have the best track record…and I didn't want any of this…the ship, its great and it's perfectly legal, but I don't want to go anywhere, I have finally found a place to call home." Isabela finished.
"Look I know about your past Isa…I know that you were hurt…I heard some things from people in the Hanged Man, but I never believed that they were true." Amara said.
"Oh yes, they are." Isabela agreed.
Amara shook her head and moved away from Isabela and moved towards the ship. Isabela followed as Amara climbed on board and walked towards the bow and stood there looking out onto the sea. Isabela moved to stand behind her, wrapping her arms around her lover, she felt Amara relax into her embrace. They stood in silence for a long time, just enjoying the steady rocking of the ship and the sound of the sea.
"I can see why you love it so much." Amara said breaking the silence.
"It is peaceful huh?" Isabela said running her lips up her lover's neck.
"Y-yes…" Amara stammered.
She shivered as Isabela began to rub her hands up her body. It had been a while since they had made love and she was wet and ready. She could feel Isabela's nipples grow hard against her shoulder blade and her mouth opened to let out a soft moan. She turned in her lover's arms and kissed her. Isabela moaned and pulled her impossibly closer.
"I always dreamed…I have always wanted to make love to you on the sea…" Amara breathed breaking the kiss.
Isabela raised a raven eyebrow and looked around at their surroundings.
"Well, we are on a ship…which is on the sea…" Isabela reasoned.
"You're right." Amara agreed.
The Riviani smiled and pulled Amara down onto the deck, settling between her legs. The younger woman moaned and ran her hands over Isabela's firm backside, squeezing it in her strong hands. Isabela moaned and began to remove her lover's shirt, moving down to loosen the ties that were keeping her pants on her hips. She moved her hand into the waist band of Amara's underwear.
"My, my, you're so wet." Isabela whispered as she moved her fingers around her lover's clit.
Amara's hip jerked upwards and Isabela smiled, she had her lover right where she wanted her. She removed her hand and moved away. Amara groaned at the loss of contact. Isabela stripped herself naked and did the same to Amara.
"I have always wanted to do this…" Isabela said planting kisses down the Rogue's body.
Amara shivered as she felt Isabela's lips move further down her body. She didn't want their make up to be like this, but couldn't complain, she knew that this was how Isabela let out her emotions. Isabela stopped at the apex of the Rogue's thighs, lightly blowing on the tiny bundle of nerves that was making itself known as the heat built inside itself. Amara said nothing, she knew what was coming next, at least this…doing this was one of the things that she didn't have to guess what was going to happen next. Being like this with Isabela was easy, and they both needed it. Isabela lowered her lips down, kissing the small bundle, Amara jumped and moaned.
"A little eager are we?" Isabela asked in her husky voice.
"Yes…I missed you so much today…" Amara all but moaned, pushing her hips closer to Isabela's mouth.
Isabela smiled and kissed the bundle again, this time moving her tongue across it. Amara's hips jerked forward and Isabela stopped playing games and sucked hard on her clit. Amara let out a gasp and ran her fingers through Isabela's hair, clutching at her, pulling her closer into her sex.
"Maker…Isabela…" Amara gasped as the Pirate added a finger alongside her tongue.
Isabela moved her tongue and finger in and out of the Rogue's sex, forcing loud moans to escape her mouth. It had been far too long since she had made love to Amara. She had only let Amara focus on her, and now it was time to return the favor. Amara moved her hips in rhythm with Isabela's tongue, but she needed more of the Pirate queen. With all the strength she could muster, she pulled Isabela up to her mouth and kissed her hard. Isabela got the hint and pushed three fingers inside, replacing her tongue. Amara pulled away from Isabela's lips and moaned loudly. Isabela sucked hard on the column of her neck, biting down on her pulse point.
"Fuck…Isa…oh Maker yes…harder…" Amara moaned.
Isabela obliged and pushed her fingers in harder, rubbing the heel of her hand against her lover's clit. Amara moved her hips, meeting the hand thrust for thrust, she could feel herself start to cum. Isabela sensed this and flipped them over so that Amara was now riding her hand. Amara buried her head in Isabela's neck and sucked and nipped at the skin of her throat as she continued to ride her hand.
"Oh Maker…Amara…" Isabela moaned.
She could feel herself begin to spasm. She had always been quick to cum, and that was one of the things she liked about herself, she didn't need to touch herself to get off. Just the feel of Amara moving against her was enough to push her over the edge. Amara in all her pre-orgasmic euphoria was going to let herself have all the fun, so without warning, she snaked a hand between their hot bodies and pushed three fingers inside the Pirate queen. Isabela arched up and Amara captured her lips in a kiss.
"Fuck…oh Amara!" Isabela moaned as Amara curled her fingers into her g-spot.
"Fuck. Me. Harder." Amara commanded softly between kisses to the Pirate's sensitive neck.
Isabela pushed her fingers in harder, reaching as far as she could inside the Rogue's sex. Amara moved her hand harder against Isabela's clit; she knew that it wouldn't take long for her lover to cum.
"Oh yes…fuck…Isabela…I'm cumming…" Amara panted.
Isabela moaned and moved her hips harder into Amara's hand while trying to keep up her pace inside her. She knew that she was about to cum and she was determined to cum at the same time.
"Amara…I'm…cum…cumming! Oh Maker!" Isabela moaned as she felt her orgasm rip through her body.
Amara and Isabela cried out at the same time as their orgasms rolled through their bodies, each woman thrusting with reckless abandon into one another. After a few minutes Amara collapsed on top of Isabela, her breathing harsh and heavy as she came down from her orgasmic high. The two women lay there, panting, taking in the smell of them mixed with the salty air from the sea. The ship rocked gently lulling them into drowsy post sex bliss.
"Amara…" Isabela said breaking the silence.
"Yes." Amara replied.
"Why did you really get me this ship?" Isabela asked.
Amara pushed herself off Isabela and sat up next to her.
"Because…if you did decide to leave…I was hoping that you would take me with you." Amara replied looking around the deck.
Isabela sat up as well, and took Amara's hands in hers.
"I…couldn't imagine my life without you Amara." Isabela said.
And there it was, the confession that Amara was waiting for. That was proof that Isabela wasn't going anywhere, that she was hers forever. Even though Isabela had said earlier that she wasn't going anywhere, she wasn't so sure that Isabela wouldn't leave her for this ship, and just hearing her say that, Amara knew it was a done deal.
"We should get home…as much as I love making love to you on this ship deck…I'd much rather make love to you in our bed." Amara said.
"Our bed?" Isabela said raising an eyebrow.
"Yes, since you…well you feel the way that I do. I mean I don't expect you to move in right away…but I would like it if you would spend the night." Amara replied.
Isabela let out a husky laugh and leaned forward to kiss her lover once more.
"Of course, anything for you Love." Isabela said breaking the kiss.
The two women got dressed, and climbed down off the ship.
"You know, they guys are never going to believe that you bought me a ship." Isabela said as they walked back through Low Town.
"They will, once we show them." Amara said.
"If I leave, I am taking you with me Amara; I hope that you know that." Isabela said.
"I know that now." Amara said honestly.
Isabela said nothing; she stayed silence on the way back to High Town. They reached the mansion and went inside, closing the door behind them.
"Come; let's wake the whole house with our passionate love making." Isabela said dragging Amara up the stairs to their bedroom.
TBC…..?
