Dear diary,
There is one man that always owns my heart. I remember the first time I saw him was on my first year cheerleader practice, he was dribbling his basketball. He looked up at me with his big brown eyes, and I knew I'll never forget those brown eyes. I can dream about those brown eyes. He is so breathtakingly beautiful. Breathtaking, literally. I can feel my breaths trembling and coming short in my throat. He has this power that make me weak inside. I thought that it is just my first year crush, but I am wrong. Even up to this day, he still owns my heart.
But I refuse to make the first move. For all these three years, I've just been waiting and waiting until he makes his first move, and eventually he did. Two days ago he asked me if he could walk me home, but as I had to deliver the copy of my notes to Laxus and Evergreen who didn't make it to school today, I reluctantly declined his offer. But I was glad that he was still persistent. He asked me if he could pick me up and we could go to school together the next day, and with all my heartbeat, I said yes.
I don't know whether I should be happy or not. I am happy that he eventually asked me, but I am afraid too. If he learns that I have leukemia, will he stay?
"Good morning Daisuke, you get here pretty early," Mira said with a warm smile.
Daisuke Obito. He was the captain of the basketball team. He was tall and lean, all muscle and sinew.
"I don't want to make you wait," he answered warmly, and she giggled at his answer, "Turns out I'm the one who make you wait."
Daisuke let out a breath he hadn't realized he was holding with a half laugh. No wonder she was so likeable in school. She was different from any other females that he went out with. She made him feel more relaxed on the first date.
"So how was Laxus doing?" he asked gently.
Suddenly a flash came back to her like an image pulled from a sky. She did something so embarrassing at his place— she collapsed and fell asleep at his place.
"He's fine. Today is his first day to school, so I can't wait to see him."
"Yeah, I wonder why he had changed so much. He was a talented, wonderful basketball player back then. Do you still remember his match?" Daisuke asked.
Mirajane nodded. "Yes, I was there during his first match. He was just so amazing."
She still remembered he was only in the team for the first couple of months during the first year. After he quitted from the team, he didn't seem to be involved in any other club activities.
Daisuke patted her head. "Ok, don't make me jealous. We are not talking about him anymore," he said with half-laugh. She blushed near scarlet at his answer and lowered her gaze to the floor. Daisuke gently held her hand in his. She looked up at him, and smiled when she saw Daisuke was blushing and looking away. It seemed that she was off to a good start today.
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After Daisuke took Mirajane to her class, he waved at her. "I'll see you at lunch break?"
Mirajane nodded, "yes, Daisuke."
After Daisuke left, the whole class cheered for Mirajane. Some of the classmates began to tease. "Congrats Mira, Daisuke is so handsome. He is a real good match for you!"
"Wow, Mirajane you get a date!"
"Mira, how about me?" some other male classmates joked.
And Mirajane just busted out laughing until tears fell down her cheeks and her side ached. "No, we are not dating yet!"
Suddenly the whole class became silent when someone else stepped in. It was Laxus Dreyar. They breathe a sigh of relief as they thought it was the teacher who went in, and they continued teasing Mirajane.
"Don't lie. I saw you walking together, holding hands from the bus stop to the class."
Mirajane just chuckled and she turned to see Laxus. "Morning Laxus, how are you feeling?"
Without looking at her, Laxus answered, "good," then he continued walking to his desk.
"Hey, man what's your problem. She even volunteered herself to deliver the copy of her notes to your place," Freed called out.
"Nobody asked her to," he answered shortly, staring emptily at the window.
Freed curled his hand up into a fist and raised his tone, "You—"
"Hey, hey that's alright. He's right, nobody asked me to," Mirajane told Freed calmly, holding his shoulder. She then turned to see Laxus and smiled at him, "I'm glad that you come back."
Yet Laxus didn't say anything. She was a great actress; he would not doubt that. And he just despised how she was convincingly hiding her pain and suffering from others; how she still sounded so calm despite her deadly disease. He also despised the sound of her laugh; how she could still laugh comfortably when she knew her days were numbered, but what he despised the most was how much she made him thinking of her when he was not supposed to.
Mirajane looked worriedly at Laxus. She knew she must have gone overboard by involving him in her lies, and she felt guilty for it. She tried to call him after that night to apologize, but he just never picked up the phone. She then texted Daisuke, "Daisuke, sorry, I've got something else to do during lunch break. Can we meet after school?"
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The bell rang, it was time for lunch break. Mirajane looked around, but she didn't find Laxus anywhere. That man was like ghost; he just disappeared within seconds. Mira was distracted by her classmates discussing the plan for school festival during lunch break that she missed his whereabouts. She had been asking around and eventually some students knew his whereabouts. "I saw him heading to the lake near school."
She glanced over her watch. She still had forty-five minutes left for lunch break. She then rushed to the lake, and eventually found him there, laying on the grass stacking his hands behind his head.
"Laxus, I've been looking for you—" She didn't even manage to continue her words as her gaze flickered over his beautiful arms, bent to reveal his stunning biceps. Her cheeks burned, not from embarrassment, but from the desire to see him without clothes. Did she just desire him? She cleared her throat.
"We have nothing to talk about," he said, looking up at the blue sky.
His question snapped her back into reality. "Actually we do," she said, laying her body next to Laxus. "A lot," she continued. She decided to just lay down beside him and look up at the sky. That way she wouldn't be distracted by his stunning biceps.
Laxus narrowed his eyes, and asked her coldly, "What do you want?"
"I'm sorry that I involved you in my lies to my family."
"Oh," was all he managed to say.
They both remained silent. "Are you ever going to get the treatment?" he eventually broke the silence.
"No, I don't want to," she answered firmly.
He then sat up and looked at her. He began to raise his tone, "Why are you so stupid?"
Mirajane tried to ignore his sharp fiery eyes by looking away and covering her ears with both of her hands so as not to hear the harsh words. She bit down her lips, fighting her tears from falling down. "I don't want people to treat me as an ill, poor Mirajane, and do you even know how much chemotherapy suck the happiness out of us? It even made us sicker than cancer itself!"
He leant down to take her hands away from her ears, and looked her in the eyes. She turned her head away, embarrassed as her tears betrayed her. But he gently held her chin so she couldn't look away, but she still lowered her gaze. "Look at me," he ordered. But she refused to meet his eyes.
"Why do you care how others see you? In my eyes, you will always be the same Mirajane with or without leukemia. Yeah, chemo sucks, but are you just going to give up without giving a fight? Did you ever think of your family and your new pretty boyfriend?
The sudden gentleness in his tone made her willing to meet his eyes again. She saw kindness in them, just like the night when she collapsed in his place.
"Don't you dare give up. You are better than this," he said firmly. The firmness in his tone contradicting the warmth in his eyes that comforted her tired soul. Her hand reached out to touch his cheeks, and he could feel her breath on his face when she whispered near his ears. "I won't. Thank you, Laxus."
Between the gentleness of her touch and her closeness, he was surprised that his heartbeat was quickened, and he suddenly became aware of feelings he didn't expect.
A/N: At first, I was thinking to make a slow burn romance, but uh, epic failure. Hope you still enjoy this chapter and let me know what you think. This is last chapter for this month, not sure when I'm going to update again because I need to study for national board exam. Thank you!
